Areuready
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I've had girlfriends before. I've had a few hook ups. I've had some very good looking gfs and female friends who were "interested" in me that i never went through with because I have the anexity part of me that doesn't trust people and am bitter and angry and so i have multiple times caused a rift between female love interests and I by being blackpilled. Weither or not being not blackpilled and confident would have changed anything is a different story, because i'm blackpilled and ugly I do not believed it would have changed anything.
Anyways as time goes on i talk to less and less women, I went from having girlfriends and going to college parties and talking to who i wanted there and talking about sexual preferences with them. To being an isolated blackpilled hermit. I went from hooking up with a female friend of mine pre-covid to isolating myself on blackpill forums. and I think it's for the better because i believe it is over now. I went from going to clubs with a woman to not. I went from sometimes being talked to at a busy bar to just not going.
Anyways my point is I am so critical and black pilled of myself I started to notice the same thing in other people and it enrages me that such flawed people would be so critical and hateful towards me but because they are semi-pretty boy they can get away with it despite not being perfect.
Then i came to another conclusion, that as long as a person looks normal or unconventally attractive looks don't matter too much to me and personality means a whole lot more.
Then it became very clear to me. People don't have much to offer outside of looks, everyone's personality is so insufferable, so rude, so mean spirited and self centered, narcissistic and evil people have zero morality and believes or sense of direction or self awareness at all. I am physically unable to be interested or attracted to people because I've valued personality so much and stopped thinking with my penis years back, dating is literally just being attracted to the person and feeding the other person lies that they're interesting and i just can't do it anymore. I can't be attracted to someone anymore unless there's chemistry and because i look the way I look there's no interest in me of being approached or liked at all, so even if i do have a great and likeable personality it's not going to matter at all because of the way I look, and because they are those types of people I have no interest in them the only interest i have is some how competing with and being better than them.
Anyways as time goes on i talk to less and less women, I went from having girlfriends and going to college parties and talking to who i wanted there and talking about sexual preferences with them. To being an isolated blackpilled hermit. I went from hooking up with a female friend of mine pre-covid to isolating myself on blackpill forums. and I think it's for the better because i believe it is over now. I went from going to clubs with a woman to not. I went from sometimes being talked to at a busy bar to just not going.
Anyways my point is I am so critical and black pilled of myself I started to notice the same thing in other people and it enrages me that such flawed people would be so critical and hateful towards me but because they are semi-pretty boy they can get away with it despite not being perfect.
Then i came to another conclusion, that as long as a person looks normal or unconventally attractive looks don't matter too much to me and personality means a whole lot more.
Then it became very clear to me. People don't have much to offer outside of looks, everyone's personality is so insufferable, so rude, so mean spirited and self centered, narcissistic and evil people have zero morality and believes or sense of direction or self awareness at all. I am physically unable to be interested or attracted to people because I've valued personality so much and stopped thinking with my penis years back, dating is literally just being attracted to the person and feeding the other person lies that they're interesting and i just can't do it anymore. I can't be attracted to someone anymore unless there's chemistry and because i look the way I look there's no interest in me of being approached or liked at all, so even if i do have a great and likeable personality it's not going to matter at all because of the way I look, and because they are those types of people I have no interest in them the only interest i have is some how competing with and being better than them.
