Junon
might ascend to high ltn by 2030
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I'll start with a warning : this is gonna be an insufferable fakecel post but this literally can't get out of my head and i need to express it in a place where i don't care if people judge me, no one here is gonna read this shit anyway 
Ok so yesterday i was with a friend at a bar and when we enter the bar i immediately make a long (around 5 seconds) eye contact with a girl,honestly stacylite (her eyes were the most beautiful eyes i have ever seen in real life) , i even started to get a boner because she was so damn beautiful.
My friend notices the thing and tells me "What are you doing nigga go talk to her" and i start coping about some "nah bro i'm not sure she was looking at me" (we both were looking at eachother straight in the eye) and after like half an hour we leave the club and go to another bar but i was shit so we get to the club next to the first bar, and when we enter guess who was there ? We made eye-contact around a dozen times throughout the night,she was obviously waiting for me to come talk to her and we even sympathized with some dude that turned out to be one of the girl's friend. When we decided to leave the club we went to personally say him goodbye and he was with her : she was looking at me like a diabetic kid would look at a bag of jelly beans, she gave me that "please fuck me" look and i was standing there shitting in my fucking pants, forcing myself to hold eye contact and didn't even asked for her name. My friend called me a bitch for it and i didn't even argued with him because i agree.
The thing is, years and years of constant self-evaluation and thriving for improvement turned the sub3 i was into a decent-looking guy but completely obliterated the self-confidence i had, it's like i dreamt all these years about touching the sun and now that i can have it in the palm of my hand i'm too scared that it would burn my hands.
I shouldn't feel this way, i know i shouldn't feel this way : like i said i am decent-looking and i'm even 6'5 i shouldn't have any problem with getting girls, but the thing is the problem isn't about getting girls anymore. The problem is about killing the inner chud that whispers at my ear "you're not good enough for her" "you can't do that" "what if you fail and people see how miserable you are". A mentally healthy human that grew up being socially accepted would never experience shit like this. You get rid of the truecel looks but deep down he will always lies within you. Today i fumbled a girl that truly liked me,tomorrow what will it be ?
This whole situation brings me on the verge of tears man fuck me fuck my incel chud brain fuck my overreactive amygdala fuck my life
Ok so yesterday i was with a friend at a bar and when we enter the bar i immediately make a long (around 5 seconds) eye contact with a girl,honestly stacylite (her eyes were the most beautiful eyes i have ever seen in real life) , i even started to get a boner because she was so damn beautiful.
My friend notices the thing and tells me "What are you doing nigga go talk to her" and i start coping about some "nah bro i'm not sure she was looking at me" (we both were looking at eachother straight in the eye) and after like half an hour we leave the club and go to another bar but i was shit so we get to the club next to the first bar, and when we enter guess who was there ? We made eye-contact around a dozen times throughout the night,she was obviously waiting for me to come talk to her and we even sympathized with some dude that turned out to be one of the girl's friend. When we decided to leave the club we went to personally say him goodbye and he was with her : she was looking at me like a diabetic kid would look at a bag of jelly beans, she gave me that "please fuck me" look and i was standing there shitting in my fucking pants, forcing myself to hold eye contact and didn't even asked for her name. My friend called me a bitch for it and i didn't even argued with him because i agree.
The thing is, years and years of constant self-evaluation and thriving for improvement turned the sub3 i was into a decent-looking guy but completely obliterated the self-confidence i had, it's like i dreamt all these years about touching the sun and now that i can have it in the palm of my hand i'm too scared that it would burn my hands.
I shouldn't feel this way, i know i shouldn't feel this way : like i said i am decent-looking and i'm even 6'5 i shouldn't have any problem with getting girls, but the thing is the problem isn't about getting girls anymore. The problem is about killing the inner chud that whispers at my ear "you're not good enough for her" "you can't do that" "what if you fail and people see how miserable you are". A mentally healthy human that grew up being socially accepted would never experience shit like this. You get rid of the truecel looks but deep down he will always lies within you. Today i fumbled a girl that truly liked me,tomorrow what will it be ?
This whole situation brings me on the verge of tears man fuck me fuck my incel chud brain fuck my overreactive amygdala fuck my life
