Apparition
Aimless Spirit
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Back in may 2023 I had so much energy in me when I made a tinder account. I was going to the gym and did crazy stuff like running in the mountains, stuff that I wanted to do for years.
And these were things that I genuinely believed would ascend me and I had spent lots of time and energy on them. Texting with good looking girl gave so much validation so I felt that alll these things I had done were paying off.
Then I met her in person and my bubble was broken. She brutally rejected me and effectively castrrated me. And my bubble broke again when I realized she was using me as an emotional tampon and what I thought it was validation from her was nothing but gaslighting to keep me hooked.
And these were things that I genuinely believed would ascend me and I had spent lots of time and energy on them. Texting with good looking girl gave so much validation so I felt that alll these things I had done were paying off.
Then I met her in person and my bubble was broken. She brutally rejected me and effectively castrrated me. And my bubble broke again when I realized she was using me as an emotional tampon and what I thought it was validation from her was nothing but gaslighting to keep me hooked.