vision_n
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Just a normal communication in german feels so awkward, I needed to migrate here because of the war in the Ukraine.
Even If I talk in german language, that's still not me. I need to constantly switch languages in my head to be able to think straight.
When I want to say something preety funny to my friends, I plan what I'm going to say to them.
There are 3 outcomes:
1) I express myself well enough if the structure of the sentence is easy.
2) I express myself badly, then trying to laugh it off (or else comes an awkward silence).
3) I don't say anything because I lack knowledge.
I just want to end it all. I am sophomore here, and it's very hard to progress here. (MY level is aroud b1.2-b2.2)
There are people who are reaching out to me, but I will honesty. I want to be perfect, I don't want to think about HOW am I going to say a sentence but rather what I WANT to say.
I know, there is a work to do, but I clearly understand that if I was learning in my language, 80% of my problems would have been solved.
I hate being judged, why is it so hard to learn a language and speak freely in it.
That kills me, frustration.
There is no other variant I have. Studying in UK, USA is impossible because you need to sell your bloodline to cover your student loans.
In the class I daydream about being not laughed at because of this. To be admired, oh dear.
@Gio pilled
Even If I talk in german language, that's still not me. I need to constantly switch languages in my head to be able to think straight.
When I want to say something preety funny to my friends, I plan what I'm going to say to them.
There are 3 outcomes:
1) I express myself well enough if the structure of the sentence is easy.
2) I express myself badly, then trying to laugh it off (or else comes an awkward silence).
3) I don't say anything because I lack knowledge.
I just want to end it all. I am sophomore here, and it's very hard to progress here. (MY level is aroud b1.2-b2.2)
There are people who are reaching out to me, but I will honesty. I want to be perfect, I don't want to think about HOW am I going to say a sentence but rather what I WANT to say.
I know, there is a work to do, but I clearly understand that if I was learning in my language, 80% of my problems would have been solved.
I hate being judged, why is it so hard to learn a language and speak freely in it.
That kills me, frustration.
There is no other variant I have. Studying in UK, USA is impossible because you need to sell your bloodline to cover your student loans.
In the class I daydream about being not laughed at because of this. To be admired, oh dear.
@Gio pilled
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