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sorry for the lack of formatting but i'm legit hyperventilating rn
a few years ago i ordered 2.5" insole-lifts off amazon and some hairgel for heightmaxxing based on a guide i read but i never wore them cuz high inhib except when i got drunk at home and used to pose in the mirror mirin how tall i looked and how many girls i'd pull if i were that height. again though never wore them outside because i had a fear of being exposed. idk why because i don't have a social circle or a reputation to ruin in it but it would just give me huge anxiety whenever i tried to do it and i always ended up just staying inside and getting blackout drunk on my bed instead
anyway recently i reopened my tyler maher tinder account looking to record some stuff i could use for a blackpill montage on my tiktok account but i matched this one girl who was like half-spanish and legit the most beautiful foid i have ever seen in my life and i developed CRAZY oneitis for her and she lived near me and i got carried away so after a week of talking and the convo going well using maher rizz i asked her out on a date and my heart was legit POUNDING like crazy even though it was fake but she said yes and i was legit jumping around in my room because this was the first time any girl had ever agreed to go on a date with me and even if it was pics of tyler maher it was still me who she was talking to and still me who she agreed to go on a date with
so anyway im here half excited half panicking trying to speedrun 8 PSL points worth of looksmaxxing within a week, gymcelling, fasting, hydration-maxxing, towel-pulling, bonesmashing, hanging off bars, jelqing, leg-stretches, arm-stretches, even tried using my microneedler and cut the shit out of my scalp before i gave up and NONE of this shit works ;except maybe bonesmashing lowering IQ-inhib ;and im legit panicking staring at myself in the mirror and clawing at my face making noises like a pained animal because ive spent all week thinking i could looksmax to something close enough to maher level that i could personalitymax myself the last mile but i was literally no better off than where i started
then i remembered the lifts so like an hour before the date i take a shower a shit, brush my teeth, and stuff the insoles into the biggest pair of boots i own which are like these mountain-hiking style boots but they add height and they're black so they probably wouldn't stand out too much and i wear a pair of loose jeans to try and hide the shoes a bit more and i try jelling my hair which was hard because my hair was still wet and it always takes my hair hours to try after a shower but i managed to get some of it to stand up and add maybe another 0.5-0.75" of height so i could finally be a respectable height in total
i was pretty much ready at that point but i was still freaking out like crazy and considering just cancelling so i decided to have some alcohol to lighten my nerves, went to the grocery store and bought a 6-pack of beers thinking i'd have 4 now and save 2 for later but it wasn't really working so i finished them and had some whiskey from my parents' liquour cabinet which i had to water down like crazy to make the height look right because i spilled some anyway but whatever besides the point
left the house and called for an uber to take me into town to get to my date and started telling the uber driver some arab guy about it and he didnt seem so keen on the idea because idk in his home country they sell women for goats and have no idea that game even exists smh guy was probably gay for maher himself and just offended ; so we get to the bar and i realised i FORGOT MY FUCKING wallet s o i just get out of the taxi and start trying to run for the exit but the fucking boots are so awkward that im just like hopping from foot to foot trying to reach the door with sweat and gel pouring down off my forehead and into my eyes and mouth and im legit starting to tear up cuz it hurts and im afraid this crazy arab will chase after me and i can feel my shirt soaked in sweat so im thinking i shouldn't even show but i dont't have time to back out now, but i get into the bar and run straight to the bartender to get a couple vodka cokes to settle my nerves forgetting that i didn't have my FUCKING WALLET so after i downed them i tried convincing them that i could pay them back and to just give me a tab just this once but i could barely speak because of my nerves and
maybe a little drunk and when the bouncer came over and i tried to get off the stool i tripped over and faceplanted (i think nose broken) but it was ok because they just kicked me out and didn't call the police or anything but i checked my phone and the girl MESSAGED ASKING IF IT WAS ME and she was spamming with angry crazy texts legit ALL CAPS going hysterical for like 5 mins before blocking me and it's just NOT FAIR becaues even if i'm not tyler maher i stil; couldn've had a chance if i just didn' have all this crazy bullshit bad luck one thing after another on this stupid fucking weak
being a trucel isn't just abt looks it's about horrible truecel luck and the world FUCKING u again and again even if u try so hard to do everything right. there is legit ZERO coming back from this my one chance blown over NOTHING
a few years ago i ordered 2.5" insole-lifts off amazon and some hairgel for heightmaxxing based on a guide i read but i never wore them cuz high inhib except when i got drunk at home and used to pose in the mirror mirin how tall i looked and how many girls i'd pull if i were that height. again though never wore them outside because i had a fear of being exposed. idk why because i don't have a social circle or a reputation to ruin in it but it would just give me huge anxiety whenever i tried to do it and i always ended up just staying inside and getting blackout drunk on my bed instead
anyway recently i reopened my tyler maher tinder account looking to record some stuff i could use for a blackpill montage on my tiktok account but i matched this one girl who was like half-spanish and legit the most beautiful foid i have ever seen in my life and i developed CRAZY oneitis for her and she lived near me and i got carried away so after a week of talking and the convo going well using maher rizz i asked her out on a date and my heart was legit POUNDING like crazy even though it was fake but she said yes and i was legit jumping around in my room because this was the first time any girl had ever agreed to go on a date with me and even if it was pics of tyler maher it was still me who she was talking to and still me who she agreed to go on a date with
so anyway im here half excited half panicking trying to speedrun 8 PSL points worth of looksmaxxing within a week, gymcelling, fasting, hydration-maxxing, towel-pulling, bonesmashing, hanging off bars, jelqing, leg-stretches, arm-stretches, even tried using my microneedler and cut the shit out of my scalp before i gave up and NONE of this shit works ;except maybe bonesmashing lowering IQ-inhib ;and im legit panicking staring at myself in the mirror and clawing at my face making noises like a pained animal because ive spent all week thinking i could looksmax to something close enough to maher level that i could personalitymax myself the last mile but i was literally no better off than where i started
then i remembered the lifts so like an hour before the date i take a shower a shit, brush my teeth, and stuff the insoles into the biggest pair of boots i own which are like these mountain-hiking style boots but they add height and they're black so they probably wouldn't stand out too much and i wear a pair of loose jeans to try and hide the shoes a bit more and i try jelling my hair which was hard because my hair was still wet and it always takes my hair hours to try after a shower but i managed to get some of it to stand up and add maybe another 0.5-0.75" of height so i could finally be a respectable height in total
i was pretty much ready at that point but i was still freaking out like crazy and considering just cancelling so i decided to have some alcohol to lighten my nerves, went to the grocery store and bought a 6-pack of beers thinking i'd have 4 now and save 2 for later but it wasn't really working so i finished them and had some whiskey from my parents' liquour cabinet which i had to water down like crazy to make the height look right because i spilled some anyway but whatever besides the point
left the house and called for an uber to take me into town to get to my date and started telling the uber driver some arab guy about it and he didnt seem so keen on the idea because idk in his home country they sell women for goats and have no idea that game even exists smh guy was probably gay for maher himself and just offended ; so we get to the bar and i realised i FORGOT MY FUCKING wallet s o i just get out of the taxi and start trying to run for the exit but the fucking boots are so awkward that im just like hopping from foot to foot trying to reach the door with sweat and gel pouring down off my forehead and into my eyes and mouth and im legit starting to tear up cuz it hurts and im afraid this crazy arab will chase after me and i can feel my shirt soaked in sweat so im thinking i shouldn't even show but i dont't have time to back out now, but i get into the bar and run straight to the bartender to get a couple vodka cokes to settle my nerves forgetting that i didn't have my FUCKING WALLET so after i downed them i tried convincing them that i could pay them back and to just give me a tab just this once but i could barely speak because of my nerves and
maybe a little drunk and when the bouncer came over and i tried to get off the stool i tripped over and faceplanted (i think nose broken) but it was ok because they just kicked me out and didn't call the police or anything but i checked my phone and the girl MESSAGED ASKING IF IT WAS ME and she was spamming with angry crazy texts legit ALL CAPS going hysterical for like 5 mins before blocking me and it's just NOT FAIR becaues even if i'm not tyler maher i stil; couldn've had a chance if i just didn' have all this crazy bullshit bad luck one thing after another on this stupid fucking weak
being a trucel isn't just abt looks it's about horrible truecel luck and the world FUCKING u again and again even if u try so hard to do everything right. there is legit ZERO coming back from this my one chance blown over NOTHING
