Is me being nd stopping me from not being a loser irl

[bobertthesub5]

I've been in the bp for about 3-4 years now (12yrs-16yrs) and ascended much since my time here. I'm currently 6'3 180lbs and have a 22 inch bidelt and been rated anywhere from low-mid htn yet I'm still complete and utter loser irl no matter where i go or who i talk to i constantly feel invisible and unheard as if I'm so insect people are begging to have gone and idk why, i am a bit awkward and quiet in person but i see people much worse off in behavior and looks still get around society fine. idk what im problem is and im losing my mind over it, i hate being a loser and i just want people to treat me like a human yet no matter my efforts i'm never liked nor respected by my peers and just blatantly ignored and rejected my society. I hope im not the only person here that experinces this and if i am i might just end up roping jfl. I hate being a fucking incel.