Is it a good idea to ask an escort out just to blackpill myself even more?

[Nims]

I've been seeing an escort regularly and I'm quite sure I'm developing feelings for her, as she is very sweet and kind.

Although she gives me alot of special treatment even offering to give be back some of the money, saying complementary things and sharing private details about herself, I expect its just her way of retaining clients and make me feel special. I'm not going to kid myself and think she feels anything for me though.

I realise she only sees me as a meal ticket and wouldn't even talk to me or look at me if I wasn't paying her money.

I was thinking about asking her if she would ever spend time with me/go on a date not as a escort but as herself, just as a way to blackpill myself even more and make myself more driven to follow through with my surgeries when she says no.

Do you think its a good idea whats the worst that could happen?

 

[Deleted member 45118]

I'm quite sure I'm developing feelings for her, as she is very sweet and kind.

Its over. Just get it over with tbh and ask her out so this doesnt develop further

 

[try2beme]

just do the surgeries and stop being entitled

 

[Nims]

just do the surgeries and stop being entitled

What do you mean entitled?

Its over. Just get it over with tbh and ask her out so this doesnt develop further

Yeah thats probably for the best.

 

[alien]

I'm in a similar situation. I have been seeing a Filipina hooker here in Toronto ongoing for the past 2.5+ months. Saw her four times since July 17th. She lets me fuck her raw and cum inside her for $160 CAD. But after I cum inside her, I have to take a shower and leave. Because that's the unwritten rule with hookers. You have to leave after you cum. If you take more than 30 minutes to cum, you also have to leave. I could pay her more for two shots (1 hour time limit). Not sure how much more it is. But she barely speaks English. And with a heavy Tagalog accent. So what would we even talk about in between shots during pillow talk anyways? lmfao.

She's a curvy beautiful Filipina woman with big tits who satisfies me sexually. I love chubby Asian women. She kisses me. She has this look in her eyes and this smile when she looks at me that makes me feel like a Chad Incubus White God. When she licks and sucks my cock and balls and rims me, she lives to serve the white race. I'm only 167cm tall but I have handsome face and I've gymcelling for nearly 15 months now. In the back of my mind I will always question whether she really likes me. Because I pay for it.

The last time I came inside her, she said "too much" (cum). I hadn't cum in like 3 weeks and let it rip. Which leads me to believe that she's not on birth control. And she always pees after sex. A part of me fantasizes about her getting pregnant with my child, her asking me to be part of our child's life and asking me to make her an honest woman and marry her and become a happy family. I fantasize about having a beautiful half-Filipina half-white daughter with her, moving to the Philippines, buying a house there with my savings and living happily ever after as a family with her and our beautiful Eurasian daughter.

 

[Nims]

In the back of my mind I will always question whether she really likes me. Because I pay for it.

Do you still see her?
Have you contemplated asking her out or asking her to spend time with you outside of escorting, to see if she enjoys your company/appearence?

 

[alien]

Do you still see her?
Have you contemplated asking her out or asking her to spend time with you outside of escorting, to see if she enjoys your company/appearence?

Yeah I'm still seeing her. I last saw her September 27th. I typically see her every 3-4 weeks.
I haven't thought about asking her out. But I don't feel fulfilled with just the whole cum and go dynamic between us. I want to kiss her and hold her tight after sex. We kiss during sex. But I want to linger with her in bed after sex. But that is how it is with hookers. If you pay for two shots (one hour time limit), I could like make out and cuddle with her after sex. But I'm afraid pillow talk is going to be weird between us.

 

[incel194012940]

comical cringe and pathetic thread

 

[yeeyeeslayer]

I've been seeing an escort regularly and I'm quite sure I'm developing feelings for her, as she is very sweet and kind.

Although she gives me alot of special treatment even offering to give be back some of the money, saying complementary things and sharing private details about herself, I expect its just her way of retaining clients and make me feel special. I'm not going to kid myself and think she feels anything for me though.

I realise she only sees me as a meal ticket and wouldn't even talk to me or look at me if I wasn't paying her money.

I was thinking about asking her if she would ever spend time with me/go on a date not as a escort but as herself, just as a way to blackpill myself even more and make myself more driven to follow through with my surgeries when she says no.

Do you think its a good idea whats the worst that could happen?

can you looksmax urself to an acceptable level? That should be ur priority

 

[yeeyeeslayer]

I've been seeing an escort regularly and I'm quite sure I'm developing feelings for her, as she is very sweet and kind.

Although she gives me alot of special treatment even offering to give be back some of the money, saying complementary things and sharing private details about herself, I expect its just her way of retaining clients and make me feel special. I'm not going to kid myself and think she feels anything for me though.

I realise she only sees me as a meal ticket and wouldn't even talk to me or look at me if I wasn't paying her money.

I was thinking about asking her if she would ever spend time with me/go on a date not as a escort but as herself, just as a way to blackpill myself even more and make myself more driven to follow through with my surgeries when she says no.

Do you think its a good idea whats the worst that could happen?

bro why would you subject yourself to this humiliation it will only further fuck up ur mental health

 

[Nims]

can you looksmax urself to an acceptable level? That should be ur priority

Yeah I suppose, when I upload my pictures here people say I'm 4.5psl however I do think people probably overrate alot and I'm probably no where near that as when I look in the mirror I feel disgusted with how I look. Unfortunetly I'm quite short and have alot of mental issues.

I'm not going to see her until the end of December so I have quite a while to work on myself, I've started seeing a dermatologist and getting regular treatments which Im going to continue indefinitely, they helped alot with some overall texture, redness and anti aging.

I've also started going to the gym again and losing a bit of weight so hopefully when I see her I'll have visable abs and a more femalegazed physique. Just got my teeth whitened yesterday as well.

I might also get fillers next month just to add some projection to my zygos.

I really need to work on my hair though as its a bit of a mess, I think I might go to a salon or something soon and try get it styled/cut properly.

Theres probably a few other things I could work on but I've got a decent amount of time.

 

[Nims]

bro why would you subject yourself to this humiliation it will only further fuck up ur mental health

I got nothing to lose I guess.

shes also really lovely and really trys to make me feel comfortable and I would like to think we get along reasonably well, I have basically no anxiety when I'm around her, unlike non-escorts which I get anxious around from just walking past/asking a simple question like whats the time.

I'm not going to kid myself though its very unlikely she will say yes, she probably wont even acknowledge the question, but worst case it might hurt a little but it would probably make me significantly more focused on moneymaxxing and improving my appearence which at the end of the day isnt such a bad thing.

 

[yeeyeeslayer]

Yeah I suppose, when I upload my pictures here people say I'm 4.5psl however I do think people probably overrate alot and I'm probably no where near that as when I look in the mirror I feel disgusted with how I look. Unfortunetly I'm quite short and have alot of mental issues.

I'm not going to see her until the end of December so I have quite a while to work on myself, I've started seeing a dermatologist and getting regular treatments which Im going to continue indefinitely, they helped alot with some overall texture, redness and anti aging.

I've also started going to the gym again and losing a bit of weight so hopefully when I see her I'll have visable abs and a more femalegazed physique. Just got my teeth whitened yesterday as well.

I might also get fillers next month just to add some projection to my zygos.

I really need to work on my hair though as its a bit of a mess, I think I might go to a salon or something soon and try get it styled/cut properly.

Theres probably a few other things I could work on but I've got a decent amount of time.

pm me ur pics and i'll give u an honest rating and looksmaxxing advice cuz i kinda feel bad for u lmao

 

[Nims]

pm me ur pics and i'll give u an honest rating and looksmaxxing advice

I'll send you a dm with some pics when I get home.

cuz i kinda feel bad for u lmao

 

[HumidVent]

I think if she truly liked you she would have already asked you out.

 

[Deleted member 42009]

She is nice to you because you are her client, how the fuck are you coping so hard ?

 

[yeeyeeslayer]

She is nice to you because you are her client, how the fuck are you coping so hard ?

forreal, how can one be this delusional it's human nature to cope i guess

 

[Nims]

She is nice to you because you are her client, how the fuck are you coping so hard ?

Thats litterally what I wrote in my post, Ik she is only being nice to me because I am paying her money.

I expect its just her way of retaining clients and make me feel special. I'm not going to kid myself and think she feels anything for me though.

I realise she only sees me as a meal ticket and wouldn't even talk to me or look at me if I wasn't paying her money.