jules-pill
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Is anyone else like this? When I was in 5th grade there was some girl i rlly loved, she def loved me too but yea she was toxic n shit and made fun of my freinds. So one day, when we went to church on the last school day, I checked my phone and there was a message from her sent last night where she told me abt how creepy my best friend is. And, matter of fact, I lent the phone to him to show him and let him go thru our text messages to ensure i wasnt making fun of him. then, she continued to dry text me n shit and yea i was young i didnt know i made a mistake and didnt know hoiw to handle the situation. anso so, our hearts drifted further and further apart. its sad how theres so many types of glues in the world but none can fix a distant heart. yea she bullied me n shit. shes the reason i got into anime and also the reason for my inability to love (or rather, my many mistakes were the reason). i really wish i could turn back time and prevent this and be all right further on. later, she switched schools but the distorted image of mine she created still exists. the girls who used to be in my class treat me like a fucking pig. idk what she said abt me. but whats so ironic abt that is that i fucking catch them staring at my giga hot face. fuck life bra. when i think abt it she turned even the nice girls into distusting egoistic foids. when she was in class, i felt like i could see the environement changing. she was also an attention whore. ill describe her: ukranian, dyed blonde hair, short, nice slim body, face idk (too dead to be able to look at it), laughs in this foid-looking-down-on-you-manner. but aside from that, on the rare occasions that i see her, i rlly want to impress her. i cant make up to talk to her, shed tell the entire school. maan, somehow i always get involved with the wrong girls. also, i know this thread appears very negative but i loved her for her good qualities: fun to be around, caring, always texting me, always making me happy, always teaching me abt new things, the way she once walked into swimming class with clothes on (like a goddess);she didnt want to swim bc lazy, watching chainsaw man and vanitas (bitch ass shows), also i think shes goodloking but evb said back then shes not. today, she def is. i could go on.
anyways, point is, chikldhood love destroyed my heart and left me in a dark void filled of emptiness. idk if she feels that way 2 but it could be cuz she tried to talk with me twive a yr after the incident but i was to dull to notice. also, she always like looks at me when she sees me and laughs abt my friends but never me.
i hate my life i just wanted love and now ts if i wanted to fix it id need to go to therapy but i dont want to tell my parents this story. im tearing up.
like she was so influental its insane evb changed n turned against me, my homies were making fun of me for liking her 2 except my best friend. when i think abt it, thats when our bond strengthened a lot. man i love him hes the greatest person in the world
also all the freinds she oncce had (prob cuz she was pouplar) arent her friends anymore.
also, she lent my vanitas mangas. i still rememebr how ankwardly i gave them back, the good times....
anyways, point is, chikldhood love destroyed my heart and left me in a dark void filled of emptiness. idk if she feels that way 2 but it could be cuz she tried to talk with me twive a yr after the incident but i was to dull to notice. also, she always like looks at me when she sees me and laughs abt my friends but never me.
i hate my life i just wanted love and now ts if i wanted to fix it id need to go to therapy but i dont want to tell my parents this story. im tearing up.
like she was so influental its insane evb changed n turned against me, my homies were making fun of me for liking her 2 except my best friend. when i think abt it, thats when our bond strengthened a lot. man i love him hes the greatest person in the world
also all the freinds she oncce had (prob cuz she was pouplar) arent her friends anymore.
also, she lent my vanitas mangas. i still rememebr how ankwardly i gave them back, the good times....
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