Is being "mentally ill" realy being ill

[R1PPer]

Why do i feel like shit everytime im in a good spot in life? Everytime im starting to get better i just feel like garbage and depresonalized and i just wanna go back to what society calls being "mentally ill" but i dont feel miserable like that. Just as in niccotine addiction everytime you tey to quit you just feel like shit and you wanna go back its just like that for me when trying to get better, society calls it unhealty but its where i feel most comfortable and most me. Anyone feel the same?


(also sorry if i speak nonsense im not really very sober rn and eont know how to put it in words)

 

[moodless]

Yeah it's an illness