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I don't even feel like typing shit on here anymore because I'm demotivated af.
I have been doing shit in every single aspect.I have no friends,no social identity and lack knowledge regarding outside world.My family is in distress for me and it's not like they're always in sorrow for me,it just so happened this year that they got to know about all my hidden realities.
They used to believe I was a good person but after disappointing them many times,they have definitely lost some trust I'd say.
I don't eat enough and neither do I sleep enough in a day.I am built like a stick and have almost zero strength in my arms.
Wherever I go,I am seen as an outcast by others because I always remain silent.
Nobody likes to talk with me because of how Neurodivergent I am.
Pre pandemic life was good and I had lot of fun staying inside my house all day but ever since 2022,I went downhill and detached from reality.I lived in my comfort zone and didn't take any serious actions to overcome my problems.Now,I am confused on what I should work upon first.
I need to build a good physique,knowlegdemaxx,socialise with people or in school,up my facial attractiveness,get articulate and be more confident.
I need to set myself free from all the misery and move on because it would be meaningless to not progress just because of your regretful actions in the past.
Today,I appeared for a Biology test and got single digit(for the 2nd time in a row btw) and that lowered my motivation,not because I usually do good in Bio,rather I missed an opportunity to learn from my mistakes.
I just don't understand what to do at the moment.I am a fucking failure in every aspect.
There's this girl I began to like a week ago but today I realised that I'm simply far from her league.It pisses me off knowing I'll never be able to approach her solely because of my looks and she is miles better than me despite being a newbie.
Although she doesn't look that good but I still find her beautiful.
I didn't really wanted to type this as I was zoned out for sometime but I had to let my feelings out somewhere.
@2025cel
I have been doing shit in every single aspect.I have no friends,no social identity and lack knowledge regarding outside world.My family is in distress for me and it's not like they're always in sorrow for me,it just so happened this year that they got to know about all my hidden realities.
They used to believe I was a good person but after disappointing them many times,they have definitely lost some trust I'd say.
I don't eat enough and neither do I sleep enough in a day.I am built like a stick and have almost zero strength in my arms.
Wherever I go,I am seen as an outcast by others because I always remain silent.
Nobody likes to talk with me because of how Neurodivergent I am.
Pre pandemic life was good and I had lot of fun staying inside my house all day but ever since 2022,I went downhill and detached from reality.I lived in my comfort zone and didn't take any serious actions to overcome my problems.Now,I am confused on what I should work upon first.
I need to build a good physique,knowlegdemaxx,socialise with people or in school,up my facial attractiveness,get articulate and be more confident.
I need to set myself free from all the misery and move on because it would be meaningless to not progress just because of your regretful actions in the past.
Today,I appeared for a Biology test and got single digit(for the 2nd time in a row btw) and that lowered my motivation,not because I usually do good in Bio,rather I missed an opportunity to learn from my mistakes.
I just don't understand what to do at the moment.I am a fucking failure in every aspect.
There's this girl I began to like a week ago but today I realised that I'm simply far from her league.It pisses me off knowing I'll never be able to approach her solely because of my looks and she is miles better than me despite being a newbie.
Although she doesn't look that good but I still find her beautiful.
I didn't really wanted to type this as I was zoned out for sometime but I had to let my feelings out somewhere.
@2025cel
