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i always thought something was wrong with me when i realized i didnt share interests with other guys..
sports , cars, beer, handshakes, going out to the club, job, hyperfocus in being masculine, mainstream dad rock, religion, or any sort of life goal aside from surviving and having sex
i thought i was behind, maybe younger mentally, i was waiting for a day to come where i'd understand how any of it was entertaining, i was waiting for the day to come where i would have interest in finding a career, having interest in driving a car, having interest in bulking up and being a big strong ogre to defend my mistress, but that day never came, only thing i could find interest in was the idea that something might've been wrong with me, maybe i didnt have the ability to understand something most could. turns out it was the opposite, i understood what most couldn't, that this is slavery and all this shit doesn't matter, not a day in my 19 years have i desired to touch a car's stirring wheel, not a day have i sat down with my dad to watch a football game, and not a drop of faith of a religious god in my heart
its depressing that i know ill be seen as weird if i say this out loud to anyone, they'll likely assume im mentally ill for not having these unnatural interests and goals, i feel claustrophobic in this society, im being tightened between these people who have already been fully taught to like certain things by the modern media, when i never was able to keep on with it, i feel out of place, even knowing that im not in the wrong, they are
sports , cars, beer, handshakes, going out to the club, job, hyperfocus in being masculine, mainstream dad rock, religion, or any sort of life goal aside from surviving and having sex
i thought i was behind, maybe younger mentally, i was waiting for a day to come where i'd understand how any of it was entertaining, i was waiting for the day to come where i would have interest in finding a career, having interest in driving a car, having interest in bulking up and being a big strong ogre to defend my mistress, but that day never came, only thing i could find interest in was the idea that something might've been wrong with me, maybe i didnt have the ability to understand something most could. turns out it was the opposite, i understood what most couldn't, that this is slavery and all this shit doesn't matter, not a day in my 19 years have i desired to touch a car's stirring wheel, not a day have i sat down with my dad to watch a football game, and not a drop of faith of a religious god in my heart
its depressing that i know ill be seen as weird if i say this out loud to anyone, they'll likely assume im mentally ill for not having these unnatural interests and goals, i feel claustrophobic in this society, im being tightened between these people who have already been fully taught to like certain things by the modern media, when i never was able to keep on with it, i feel out of place, even knowing that im not in the wrong, they are
