SnowyWeather
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Over the past few months, I’ve felt more miserable than any other time in life (that’s why I made my acc). I never really wanted to looksmax. I just wanted a community.
I’ve been ruining my life and making it worse and worse. I’m genuinely the most pathetic person I’ve ever seen.
I made a journal of “suicide notes” to try and cope and convince myself to feel better
genuinely corny asf. I pray this doesn’t make it into an evisceration thread one day.
I’ve been a loser porn addict. For the past week and a half I “quit” jerking to porn (opted for imagination and like audios and shit), but I’ve realized it’s all stupid and cuck behavior. Wasting my nut and my T
I’ve convinced myself my life is over, but I’ve never actually tried to change it.
My problem has been that I live for no reason. I wake up, waste oxygen, emmit carbons, and go to bed so it can happen all over again. My life is completely useless to the world. If I would’ve never existed, everything would be exactly the same.
So I’m giving myself a purpose. Fuck being mediocre at volleyball, fuck plateauing at V4s, fuck 8 ball, fuck video games. I’m going to be a bodybuilder.
Not a gymcel, not a gymrat, not training for “aesthetics”, I’m training to get big asf. I get big, rob some niggas with suburban jugging methods, then spam hgh and test until my muscles explode.
I don’t have an endpoint. Heart attack at 30, mr. Olympia, I couldn’t care less. I jerk off because I was bored, nothing to do. Now I’m spending every free minute fucking working. I’m tired of being a loser. If I don’t become jacked as shit I’ll rope, but until then I’m working.
This means no eating like shit, no jerking off, no wasting my time talking to stupid normie fucks that I want to decapitate. Counting every calorie, tracking all macros, eating the best foods, training the best way. Jeff nipples or whatever the fuck is a faggot but i might listen to him for the science based lifting shit
I’ve already deleted all my cucked social media that were melting my brain and turning me into a goy.
I’m finally living with a purpose. If my life is still shit here, I truly am worthless.
Tldr: my life was cucked, I’m now a new high t gymming user
Over the past few months, I’ve felt more miserable than any other time in life (that’s why I made my acc). I never really wanted to looksmax. I just wanted a community.
I’ve been ruining my life and making it worse and worse. I’m genuinely the most pathetic person I’ve ever seen.
I made a journal of “suicide notes” to try and cope and convince myself to feel better
I’ve been a loser porn addict. For the past week and a half I “quit” jerking to porn (opted for imagination and like audios and shit), but I’ve realized it’s all stupid and cuck behavior. Wasting my nut and my T
I’ve convinced myself my life is over, but I’ve never actually tried to change it.
My problem has been that I live for no reason. I wake up, waste oxygen, emmit carbons, and go to bed so it can happen all over again. My life is completely useless to the world. If I would’ve never existed, everything would be exactly the same.
So I’m giving myself a purpose. Fuck being mediocre at volleyball, fuck plateauing at V4s, fuck 8 ball, fuck video games. I’m going to be a bodybuilder.
Not a gymcel, not a gymrat, not training for “aesthetics”, I’m training to get big asf. I get big, rob some niggas with suburban jugging methods, then spam hgh and test until my muscles explode.
I don’t have an endpoint. Heart attack at 30, mr. Olympia, I couldn’t care less. I jerk off because I was bored, nothing to do. Now I’m spending every free minute fucking working. I’m tired of being a loser. If I don’t become jacked as shit I’ll rope, but until then I’m working.
This means no eating like shit, no jerking off, no wasting my time talking to stupid normie fucks that I want to decapitate. Counting every calorie, tracking all macros, eating the best foods, training the best way. Jeff nipples or whatever the fuck is a faggot but i might listen to him for the science based lifting shit
I’ve already deleted all my cucked social media that were melting my brain and turning me into a goy.
I’m finally living with a purpose. If my life is still shit here, I truly am worthless.
Tldr: my life was cucked, I’m now a new high t gymming user
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