Kazura_
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My Mum booked a holiday in Italy for her 60th, even though she doesn't know I'm £6k in debt; 
Other family members were invited. Clearly, she told them about me buying skincare products and I'm into this ' looksmaxing stuff ' so they kept telling me I need to stop focusing on my appearance because I look good and just get a decent job and talk to more people and improve my social skills, ( they know I'm a 24KHHV ) telling me I'll meet a girl when the time is right. Technically, they're right that if I had a real job ( not at a supermarket ) my life might be a bit better, but I HATE that they tell me I look good with such conviction I actually started to believe it until I see a picture of myself, like surely they can't actually believe it but they sound so confident.
Sure one is bloated but that's from not having my supplements with me on holiday and how I look most mornings, other pic is with the skincare products + showering, so hair was in peak condition + using products on hair to style it and even after all that effort I still look only average at best....
I know they only want the best for me in the end and say my appearance is fine etc and doesn't matter much in life compared to having a good job, but at the same time, on one night at some restaurant, there was this Italian model couple near us and their attention was mostly on them and they talked about them even after we left, How can they even make up such lies about me after seeing them.
ig Italians have a stereotype of being attractive/ well dressed and my mum used that example, saying that despite being here, there was only 2 attractive people the whole time we saw on the first day so I made the point that if you remember them because of their looks, doesn't that mean that what I do isn't pointless?
Her reply was basically, 'you only care about looks and these superficial things because you have too much free time, you need a job with more hours, so you don't have time to think about these things and can focus on work, good looking people are rare and you'll never look as good as them with all the creams you waste your money on 'another point she made for me I don't like is saying I have a 'shy personality' ( poor social skills ) so I should find a strong woman in the future because I struggle to make tough decisions and procrastinate, she said it doesn't matter i have no relationship experience, girls are meant to have more sex when they're young so they can find a good man to take care of them and raise a family
Maybe I'm wrong, but it felt more like ' you are a high inhib, ugly loser, so just make money from a job, then wait for a woman who wants security /money in her 30's and marry her so you can be normal and have kids and let her make decisions for you because you are a weak male ' ... I obvioulsy have low self esteem so I twist whatever people into whatever evokes more of a reaction mentally thinking at least that way i'll remember the interaction more but all it does is make every interaction negative. Like when people are 30 they will look back on decent memories of school, HS, Uni , youth etc but I have none.
Overall 2/10 experience, got hyped up about my looks only to feel worse than before after realising my only expectations are to moneymax since there's no hope of me succeeding socially or aesthetically.
Other family members were invited. Clearly, she told them about me buying skincare products and I'm into this ' looksmaxing stuff ' so they kept telling me I need to stop focusing on my appearance because I look good and just get a decent job and talk to more people and improve my social skills, ( they know I'm a 24KHHV
) telling me I'll meet a girl when the time is right. Technically, they're right that if I had a real job ( not at a supermarket ) my life might be a bit better, but I HATE that they tell me I look good with such conviction I actually started to believe it until I see a picture of myself, like surely they can't actually believe it but they sound so confident.
I know they only want the best for me in the end and say my appearance is fine etc and doesn't matter much in life compared to having a good job, but at the same time, on one night at some restaurant, there was this Italian model couple near us and their attention was mostly on them and they talked about them even after we left,
How can they even make up such lies about me after seeing them.ig Italians have a stereotype of being attractive/ well dressed and my mum used that example, saying that despite being here, there was only 2 attractive people the whole time we saw on the first day so I made the point that if you remember them because of their looks, doesn't that mean that what I do isn't pointless?
Her reply was basically, 'you only care about looks and these superficial things because you have too much free time, you need a job with more hours, so you don't have time to think about these things and can focus on work, good looking people are rare and you'll never look as good as them with all the creams you waste your money on '
another point she made for me I don't like is saying I have a 'shy personality' ( poor social skills ) so I should find a strong woman in the future because I struggle to make tough decisions and procrastinate, she said it doesn't matter i have no relationship experience, girls are meant to have more sex when they're young so they can find a good man to take care of them and raise a familyMaybe I'm wrong, but it felt more like ' you are a high inhib, ugly loser, so just make money from a job, then wait for a woman who wants security /money in her 30's and marry her so you can be normal and have kids and let her make decisions for you because you are a weak male ' ... I obvioulsy have low self esteem so I twist whatever people into whatever evokes more of a reaction mentally thinking at least that way i'll remember the interaction more but all it does is make every interaction negative. Like when people are 30 they will look back on decent memories of school, HS, Uni , youth etc but I have none.
Overall 2/10 experience, got hyped up about my looks only to feel worse than before after realising my only expectations are to moneymax since there's no hope of me succeeding socially or aesthetically.
