Is there a point?

[Lonenely sigma]

Fuck, I've became a mentalcel.

There is nothing I value in my life, not because I am ungrateful but because I can't focus on it. Its just not important to me. Whatever happens good or bad, it doesn't affect me, I am just obsessed with something completely different than my surrounding.

My chad friend applied to be a model and act in ads and they approved him the same second they saw him. He will earn half the average wage in my country by just going to film a few ads using his giga-cheekbones.

I am invisible. The only thing I wish is to do zygo implants, and I am obsessed to such a degree that I think about it 95% of my free time, sometimes sitting and browsing forum in search to any info about it for hours at the time.

Yet, I have no idea where even will I do them, so I can't even focus my obsession into something productive, as I don't even see anything to moneymaxx for.

I am not angry, I am not depressed - and even though I can hide my emptiness, and you could shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours and maybe you could think that our lives are actually comparable - I simply - am not - there.

 

[Lonenely sigma]

i will have a terrible result on "tldr - to - time - posted - o - meter"

 

[Deleted member 25059]

it will soon come when you find out the thing youre obsessed with you and fulfilling it will change 0% of the content in your life, but it will be too late. the ship has already sailed and you don't have time

 

[Lonenely sigma]

it will soon come when you find out the thing youre obsessed with you and fulfilling it will change 0% of the content in your life, but it will be too late. the ship has already sailed and you don't have time

If I fixed my looks I would fix every problem in my life. I doubt I can fix them though

 

[Dr. Bludy]

 

[Deleted member 28904]

No point unless this is your girlfriend

 

[Deleted member 17595]

If I fixed my looks I would fix every problem in my life. I doubt I can fix them though

real

 

[thickdickdaddy27]

looks are not the end all be all answer to your problems. If you realize that now it'll save you from disappointment later on

 

[Lonenely sigma]

looks are not the end all be all answer to your problems. If you realize that now it'll save you from disappointment later on

Looks are my number 1 problem.

I used to be ACTUALLY retarded and bonesmashed the shit out of my zygos. Had my personality been a problem, this should've been the most depressed period of my life, right?

Yet, it wasn't. I used to get approached by foids (around 10 times in 3 months), I used to be confident and popular, for around 3 months. 3 months of fame before it all ended.

The only thing that changed for the worse is my looks. My mental state is better (considering I don't punch myself in the face) yet I wish to go back.

 

[thickdickdaddy27]

Looks are my number 1 problem.

I used to be ACTUALLY retarded and bonesmashed the shit out of my zygos. Had my personality been a problem, this should've been the most depressed period of my life, right?

Yet, it wasn't. I used to get approached by foids (around 10 times in 3 months), I used to be confident and popular, for around 3 months. 3 months of fame before it all ended.

The only thing that changed for the worse is my looks. My mental state is better (considering I don't punch myself in the face) yet I wish to go back.

what happened that you descended so fast?

 

[Lonenely sigma]

what happened that you descended so fast?

The fact that bonesmashing doesn't change the bone but just creates a temporary swelling. I knew that would happen, but I had to stop

 

[Nebula]

@TRUE_CEL u tell me

 

[Lonenely sigma]

@TRUE_CEL u tell me

?

 

[Nebula]

?

Ur post is what im exactly in rn

 

[Nebula]

The fact that bonesmashing doesn't change the bone but just creates a temporary swelling. I knew that would happen, but I had to stop

Jfl doing this. Iq needs to be fixed first i think

 

[Lonenely sigma]

Ur post is what im exactly in rn

idk man, sometimes I daydream about hardmaxxing, but every once in a while when I start to doubt that I will do surgeries one day I start dreaming about not discovering blackpill ever. Ofc I would still be invisible and probably even uglier without any looksmaxxing I do but still, I would blame my inceldom on "muh feminism" or "muh capitalism". Its being in the position where you are aware of the situation yet being unable to change it that makes me feel lost

 

[Nebula]

idk man, sometimes I daydream about hardmaxxing, but every once in a while when I start to doubt that I will do surgeries one day I start dreaming about not discovering blackpill ever. Ofc I would still be invisible and probably even uglier without any looksmaxxing I do but still, I would blame my inceldom on "muh feminism" or "muh capitalism". Its being in the position where you are aware of the situation yet being unable to change it that makes me feel lost

Yup. Only way to go from here is to go all in or just put in the towel. Get richmaxx or something

 

[Lonenely sigma]

Jfl doing this. Iq needs to be fixed first i think

but it created a change, I swear, I looked much much better on pictures back in the day. I literally was so swollen and I managed to hide my bruises with a cream so I never got caught. I stopped doing it because its schizophrenic but I still miss those days

 

[Deleted member 29167]

"muh feminism" or "muh capitalism"

tbh ur problems wouldn't be nearly as bad if greedy jews didn't create dating apps and social media, unless trucel.

 

[Deleted member 25059]

Looks are my number 1 problem.

I used to be ACTUALLY retarded and bonesmashed the shit out of my zygos. Had my personality been a problem, this should've been the most depressed period of my life, right?

Yet, it wasn't. I used to get approached by foids (around 10 times in 3 months), I used to be confident and popular, for around 3 months. 3 months of fame before it all ended.

The only thing that changed for the worse is my looks. My mental state is better (considering I don't punch myself in the face) yet I wish to go back.

yes, of course the swelling from bonesmahing changed your life, you were the star of every party. bruh youre mentally ill, you were just in the right place at the right time, nothing to do with hitting your cheeks with a hammer.

 

[Deleted member 29167]

but it created a change, I swear, I looked much much better on pictures back in the day. I literally was so swollen and I managed to hide my bruises with a cream so I never got caught. I stopped doing it because its schizophrenic but I still miss those days

you have to moneymaxx, find something useful that you at least enjoy a little and have a little bit of base talent, but priority on something useful. your mind will focus on that instead of the looksmaxxing, seeing money go up is fun

 

[Lonenely sigma]

tbh ur problems wouldn't be nearly as bad if greedy jews didn't create dating apps and social media, unless trucel.

I agree completely, but on a daily basis its not even the girls at the heart of my frustration. I could get a girl (average to slightly below average one) and I kissed one before, yet I am invisible most of the time.

I just feel like I genuinely hate the way I look, and its objective; I don't believe in bdd. Looking better is the only thing that makes me feel good. I am probably a bit narcy but if I am then all of us here are - I don't care about starting a family, I don't care about having a wife, I just want to look so good that I can sleep with any of them that I want to.

That would be an ideal scenario - a very shallow one, yet the one that makes me feel good

 

[Lonenely sigma]

yes, of course the swelling from bonesmahing changed your life, you were the star of every party. bruh youre mentally ill, you were just in the right place at the right time, nothing to do with hitting your cheeks with a hammer.

I was in the right place at the right time for 3 months straight?

 

[Deleted member 29167]

I don't believe in bdd.

its real, look at people like arvid (@ LiterallyNightwing), he is chadlite and appealmaxxed but is still thinking about a bunch of implants and other surgeries. prettyboyy is another example of a BDDcel.

with the way you obsess over your looks you probably have some form of BDD. you even think about it more than the money you'll need to actually surgerymaxx. anyway BDD still doesn't disregard lookism, so you should still get the surgeries you want.

but like get therapy eventually because even if you are 6 PSL it still wont cure your BDD

 

[Lonenely sigma]

you even think about it more than the money you'll need to actually surgerymaxx

I agree with this lmao, when I try to think about moneymaxxing, as with all other things, my mind disables me to focus, and instead I end up looking for more info regarding surgeries I want to do