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Firstly my social life was bad before i didn't go outside at all from. 6-14 and had no friends outside of school except online nobody talked to me at all even even i was in the hospital for a month or two
I hadn’t interacted either many girls either (big surprise) but now i feel my social life is worse, ive said so many things that make me look weird and ive admitted inceldom before (Huge Mistake) and im super autistic about anthropometry and height so I unintentionally talk about my wingspan often, and this is why i think people find me annoying and someone i knew lied to one of my other friends (who tolerates me somewhat) that i talked behing his back i dont know why he did it i never did anything to him for him to lie about me

Secondly it never started lookswise
I was always ugly due to fatness
I lost the fat and nothing changed i still got called ugly to my face and treated like shit
And of course i do nothing about it because im a low T bitch
One time everyone was making fun of me taking pictures of me and posting them online making fun of me and when i started ignoring them they started making fake screenshots of me saying the n word and they sent it to black people(one of them believed it) and i snapped and shouted at them and i got laughed at
It was pathetic and i couldnt do anything
They knee i wouldn't and couldnt do anything from previous years of bullying or making fun of me
One of my friends told me he doesnt regret it and would do it again
And i asked why he did it and he called me an easy target
And before you say “just beat them brah”
1. I have before and won and it kept going
2. Im a pussy and its a lot of people

It hasn't gotten better in the past months
Ive been having suicidal thoughts since 11
everything i like is getting boring and i dont want to make new friends because theres nobody else irl
I barely go outside
Im low T

Maybe it was my genes or development
But it just never started
Any sizeable change should've been made 10 years ago
Its too late now
So the most i can do is keep posting on the forum
inb4 “tales” or “dnrd”
 
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i believe in you brah
polonaecel said:
Firstly my social life was bad before i didn't go outside at all from. 6-14 and had no friends outside of school except online nobody talked to me at all even even i was in the hospital for a month or two
I hadn’t interacted either many girls either (big surprise) but now i feel my social life is worse, ive said so many things that make me look weird and ive admitted inceldom before (Huge Mistake) and im super autistic about anthropometry and height so I unintentionally talk about my wingspan often, and this is why i think people find me annoying and someone i knew lied to one of my other friends (who tolerates me somewhat) that i talked behing his back i dont know why he did it i never did anything to him for him to lie about me

Secondly it never started lookswise
I was always ugly due to fatness
I lost the fat and nothing changed i still got called ugly to my face and treated like shit
And of course i do nothing about it because im a low T bitch
One time everyone was making fun of me taking pictures of me and posting them online making fun of me and when i started ignoring them they started making fake screenshots of me saying the n word and they sent it to black people(one of them believed it) and i snapped and shouted at them and i got laughed at
It was pathetic and i couldnt do anything
They knee i wouldn't and couldnt do anything from previous years of bullying or making fun of me
One of my friends told me he doesnt regret it and would do it again
And i asked why he did it and he called me an easy target
And before you say “just beat them brah”
1. I have before and won and it kept going
2. Im a pussy and its a lot of people

It hasn't gotten better in the past months
Ive been having suicidal thoughts since 11
everything i like is getting boring and i dont want to make new friends because theres nobody else irl
I barely go outside
Im low T

Maybe it was my genes or development
But it just never started
Any sizeable change should've been made 10 years ago
Its too late now
So the most i can do is keep posting on the forum
inb4 “tales” or “dnrd”
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coolman985 said:
i believe in you brah
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theres nothing to believe in things wont get better, and even if they could they wont because im stuck in a perpetual doomer mindset
 
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polonaecel said:
Firstly my social life was bad before i didn't go outside at all from. 6-14 and had no friends outside of school except online nobody talked to me at all even even i was in the hospital for a month or two
I hadn’t interacted either many girls either (big surprise) but now i feel my social life is worse, ive said so many things that make me look weird and ive admitted inceldom before (Huge Mistake) and im super autistic about anthropometry and height so I unintentionally talk about my wingspan often, and this is why i think people find me annoying and someone i knew lied to one of my other friends (who tolerates me somewhat) that i talked behing his back i dont know why he did it i never did anything to him for him to lie about me

Secondly it never started lookswise
I was always ugly due to fatness
I lost the fat and nothing changed i still got called ugly to my face and treated like shit
And of course i do nothing about it because im a low T bitch
One time everyone was making fun of me taking pictures of me and posting them online making fun of me and when i started ignoring them they started making fake screenshots of me saying the n word and they sent it to black people(one of them believed it) and i snapped and shouted at them and i got laughed at
It was pathetic and i couldnt do anything
They knee i wouldn't and couldnt do anything from previous years of bullying or making fun of me
One of my friends told me he doesnt regret it and would do it again
And i asked why he did it and he called me an easy target
And before you say “just beat them brah”
1. I have before and won and it kept going
2. Im a pussy and its a lot of people

It hasn't gotten better in the past months
Ive been having suicidal thoughts since 11
everything i like is getting boring and i dont want to make new friends because theres nobody else irl
I barely go outside
Im low T

Maybe it was my genes or development
But it just never started
Any sizeable change should've been made 10 years ago
Its too late now
So the most i can do is keep posting on the forum
inb4 “tales” or “dnrd”
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How old are you now? Do you feel comfortable to privately message me and share some photographs? I am happy to help you, and I already helped a lot of users and gave good advice.
 
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polonaecel said:
theres nothing to believe in things wont get better, and even if they could they wont because im stuck in a perpetual doomer mindset
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well dont be stuck in the mindset ur the only one saying you will be there forever


 
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i think theres someone hanging right there
 
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Ergogenic said:
How old are you now? Do you feel comfortable to privately message me and share some photographs? I am happy to help you, and I already helped a lot of users and gave good advice.
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15 and 2 months old, i appreciate the offer but my problem isnt lack of knowledge on things to fix, its rather my mindset and the environment around me which influences it, its already solidified in my brain that it wont get better, ive tried changing my mindset but it didnt work, even if i fix my looks im still the same weirdo autist everyone knows me as
 
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coolman985 said:
well dont be stuck in the mindset ur the only one saying you will be there forever


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its easier said than done when everything outside of myself forces me into this mindset
 
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polonaecel said:
Firstly my social life was bad before i didn't go outside at all from. 6-14 and had no friends outside of school except online nobody talked to me at all even even i was in the hospital for a month or two
I hadn’t interacted either many girls either (big surprise) but now i feel my social life is worse, ive said so many things that make me look weird and ive admitted inceldom before (Huge Mistake) and im super autistic about anthropometry and height so I unintentionally talk about my wingspan often, and this is why i think people find me annoying and someone i knew lied to one of my other friends (who tolerates me somewhat) that i talked behing his back i dont know why he did it i never did anything to him for him to lie about me

Secondly it never started lookswise
I was always ugly due to fatness
I lost the fat and nothing changed i still got called ugly to my face and treated like shit
And of course i do nothing about it because im a low T bitch
One time everyone was making fun of me taking pictures of me and posting them online making fun of me and when i started ignoring them they started making fake screenshots of me saying the n word and they sent it to black people(one of them believed it) and i snapped and shouted at them and i got laughed at
It was pathetic and i couldnt do anything
They knee i wouldn't and couldnt do anything from previous years of bullying or making fun of me
One of my friends told me he doesnt regret it and would do it again
And i asked why he did it and he called me an easy target
And before you say “just beat them brah”
1. I have before and won and it kept going
2. Im a pussy and its a lot of people

It hasn't gotten better in the past months
Ive been having suicidal thoughts since 11
everything i like is getting boring and i dont want to make new friends because theres nobody else irl
I barely go outside
Im low T

Maybe it was my genes or development
But it just never started
Any sizeable change should've been made 10 years ago
Its too late now
So the most i can do is keep posting on the forum
inb4 “tales” or “dnrd”
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yo, what happened to you wasn’t your fault. years of bullying and isolation screw anyone up, not just you, even me. losing weight or “looks” don’t erase that.

obsessing over height or wingspan is just coping like what i’m doing now it’s something you can work on, not a permanent label. saying “it’s too late” is just your brain tired from all this shit.

But fr tho if you’re having suicidal thoughts, stop relying on the forum for it. reach out to literally anyone, you don’t have to carry this shit alone.
 
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polonaecel said:
everything i like is getting boring and i dont want to make new friends because theres nobody else irl
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You're ukcel right? We are irls brother
 
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polonaecel said:
Firstly my social life was bad before i didn't go outside at all from. 6-14 and had no friends outside of school except online nobody talked to me at all even even i was in the hospital for a month or two
I hadn’t interacted either many girls either (big surprise) but now i feel my social life is worse, ive said so many things that make me look weird and ive admitted inceldom before (Huge Mistake) and im super autistic about anthropometry and height so I unintentionally talk about my wingspan often, and this is why i think people find me annoying and someone i knew lied to one of my other friends (who tolerates me somewhat) that i talked behing his back i dont know why he did it i never did anything to him for him to lie about me

Secondly it never started lookswise
I was always ugly due to fatness
I lost the fat and nothing changed i still got called ugly to my face and treated like shit
And of course i do nothing about it because im a low T bitch
One time everyone was making fun of me taking pictures of me and posting them online making fun of me and when i started ignoring them they started making fake screenshots of me saying the n word and they sent it to black people(one of them believed it) and i snapped and shouted at them and i got laughed at
It was pathetic and i couldnt do anything
They knee i wouldn't and couldnt do anything from previous years of bullying or making fun of me
One of my friends told me he doesnt regret it and would do it again
And i asked why he did it and he called me an easy target
And before you say “just beat them brah”
1. I have before and won and it kept going
2. Im a pussy and its a lot of people

It hasn't gotten better in the past months
Ive been having suicidal thoughts since 11
everything i like is getting boring and i dont want to make new friends because theres nobody else irl
I barely go outside
Im low T

Maybe it was my genes or development
But it just never started
Any sizeable change should've been made 10 years ago
Its too late now
So the most i can do is keep posting on the forum
inb4 “tales” or “dnrd”
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Holy we are similar I always get bullied as well and I can’t do much about it cuz I am low T
 
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A1khatr1 said:
yo, what happened to you wasn’t your fault. years of bullying and isolation screw anyone up, not just you, even me. losing weight or “looks” don’t erase that.

obsessing over height or wingspan is just coping like what i’m doing now it’s something you can work on, not a permanent label. saying “it’s too late” is just your brain tired from all this shit.

But fr tho if you’re having suicidal thoughts, stop relying on the forum for it. reach out to literally anyone, you don’t have to carry this shit alone.
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thanks for the advice bro
on the off chance it isnt AI if i reach out to someone they'll laugh
and if i reach out to parents theyll take me off the internet and thats my main lifeline
 
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polonaecel said:
15 and 2 months old, i appreciate the offer but my problem isnt lack of knowledge on things to fix, its rather my mindset and the environment around me which influences it, its already solidified in my brain that it wont get better, ive tried changing my mindset but it didnt work, even if i fix my looks im still the same weirdo autist everyone knows me as
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Some of the individuals that you mentioned in your post are NOT your friends. They just want to put others down while pretending to be their friend. You might have to go somewhere else and start over again.

Definitely do not speak about your physical features to classmates or co workers in the real world because that will only bring more attention to those. Also, do not talk about Looksmaxxing in the real world because that will damage your reputation too. You have to improve your personality and go your own path. Do not let others put you down.

Real friends lift others up. Real friends support those that they love.
 
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Ergogenic said:
Some of the individuals that you mentioned in your post are NOT your friends. They just want to put others down while pretending to be their friend. You might have to go somewhere else and start over again.
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im aware, i only talk to them in school
Ergogenic said:
Definitely do not speak about your physical features to classmates or co workers in the real world because that will only bring more attention to those. Also, do not talk about Looksmaxxing in the real world because that will damage your reputation too. You have to improve your personality and go your own path. Do not let others put you down.
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too late bro but its fine i try to avoid the topic now and i dont think i can improvbe my personality, years of isolation made me weird and annoying because i havent had the proper social interaction and real life interaction to act normal
 
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polonaecel said:
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thanks for the advice bro
on the off chance it isnt AI if i reach out to someone they'll laugh
and if i reach out to parents theyll take me off the internet and thats my main lifeline
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lol its just me typing but anwyas, I get the fear. You don’t have to say everything at once or tell the wrong people. Start small with someone whose job is to listen, not judge. The internet helps, but it can’t be the only lifeline.
 
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Brootal. I feel u, brocel. I am also a complete loser, but unlike you i was lucky not to experience this crap. Normies are cruel animals.
 
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Dude… its sad to see polish guys being like you. Get your ass up and do something with your life. When a Czarnuch makes something stupid just fuck him up - its that easy. Get in shape, even as an sub5 you can get laid sometimes. Stop being a whimp posting such shit in forums like this. I wish you the best… at 15 i thought i would never fuck, at 20 i fucked a lot and now at 25 im married. Dont fuxking lose hope and behave like a loser. Suicide is for losers.
 
Years of social isolation will make you seem spergy . Expect years of rejection

you will come out of it better even ugly dudes can get social circles
 
Change school. I'm also a truecell and get far less bullied.
 
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