PseudoMaxxer
It’s over.
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I’ve gone my whole life thinking i’m special and have something that others don’t, a delusional fantasy that pushed me to become better and maybe even more happier.
Everything is coming to an end now that i’ll be 20 yo in less than a month, it’s insane that I became totally the same as the people I used to redicule (wagies and my coworkers).
This morning I stopped when I was getting in my workplace to see all the other employees walk in and I asked my self, am I just the same as them? Am I really better? Am I worse than them?
And the answer is pretty straightforward: I’m like them if not worse. Atleast they were walking talking to other people or looking in front of them, I was hunched down on my phone doom scrolling even when I was walking in.
My brain is completely fried, I have no energy, nothing. I have no discipline nor motivation to do the stuff i’m supposed to do to become better and not end up in 10 years in the same place like everyone else.
What can I do? What’s there to do it for someone like me? Is there someone who feels exactly like me? Am I the only one?
Everything is coming to an end now that i’ll be 20 yo in less than a month, it’s insane that I became totally the same as the people I used to redicule (wagies and my coworkers).
This morning I stopped when I was getting in my workplace to see all the other employees walk in and I asked my self, am I just the same as them? Am I really better? Am I worse than them?
And the answer is pretty straightforward: I’m like them if not worse. Atleast they were walking talking to other people or looking in front of them, I was hunched down on my phone doom scrolling even when I was walking in.
My brain is completely fried, I have no energy, nothing. I have no discipline nor motivation to do the stuff i’m supposed to do to become better and not end up in 10 years in the same place like everyone else.
What can I do? What’s there to do it for someone like me? Is there someone who feels exactly like me? Am I the only one?