I'm evolving into something degenerate and vile

[Deleted member 104531]

So a htb friend of mine called 2days ago a cockroach lookalike in class
And awfully I felt so awful the entire class and then I excused my self to the bathroom and i seriously had to bite myself to stop my self from killing her
When did I turn so vile? Idk what went wrong man? younger me would've probably just laughed it off when did I turn into someone that wants to kill I feel so disgusted at my self

 

[Deleted member 104531]

I feel so so lost

 

[Shrek2OnDvD]

I can relate

My childhood innocence is long gone. The internet ruined me

 

[flippasav]

I want to travel back in time

 

[Deleted member 104531]

I want to travel back in time

Same but ik im just coping

 

[Deleted member 104531]

I can relate

My childhood innocence is long gone. The internet ruined me

I hate how inhad unsupervised internet access since 13

 

[IOS]

i face such shit alot of time

 

[Deleted member 104531]

i face such shit alot of time

Hope it gets better

 

[Noir]

So a htb friend of mine called 2days ago a cockroach lookalike in class
And awfully I felt so awful the entire class and then I excused my self to the bathroom and i seriously had to bite myself to stop my self from killing her
When did I turn so vile? Idk what went wrong man? younger me would've probably just laughed it off when did I turn into someone that wants to kill I feel so disgusted at my self

Honestly I wouldnt even care, does it affect the front you put on for others? Does it affect your looks? I am a pretty rotten individual on the inside and I have no literal "inner light"
I am vile and disgusting, ever since I was a kid there was shit wrong with me, I now know and I probably knew since back then, but I was still able to attract girls to me no matter the fact bcuz of my looks, and now I want to cover it even more by ascending. Maybe my last roadstop will be NTmaxxing.

 

[Noir]

Anyways me too brother, I too have felt like killing someone, like my ex gf who broke up with me due to "family reasons". I was planning to dump her when I turned 18 due to age difference, but she ruined my ego, and I wanted to kill her for that. I was having flash delusions of slicing her neck, which did freak me out, I didnt know why these violent feelings were coming up. I felt like a incels.is user for a sec before I realised I had a gf . I was able to drown out the noise with being with friends and talking to them about it and I felt that resent peel off.