Im not going to church

[Jesus_ist_König]

Today is church from 7 pm to 9 pm and I dont wanna go and probably wont go. I feel bad for not going.
I dont wanna cuz:
- of all the ppl there
- I shouldnt meet ppl at night
- I should be in my room at night
- I found out about mexican cartel vidoes and I still have to process that disgusting shit, fuck the mexican cartel
- My parents probably wont let me out at that time
- I dont want to see ppl
- My hair looks ugly
- I look ugly

Im a fucking lukewarm follower of Christ.

I bro! I need my fucking adhd meds, i cant read the bible cuz I get distracked so bad. I will still read some of it today and pray later.
My fucking therapist still didnt answer!

 

[Bugmaxxed]

Nighttime church is gay

 

[LTNhell63]

ok just go on sunday

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

Nighttime church is gay

Yeah cuz its easter friday

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

ok just go on sunday

Okay I think i will take my medication that day. all the meds give me side effects but I dont manage to go out without them.

I told my church friend again about the voices and all the stuff and he said that i should act like as if there werent any persons but ugh its pretty hard.