im the black sheep in my family

[160cmcurry]

my sisters have it way better than me, always did. here i’m rotting on an incel forum, reminded daily of my no friends life whenever i see people in friend groups hanging out especially teenagers. i wish i had that kind of ‘normalacy.’ i never had friends or female friends growing up, just don’t meet the base threshold for them. everyone else gets to experience a regular childhood, school memories, parties, crushes, dates, hangouts. i have none of that. having a ‘friend’ seems so foreign to me. i was born to be excluded, every little moment people talk about, laughing within break periods, getting texts from friends, getting invited to parties, things i’ve never experienced. i’ve only seen them in movies and in media. no real memories to look back on, “remember when…” there is nothing for me to look back on. i just wanna die but ****************** banned me, they had a great method i remember where you’d just sleep permanently but im banned there. no longer have access to that kind of information. i’m tired

 

[Kirby7000]

my sisters have it way better than me, always did. here i’m rotting on an incel forum, reminded daily of my no friends life whenever i see people in friend groups hanging out especially teenagers. i wish i had that kind of ‘normalacy.’ i never had friends or female friends growing up, just don’t meet the base threshold for them. everyone else gets to experience a regular childhood, school memories, parties, crushes, dates, hangouts. i have none of that. having a ‘friend’ seems so foreign to me. i was born to be excluded, every little moment people talk about, laughing within break periods, getting texts from friends, getting invited to parties, things i’ve never experienced. i’ve only seen them in movies and in media. no real memories to look back on, “remember when…” there is nothing for me to look back on. i just wanna die but ****************** banned me, they had a great method i remember where you’d just sleep permanently but im banned there. no longer have access to that kind of information. i’m tired

Ill be your friend

 

[160cmcurry]

Ill be your friend

online friends don’t count, i just want to experience what it’s like to do normal friend stuff such as going to the movie theaters together, hanging out in some mall, sitting around talking about nothing, getting food together, just laughing about nothing. i want the dumb little moments that seem so meaningless to everyone else but feel like everything to me

 

[160cmcurry]

 

[brownmutt42]

Are you autistic?

 

[160cmcurry]

Are you autistic?

no, just ugly, short, and a garbage voice. enough said. meds of any sort besides marijuana won’t do shit for me. bengalis in general tend to be surrounded by non nt inbred subhuman losers growing up, was just surrounded by religious freaks who would beat me up reciting arabic verses at some mosque

 

[brownmutt42]

no, just ugly, short, and a garbage voice. enough said. meds of any sort besides marijuana won’t do shit for me. bengalis in general tend to be surrounded by non nt inbred subhuman losers growing up, was just surrounded by religious freaks who would beat me up reciting arabic verses at some mosque

most ethnics tend to group up from what I’ve seen, you can’t be the only bengal in your area right?

 

[UtahParentCenterPSL]

my sisters have it way better than me, always did. here i’m rotting on an incel forum, reminded daily of my no friends life whenever i see people in friend groups hanging out especially teenagers. i wish i had that kind of ‘normalacy.’ i never had friends or female friends growing up, just don’t meet the base threshold for them. everyone else gets to experience a regular childhood, school memories, parties, crushes, dates, hangouts. i have none of that. having a ‘friend’ seems so foreign to me. i was born to be excluded, every little moment people talk about, laughing within break periods, getting texts from friends, getting invited to parties, things i’ve never experienced. i’ve only seen them in movies and in media. no real memories to look back on, “remember when…” there is nothing for me to look back on. i just wanna die but ****************** banned me, they had a great method i remember where you’d just sleep permanently but im banned there. no longer have access to that kind of information. i’m tired

jobmaxx or get into hobbies also dnr

 

[160cmcurry]

most ethnics tend to group up from what I’ve seen, you can’t be the only bengal in your area right?

other bengalis don’t wanna be around me nor other ethnics, a disgusting genetic garbage base. i used to cope with chinese cartoons and chinese cartoon books back then before my subconscious mind came to the realization that all of it’s a cope, subhuman cope that i cope with because of my lack of ‘real life.’ i have no hobbies. other ethnics despise genetic trash like me, i don’t meet the looks threshold to even be friends with ethnics. having ‘similar interests’ doesn’t really mean anything if you don’t meet the base threshold for them to even tolerate you enough to befriend you

 

[160cmcurry]

jobmaxx or get into hobbies also dnr

was employed at a warehouse for awhile before i quit and decided to go back to school. i have no hobbies because any hobby i try to pursue is just subhuman cope, cope that i have no friends and that the reason i’m doing it is because of my inability to make friends. anything i do is a cope and just a distraction because i have no friends

 

[UtahParentCenterPSL]

was employed at a warehouse for awhile before i quit and decided to go back to school. i have no hobbies because any hobby i try to pursue is just subhuman cope, cope that i have no friends and that the reason i’m doing it is because of my inability to make friends. anything i do is a cope and just a distraction because i have no friends

slap yourself in the face! hobbies are subhuman cope? EVERYONE NT DOES THEM BRO. If you go out and talk to people then you won't be in this state

 

[brownmutt42]

other bengalis don’t wanna be around me nor other ethnics, a disgusting genetic garbage base. i used to cope with chinese cartoons and chinese cartoon books back then before my subconscious mind came to the realization that all of it’s a cope, subhuman cope that i cope with because of my lack of ‘real life.’ i have no hobbies. other ethnics despise genetic trash like me, i don’t meet the looks threshold to even be friends with ethnics. having ‘similar interests’ doesn’t really mean anything if you don’t meet the base threshold for them to even tolerate you enough to befriend you

It can’t be that bad, we need copes due to our shitty lives, most things are cope anyway. Have you never had bengali/ethnic friends as a kid?

 

[160cmcurry]

slap yourself in the face! hobbies are subhuman cope? EVERYONE NT DOES THEM BRO. If you go out and talk to people then you won't be in this state

hobbies aren’t inherently a cope for people with friends, these people use these ‘hobbies’ to develop or deepen their bonds with their friends. i have none of that. think i haven’t already tried that, already went out and talked to people before. forced myself into social settings, tried to play the part, fake the smile, but none of it really mattered. when you don’t meet the looks or base threshold, it doesn’t matter. they will use any excuse to not be around you, anything other than my genetic threshold, looks, height, voice. my interests, my energy, but i know it’s just how i look and sound. they just don’t want to admit it. hobbies are a way to make memories, strengthen friendships, be part of something you genuinely enjoy. i have none of that. every hobby i try to pursue is just another reminder that im alone, just cope to pass by time

 

[160cmcurry]

It can’t be that bad, we need copes due to our shitty lives, most things are cope anyway. Have you never had bengali/ethnic friends as a kid?

a few bengalis when i was really young, but they were just non nt subhuman losers. one was literally disabled and retarded, another was morbidly obese, and one had a weird fixation over the napoleonic era. not even really a ‘friend’ thing at that point, it’s just being lumped in with people even more socially rejected than me. either way, things didn’t really go well. the disabled retard would try and cause unnecessary drama and had an annoying lisp too, and the morbidly obese one was just mentally behind, so mentally underdeveloped, felt like he was 8+ years mentally behind compared to his physical age. nothing really felt real with them. no actual connection, no depth, just me tolerating them. never really was a ‘friend’ thing between them, it was just shared isolation. both were so fucking weird too, didn’t even try to be ‘normal’

 

[brownmutt42]

a few bengalis when i was really young, but they were just non nt subhuman losers. one was literally disabled and retarded, another was morbidly obese, and one had a weird fixation over the napoleonic era. not even really a ‘friend’ thing at that point, it’s just being lumped in with people even more socially rejected than me. either way, things didn’t really go well. the disabled retard would try and cause unnecessary drama and had an annoying lisp too, and the morbidly obese one was just mentally behind, so mentally underdeveloped, felt like he was 8+ years mentally behind compared to his physical age. nothing really felt real with them. no actual connection, no depth, just me tolerating them. never really was a ‘friend’ thing between them, it was just shared isolation. both were so fucking weird too, didn’t even try to be ‘normal’

Would you rather be friends with a subhuman or have no friends at all? Genuine question

 

[160cmcurry]

Would you rather be friends with a subhuman or have no friends at all? Genuine question

they weren’t good people regardless of their looks. i would, if they actually had some level of mutual respect with me