matthy
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I had x-rays taken of my hand and leg, my cartilages are about to close, my cartilage age is 17 years, 163.5, 5'4 they didn't tell me anything good about this, my father is 174..
I hate that my genes decided not to carry the height genetics of my father's family, why is this?
I'm about to get a girlfriend, After ascend a lot, girls look at me more when I walk down the hallways At school, I asked why my height had to be this way. I told my mother about getting a palate expander, but she's too silly to tell me to love myself as I am.
I wish I could grow to 180 or 175 cm. My father will be disappointed in me because my height has stagnated, while my brother will be taller than me since he has a different mother (stepbrother). I will feel humiliated.
I hate chile, I hate how hard it is to find peptides, I just want HGH and to inject 6-8 IU, no matter how much it costs me to grow at least 2-3.5 cm.
I'm sorry if this is long, it's just... it's painful that my mother, just because I'm her son, wants you to be okay, but you're not yet, even though she tells you "don't worry".
It's impossible not to worry knowing you can't grow anymore, and she blames herself. Sometimes I feel she does it so I see I was wrong, but it's not like that... it's my fault for being born this way.
I don't even have light brown eyes; the only good thing I could have inherited from my mother, I didn't get. My palate is a little wider than normal, but it's not enough. My neck is bigger.
I got to the point where my zygomatic bones were black from so many blows, my jaw hurts, I can't improve my hyoid bone...
If only my mother had done what she should have done when I was 5 or 6 years old, taken me to an endocrinologist to at least save me from this, I want to punch my idiot classmate who thinks he's the king of the world
He weighs about 56kg and is disliked by my entire group of friends. Wherever he is, we keep him away, but he still thinks his jokes about never being full are funny, even though he laughs to himself.
He doesn't understand that one punch is enough for me to knock him to the ground, he just thinks I'm a gentle person who cares that my mother felt disappointed by the fight.
Those words "you're never full" from him made me go from eating 1-2 bananas and drinking about 3 liters of water a day, to eating nothing and drinking 3.5 liters of water. I love and hate this, my life.
Do what you want to do, it's not about confidence, unless you're a 6'3" Chad, everything else is fake, I don't have confidence in myself and maybe you don't either
Try to do more things, try all the sports, do everything you can, if you want to lose weight, do it, nobody is stopping you, only yourself
Maybe in the end you'll find someone who loves you for who you are. God sent me a little angel, a bit shorter than me, one of those pretty girls that 30 guys look at, but then why does she love me? Thank you for loving me, it's been good for me, really good to go out with you during recess. Your smile is lovely, your hair is beautiful, and your eyes are gorgeous If I could give you the world, I would, but when you look in the mirror you already see the whole world, my world, you... thank you for being the one who makes me happy, you take me out of these thoughts And yes, maybe you'll never see this, but if I die in years and you feel alone and find this, I want you to know that I love you with all my heart, my love will always be only yours, my beautiful love Amanda, I love you.
I hate that my genes decided not to carry the height genetics of my father's family, why is this?
I'm about to get a girlfriend, After ascend a lot, girls look at me more when I walk down the hallways At school, I asked why my height had to be this way. I told my mother about getting a palate expander, but she's too silly to tell me to love myself as I am.
I wish I could grow to 180 or 175 cm. My father will be disappointed in me because my height has stagnated, while my brother will be taller than me since he has a different mother (stepbrother). I will feel humiliated.
I hate chile, I hate how hard it is to find peptides, I just want HGH and to inject 6-8 IU, no matter how much it costs me to grow at least 2-3.5 cm.
I'm sorry if this is long, it's just... it's painful that my mother, just because I'm her son, wants you to be okay, but you're not yet, even though she tells you "don't worry".
It's impossible not to worry knowing you can't grow anymore, and she blames herself. Sometimes I feel she does it so I see I was wrong, but it's not like that... it's my fault for being born this way.
I don't even have light brown eyes; the only good thing I could have inherited from my mother, I didn't get. My palate is a little wider than normal, but it's not enough. My neck is bigger.
I got to the point where my zygomatic bones were black from so many blows, my jaw hurts, I can't improve my hyoid bone...
If only my mother had done what she should have done when I was 5 or 6 years old, taken me to an endocrinologist to at least save me from this, I want to punch my idiot classmate who thinks he's the king of the world
He weighs about 56kg and is disliked by my entire group of friends. Wherever he is, we keep him away, but he still thinks his jokes about never being full are funny, even though he laughs to himself.
He doesn't understand that one punch is enough for me to knock him to the ground, he just thinks I'm a gentle person who cares that my mother felt disappointed by the fight.
Those words "you're never full" from him made me go from eating 1-2 bananas and drinking about 3 liters of water a day, to eating nothing and drinking 3.5 liters of water. I love and hate this, my life.
Do what you want to do, it's not about confidence, unless you're a 6'3" Chad, everything else is fake, I don't have confidence in myself and maybe you don't either
Try to do more things, try all the sports, do everything you can, if you want to lose weight, do it, nobody is stopping you, only yourself
Maybe in the end you'll find someone who loves you for who you are. God sent me a little angel, a bit shorter than me, one of those pretty girls that 30 guys look at, but then why does she love me? Thank you for loving me, it's been good for me, really good to go out with you during recess. Your smile is lovely, your hair is beautiful, and your eyes are gorgeous If I could give you the world, I would, but when you look in the mirror you already see the whole world, my world, you... thank you for being the one who makes me happy, you take me out of these thoughts And yes, maybe you'll never see this, but if I die in years and you feel alone and find this, I want you to know that I love you with all my heart, my love will always be only yours, my beautiful love Amanda, I love you.
