I'M DOOMED

[pickleballdods]

I actually feel so cucked right now, I'm absolutely cooked!!!!! I've thought about just ropemaxxing so many times but I keep convincing myself that it wouldn't be worth it in the long run, I really wanna do it but I can't. My social life is genuinely cooked, the only thing people approach is about is my looks, but that isn't permanent.

I'm genuinely so frustrated with myself for being constantly annoyed, there's always the urge to say "Please, behave yourselves" but the thing is, I also need to be kept in check, it's not normal to have recurring thoughts of this type, I really don't like myself for it. Not only that, but I have no solid group of friends, all my friends have other friends, I'm always the second choice, they always text even when I'm there, and I get it, I can't go out but what can I even do about that?? I'm not allowed to. There are 3 other people in this "group" of friends, all of them are close to each other except me and it's just really painful. Not too long ago, we went to an after- school club and we had to sit at tables. I found an empty table for us, but there were only 3 seats at the table, and I spotted an empty seat at another person's table. I have crippling social anxiety, which obviously makes me seem like a cuck, so i couldn't go over and ask for the unused chair. They then come back and start complaining about me and how I didn't care enough to get a seat for that one more person.

This probably doesn't seem that bad, but it gets really annoying after a while. It's not like the person couldn't go over and grab that seat either, but they keep defending her and blaming me, it's blatantly unfair at this point, if I speak out, they'll treat me like an attention- needy person. How do I start making more friends? I refuse to be stuck at this dead end.

 

[e1488shciozl]

I actually feel so cucked right now, I'm absolutely cooked!!!!! I've thought about just ropemaxxing so many times but I keep convincing myself that it wouldn't be worth it in the long run, I really wanna do it but I can't. My social life is genuinely cooked, the only thing people approach is about is my looks, but that isn't permanent.

I'm genuinely so frustrated with myself for being constantly annoyed, there's always the urge to say "Please, behave yourselves" but the thing is, I also need to be kept in check, it's not normal to have recurring thoughts of this type, I really don't like myself for it. Not only that, but I have no solid group of friends, all my friends have other friends, I'm always the second choice, they always text even when I'm there, and I get it, I can't go out but what can I even do about that?? I'm not allowed to. There are 3 other people in this "group" of friends, all of them are close to each other except me and it's just really painful. Not too long ago, we went to an after- school club and we had to sit at tables. I found an empty table for us, but there were only 3 seats at the table, and I spotted an empty seat at another person's table. I have crippling social anxiety, which obviously makes me seem like a cuck, so i couldn't go over and ask for the unused chair. They then come back and start complaining about me and how I didn't care enough to get a seat for that one more person.

This probably doesn't seem that bad, but it gets really annoying after a while. It's not like the person couldn't go over and grab that seat either, but they keep defending her and blaming me, it's blatantly unfair at this point, if I speak out, they'll treat me like an attention- needy person. How do I start making more friends? I refuse to be stuck at this dead end.View attachment 3673096

 

[e1488shciozl]

I actually feel so cucked right now, I'm absolutely cooked!!!!! I've thought about just ropemaxxing so many times but I keep convincing myself that it wouldn't be worth it in the long run, I really wanna do it but I can't. My social life is genuinely cooked, the only thing people approach is about is my looks, but that isn't permanent.

I'm genuinely so frustrated with myself for being constantly annoyed, there's always the urge to say "Please, behave yourselves" but the thing is, I also need to be kept in check, it's not normal to have recurring thoughts of this type, I really don't like myself for it. Not only that, but I have no solid group of friends, all my friends have other friends, I'm always the second choice, they always text even when I'm there, and I get it, I can't go out but what can I even do about that?? I'm not allowed to. There are 3 other people in this "group" of friends, all of them are close to each other except me and it's just really painful. Not too long ago, we went to an after- school club and we had to sit at tables. I found an empty table for us, but there were only 3 seats at the table, and I spotted an empty seat at another person's table. I have crippling social anxiety, which obviously makes me seem like a cuck, so i couldn't go over and ask for the unused chair. They then come back and start complaining about me and how I didn't care enough to get a seat for that one more person.

This probably doesn't seem that bad, but it gets really annoying after a while. It's not like the person couldn't go over and grab that seat either, but they keep defending her and blaming me, it's blatantly unfair at this point, if I speak out, they'll treat me like an attention- needy person. How do I start making more friends? I refuse to be stuck at this dead end.View attachment 3673096

Honestly man its tldr and probably no one here is gonna help you, more over they could make fun of u. Talk to Ai

 

[pickleballdods]

Honestly man its tldr and probably no one here is gonna help you, more over they could make fun of u. Talk to Ai

I thought organizing it into paragraphs would've helped in that aspect but thank you