realsclera
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I've noticed over the past couple years that often times I get extremely angry over what afterwards seems like little things. For example yesterday I was playing a game with my friend and my ex-girlfriend. The reason being my friends wants to help me curry favor with her, occasionally by going on walks at school including the three of us, or by playing games online. My friend and I had been hanging out earlier that day (I was feeling down so I wanted to make plans.) We went to the mall and a few other stores before returning home. I decided to start reading outside to soothe myself and to cure my boredom. After a while I went back inside to work out. I felt fine by then but still bored. The girl I'm interested in hasn't been too responsive or talkative lately so I've been a bit frustrated but tried not to let it bother me. Somewhere in between me getting home and me playing with them, me and my brother got into an argument and a brief fight, which left me even more agitated and unsure of what to do. I got a text from my ex asking if she wanted to play a game with her and my friend. I was a bit hesitant as I prefer playing with just her, but I accepted her offer and the three of us started playing (along with her little brother as well.). Over time I joined and left the call a few times as a joke of course. However whenever they would talk and joke around I found myself jealous and slightly insecure as this reminded me of how weird and creepy my friend had been about her the last time we were dating so it felt like he was trying to get on her good side personally for his own benefit. I began to get even more frustrated. I eventually said "fuck you" and left the call. I was extremely upset and frustrated and messaged my friend a few times telling him how what he was doing made me upset and how much I do still care for my ex but wanting to distance myself. He sent me a stupid image and started acting retarded so I reached my breaking point and muted him on everything and started lifting weights to let off some steam. It didn't do enough for me so I left and went on a run to let out more frustration and put my energy to good use. I felt great during the run as I was finally able to be completely alone and able to do something that felt somewhat productive. I walked back home and listened to music while throwing rocks into the woods until my phone died so I went back inside, I felt better and apologized to my friend about my outburst and tried explaining how he upset and it's been decent since then but I can't shake these feelings. Whenever I get angry and stressed it feels like I need a way to let out this anger and frustration and lifting doesn't always seem to be enough. I hate feeling this way and wish there was a way to avoid caring so much. How do I let this anger out? How do I stop feeling so angry? This is a long read and feel free to ignore it but any advice is welcome. Thanks
