axttt_
barely subhuman
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I've been using the forum less and i think i wanna delete my account soon because its honestly destroying me
The more research I do and more knowledge i gain the more insecurities i am able to pick out about myself and the more i hate myself.
At first i just wanted to look a little better and be a pretty good looking guy not a chad or anything.
Now i just find myself chasing some impossible goal of looking like how these chad male models look under perfect lighting and professional cameras and edited pictures and saving up all my money that i could use for so much better purposes like a car or for uni tuition and I'm going to just use it all on surgery so i can feel better about myself.
Its truly beginning to ruin my life and i really cant look at people the same anymore. Its also given me a strong hatred towards women that i never used to have.
But even if i do delete my account on here what will that really change.
How can i actually stop thinking about the blackpill and obsessing over how i look
The more research I do and more knowledge i gain the more insecurities i am able to pick out about myself and the more i hate myself.
At first i just wanted to look a little better and be a pretty good looking guy not a chad or anything.
Now i just find myself chasing some impossible goal of looking like how these chad male models look under perfect lighting and professional cameras and edited pictures and saving up all my money that i could use for so much better purposes like a car or for uni tuition and I'm going to just use it all on surgery so i can feel better about myself.
Its truly beginning to ruin my life and i really cant look at people the same anymore. Its also given me a strong hatred towards women that i never used to have.
But even if i do delete my account on here what will that really change.
How can i actually stop thinking about the blackpill and obsessing over how i look