I’m confused about my situation.

[rblonxo]

I go on TikTok and my feed shows me a bunch of these really attractive looking dudes who clearly have hardmaxxed and are above me in terms of looks. (Clavicular/zeta/nocturnalkent)

Just for reference. I’m 196cm/6’5 at 16 and also black. I have a goatee and the bones in my face have developed wonderfully imo. I’m not a “looksmaxxer” because I haven’t experimented with anything. I will humbly say this is all genetics and I’m basically a grey/new gen compared to you all. The most I’ve done was implementing supplements like zinc, magnesium, vitamin d3 + k2 into my life but nothing more then just supplements. that’s clearly not anything special. I also tried Bonesmashing but I figured it wasn’t worth the risk since I didn’t know what I was doing in the first place.

I keep overthinking. I can either stay as I am and continue life like normal, or I can learn whatever pharmacology has to offer and “ascend” even more ig?

This is the biggest issue I got though with “ascending”. It doesn’t matter if I’m outside with my friends or if I’m on my own. I’m always being watched, (obv not all the time but no joke 90% of the time when im in a public setting). Either by dudes older then me by 2/3 years, sometimes even by really older dudes or by girls. I’m being so deadass man. These girls aren’t ugly at all. You know those girls that actively date those scummy fake gangster typa dudes, yeah those ones. Idk how to explain it. I’ll try to list some photos of what I mean exactly.

these 4 pics are the same exact typa girls I’m precisely talking about. Be sexualizing themselves and shit. Especially with the yoga pants.

Another thing I notice is that when I practice semen retention while on a strict dopamine fast, everything is amplified immensely. I get into a train and if a girl is on her phone, she’ll put it down all of a sudden and look out the window and no joke just tries to lock eyes with me or glance at me repeatedly for like over 3-4 times. It’s like they are in a dreamworld while I’m stuck there just uncomfortable tryna look outside the through the window that she’s blocking. This continues until either she makes it to her station or I make it to mine. Are these not htb’s??

The looks and glances are always on me even when I’m with my friends, (a group of 4). If we walk past a group of girls they are looking at precisely me. If we go to McDonald’s and our table is facing towards some girls they glance at me any chance they get and also trying to lock eyes with me. Sometimes I get annoyed and stare back expecting them to look away but they just fucking maintain eye contact and it makes me feel embarrassed so I end up being the one to look away. Like any one of these fucking girls is fair game for me. Ik deep in my soul I could crack each and every one of them.

Sorry if I’m rambling I just want you to understand my social life when it comes to girls.

Knowing all this, should I dig deeper into studying pharmacology or am I safe where I am. I feel like I’m missing out on something big and the dudes that show their transformation vids on tiktok is what’s really giving me the most paranoia. I’m already getting enough attention from attractive girls so what the fuck am should I do. Is it too late???

 

[savage21]

I go on TikTok and my feed shows me a bunch of these really attractive looking dudes who clearly have hardmaxxed and are above me in terms of looks. (Clavicular/zeta/nocturnalkent)

Just for reference. I’m 196cm/6’5 at 16 and also black. I have a goatee and the bones in my face have developed wonderfully imo. I’m not a “looksmaxxer” because I haven’t experimented with anything. I will humbly say this is all genetics and I’m basically a grey/new gen compared to you all. The most I’ve done was implementing supplements like zinc, magnesium, vitamin d3 + k2 into my life but nothing more then just supplements. that’s clearly not anything special. I also tried Bonesmashing but I figured it wasn’t worth the risk since I didn’t know what I was doing in the first place.

I keep overthinking. I can either stay as I am and continue life like normal, or I can learn whatever pharmacology has to offer and “ascend” even more ig?

This is the biggest issue I got though with “ascending”. It doesn’t matter if I’m outside with my friends or if I’m on my own. I’m always being watched, (obv not all the time but no joke 90% of the time when im in a public setting). Either by dudes older then me by 2/3 years, sometimes even by really older dudes or by girls. I’m being so deadass man. These girls aren’t ugly at all. You know those girls that actively date those scummy fake gangster typa dudes, yeah those ones. Idk how to explain it. I’ll try to list some photos of what I mean exactly.

View attachment 4264237 View attachment 4264087 View attachment 4264232 View attachment 4264238

these 4 pics are the same exact typa girls I’m precisely talking about. Be sexualizing themselves and shit. Especially with the yoga pants.

Another thing I notice is that when I practice semen retention while on a strict dopamine fast, everything is amplified immensely. I get into a train and if a girl is on her phone, she’ll put it down all of a sudden and look out the window and no joke just tries to lock eyes with me or glance at me repeatedly for like over 3-4 times. It’s like they are in a dreamworld while I’m stuck there just uncomfortable tryna look outside the through the window that she’s blocking. This continues until either she makes it to her station or I make it to mine. Are these not htb’s??

The looks and glances are always on me even when I’m with my friends, (a group of 4). If we walk past a group of girls they are looking at precisely me. If we go to McDonald’s and our table is facing towards some girls they glance at me any chance they get and also trying to lock eyes with me. Sometimes I get annoyed and stare back expecting them to look away but they just fucking maintain eye contact and it makes me feel embarrassed so I end up being the one to look away. Like any one of these fucking girls is fair game for me. Ik deep in my soul I could crack each and every one of them.

Sorry if I’m rambling I just want you to understand my social life when it comes to girls.

Knowing all this, should I dig deeper into studying pharmacology or am I safe where I am. I feel like I’m missing out on something big and the dudes that show their transformation vids on tiktok is what’s really giving me the most paranoia. I’m already getting enough attention from attractive girls so what the fuck am should I do. Is it too late???

“My steak is too buttery and juicy”

All jokes aside OP, I’d try to bag a girl primarily which according to your experience, it shouldn’t be too hard. Pharmacology will not significantly ascend you the way you think it would. Also there are many side effects and other aspects you have to manage. See what you can do and if you feel like it’s not enough then you can delve into pharmacology.

Also it’s not too late. In your case it may be too early. I’ve seen others recommend test at 17-18 at the earliest (not too sure on this don’t quote me). Your height is good already so you don’t have to worry about that

 

[frentanyl]

Another thing I notice is that when I practice semen retention while on a strict dopamine fast, everything is amplified immensely. I get into a train and if a girl is on her phone, she’ll put it down all of a sudden and look out the window and no joke just tries to lock eyes with me or glance at me repeatedly for like over 3-4 times.

Sounds like you're approaching manic state

 

[shessonice]

I go on TikTok and my feed shows me a bunch of these really attractive looking dudes who clearly have hardmaxxed and are above me in terms of looks. (Clavicular/zeta/nocturnalkent)

Just for reference. I’m 196cm/6’5 at 16 and also black. I have a goatee and the bones in my face have developed wonderfully imo. I’m not a “looksmaxxer” because I haven’t experimented with anything. I will humbly say this is all genetics and I’m basically a grey/new gen compared to you all. The most I’ve done was implementing supplements like zinc, magnesium, vitamin d3 + k2 into my life but nothing more then just supplements. that’s clearly not anything special. I also tried Bonesmashing but I figured it wasn’t worth the risk since I didn’t know what I was doing in the first place.

I keep overthinking. I can either stay as I am and continue life like normal, or I can learn whatever pharmacology has to offer and “ascend” even more ig?

This is the biggest issue I got though with “ascending”. It doesn’t matter if I’m outside with my friends or if I’m on my own. I’m always being watched, (obv not all the time but no joke 90% of the time when im in a public setting). Either by dudes older then me by 2/3 years, sometimes even by really older dudes or by girls. I’m being so deadass man. These girls aren’t ugly at all. You know those girls that actively date those scummy fake gangster typa dudes, yeah those ones. Idk how to explain it. I’ll try to list some photos of what I mean exactly.

View attachment 4264237 View attachment 4264087 View attachment 4264232 View attachment 4264238

these 4 pics are the same exact typa girls I’m precisely talking about. Be sexualizing themselves and shit. Especially with the yoga pants.

Another thing I notice is that when I practice semen retention while on a strict dopamine fast, everything is amplified immensely. I get into a train and if a girl is on her phone, she’ll put it down all of a sudden and look out the window and no joke just tries to lock eyes with me or glance at me repeatedly for like over 3-4 times. It’s like they are in a dreamworld while I’m stuck there just uncomfortable tryna look outside the through the window that she’s blocking. This continues until either she makes it to her station or I make it to mine. Are these not htb’s??

The looks and glances are always on me even when I’m with my friends, (a group of 4). If we walk past a group of girls they are looking at precisely me. If we go to McDonald’s and our table is facing towards some girls they glance at me any chance they get and also trying to lock eyes with me. Sometimes I get annoyed and stare back expecting them to look away but they just fucking maintain eye contact and it makes me feel embarrassed so I end up being the one to look away. Like any one of these fucking girls is fair game for me. Ik deep in my soul I could crack each and every one of them.

Sorry if I’m rambling I just want you to understand my social life when it comes to girls.

Knowing all this, should I dig deeper into studying pharmacology or am I safe where I am. I feel like I’m missing out on something big and the dudes that show their transformation vids on tiktok is what’s really giving me the most paranoia. I’m already getting enough attention from attractive girls so what the fuck am should I do. Is it too late???

Only IOI is getting your dick sucked. You're just imagining it dude. They're probably scared of you because you're black or something. Not trying to be racist but you're definitely imagining it to some extent.

 

[rblonxo]

“My steak is too buttery and juicy”

All jokes aside OP, I’d try to bag a girl primarily which according to your experience, it shouldn’t be too hard. Pharmacology will not significantly ascend you the way you think it would. Also there are many side effects and other aspects you have to manage. See what you can do and if you feel like it’s not enough then you can delve into pharmacology.

Also it’s not too late. In your case it may be too early. I’ve seen others recommend test at 17-18 at the earliest (not too sure on this don’t quote me). Your height is good already so you don’t have to worry about that

Thank you

 

[rblonxo]

Sounds like you're approaching manic state

I’m not the best at articulating these typa situations into words but bro it’s just so obvious when you’re physically there. I’m not sure how to explain lmao