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I’m staying at a family friends house for a few days because I need a mental break from my dad. After the 2 hour speech he had with me about how I’m lazy, a loser, fat, ugly, and how I have no future and that he’s gonna kick me out at 18 I just needed time with other people.
I have never felt this much love in my life. I didn’t know you weren’t supposed to feel tense and awkward when you’re around your own father. I didn’t know that everytime you had to be within 6ft of your father you shouldn’t burst into tears and hold your breath so you don’t cry.
This family treats me with such respect and they actually acknowledge me like I’m a human being. I went shopping with the mom and she offered to buy me something, she fed me when we got home and even asked if I wanted more food. I have never wanted to hug a girl so badly in my life and just cry into her chest and feel vulnerable. I want to stay here forever, no one insults me, no one calls me a fat ugly loser, no one tells me I’m disgusting, no one reminds me of my future and how horrible it may or may not be, I don’t feel scared at all either.
During dinner we all sat together and laughed as a family. I have never done this with my family, I eat in my room. Every time I try to bond with my dad it ends up with a lecture, I can never sit down and laugh with my dad. Every time I have to look into the eyes of my father I want to cry because he looks at me with disgust and disappointment, as if I’m not even human.
If I grew up with this family instead of my own, I would not even be on this site. I would have my self esteem back, I wouldn’t be depressed. I hate my life and everything about it. I’m gonna kill myself soon. Thank you for reading.
I have never felt this much love in my life. I didn’t know you weren’t supposed to feel tense and awkward when you’re around your own father. I didn’t know that everytime you had to be within 6ft of your father you shouldn’t burst into tears and hold your breath so you don’t cry.
This family treats me with such respect and they actually acknowledge me like I’m a human being. I went shopping with the mom and she offered to buy me something, she fed me when we got home and even asked if I wanted more food. I have never wanted to hug a girl so badly in my life and just cry into her chest and feel vulnerable. I want to stay here forever, no one insults me, no one calls me a fat ugly loser, no one tells me I’m disgusting, no one reminds me of my future and how horrible it may or may not be, I don’t feel scared at all either.
During dinner we all sat together and laughed as a family. I have never done this with my family, I eat in my room. Every time I try to bond with my dad it ends up with a lecture, I can never sit down and laugh with my dad. Every time I have to look into the eyes of my father I want to cry because he looks at me with disgust and disappointment, as if I’m not even human.
If I grew up with this family instead of my own, I would not even be on this site. I would have my self esteem back, I wouldn’t be depressed. I hate my life and everything about it. I’m gonna kill myself soon. Thank you for reading.
