I'm slowly but surely becoming depressed again

[Bryce]

Waking up is my least favorite thing to do. I am actively destroying my body by making poor decisions yet can't find the motivation to change it. I am in constant physical discomfort and don't know if the surgery I got has been botched or not.

The hospital still hasn't gotten back to me about my condition despite sending them x-rays which THEY SCHEDULED a week ago. Can't call them until Monday. No idea what is happening to me internally.

I know you guys don't give a rip and I don't expect you to, but I feel like writing this down somewhere and knowing at least a few people have seen it is better in a way. Might be deleting my account soon, I don't know yet.

 

[incelincel]

you only get one shot at life, you can waste it, but no one will feel sorry for you, make it count brah

 

[22inchbideltmtn]

The facr youre still here shows you have some fight left in you, respect for that

The only way to go is to endure and make it to the top, youre in the roughest patch but itll all pay off and youll mog to kingdom come

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

NZK
Mirin

 

[asdvek]

I don't even care if I die at this point so I been trying to pick up fights with random people on the street ngl, if I get confronted I don't back down and escalate it type shi, dunno what the goal is

 

[Bryce]

I don't even care if I die at this point so I been trying to pick up fights with random people on the street ngl, if I get confronted I don't back down and escalate it type shi, dunno what the goal is

If I ever get cancer or something incurable I'm gonna cover myself in cow blood and hike around Wyoming until I get eaten by a bear or some based shit idk. What's the point in consuming tons of lab made pills and wasting away like a weakling in front of your family. Embarrassing way to exit this world.

 

[Dollus]

i'd delete account if org is actively making your life worse everything i do on here is just for laughs almost like a video game

 

[Ghost Philosophy]

What surgery did you have?

 

[Bryce]

i'd delete account if org is actively making your life worse everything i do on here is just for laughs almost like a video game

Doesn't make it worse per se it's just a massive waste of time which I could apply elsewhere. Aside from that it's a stale site now, nothing posted here is new or exciting so I'm trapping myself in a loop of boredom and frustration.

 

[Bryce]

What surgery did you have?

I got NUSS for pectus excavatum. It predisposed me to a leaking heart chamber as well, which gives me palpitations almost daily. Not sure if I'll need a surgery for that as well.

 

[Dollus]

I got NUSS for pectus excavatum. It predisposed me to a leaking heart chamber as well, which gives me palpitations almost daily. Not sure if I'll need a surgery for that as well.

damn i have pectus excavatum too that shit just over exaggerates the rib flare

 

[Ghost Philosophy]

I got NUSS for pectus excavatum. It predisposed me to a leaking heart chamber as well, which gives me palpitations almost daily. Not sure if I'll need a surgery for that as well.

Holy shit, man. No wonder you feel this way. I hope you get in a better headspace soon.

 

[Bryce]

Holy shit, man. No wonder you feel this way. I hope you get in a better headspace soon.

Thanks man.

 

[Ghost Philosophy]

Thanks man.

No problem bhai! And hey don’t think we don’t care. We care. Maybe not everyone, but some of us do. Get well soon.

 

[asdvek]

If I ever get cancer or something incurable I'm gonna cover myself in cow blood and hike around Wyoming until I get eaten by a bear or some based shit idk. What's the point in consuming tons of lab made pills and wasting away like a weakling in front of your family. Embarrassing way to exit this world.

My dad got a hidden gun somewhere around the house and if I find that shit I'm instantly blwonig my brains out he better hide that shit well.

Maybe not as my brother is gonna become a doctor soon so I don't wanna affect his performance if he'll care about it.

I don't know if I wanna kill myself or die while doing crazy shit tho. Probably the second one

 

[Ghost Philosophy]

My dad got a hidden gun somewhere around the house and if I find that shit I'm instantly blwonig my brains out he better hide that shit well.

Maybe not as my brother is gonna become a doctor soon so I don't wanna affect his performance if he'll care about it.

I don't know if I wanna kill myself or die while doing crazy shit tho. Probably the second one

Dude you shouldn’t kys. Rajesh Bullu must live on at all costs!!

 

[asdvek]

Dude you shouldn’t kys. Rajesh Bullu must live on at all costs!!

I don’t see death as that big of a deal, it’s completely normal. You’re born, and you can just die like that too. It doesn’t really matter in the grand scheme of things. I probably won’t kill myself, but I could definitely see myself dying doing something stupid.

 

[Ghost Philosophy]

I don’t see death as that big of a deal, it’s completely normal. You’re born, and you can just die like that too. It doesn’t really matter in the grand scheme of things. I probably won’t kill myself, but I could definitely see myself dying doing something stupid.

I understand where you’re coming from, but it is the unknown that is a scary thing. And yeah, could maybe be a parasite from eating raw meat.

 

[asdvek]

I understand where you’re coming from, but it is the unknown that is a scary thing. And yeah, could maybe be a parasite from eating raw meat.

No, I'm convinced it's impossible to get ill from raw meat. I have literally eaten rotten moldy liver and I'm completely fine. That convinced me for good. I've also eaten fear mongered raw chicken and was fine, it was literally rotten raw chicken too.