It's over for me

[teraggggg]

I don't want to say that bp fried my brains, he just revealed the truth to me. Since childhood, I knew that appearance plays the most important role in life, and my passion for lookmaxing did not start because of tt edits with Jordan or chico and because of my sub5 appearance. My mother did not breastfeed me, which probably played a big role in the development of my jaw, and plus I had very big problems with my teeth but I fixed them after braces. And the loss of my father played a big role in my life. I have a lot of childhood traumas and am very tense. But after thinking about how I improved my teeth played a big role and I thought that now I look good but the dating app cooked me I have been sitting for half a year trying to find someone not even for a relationship but just to talk without being ignored, but it's all useless so far not a single mutual match. I don't even have friends to talk to without feeling like I'm a nobody, I feel abandoned all the time. By the way, I had relationships but only online and that also played a role In my lack of self-confidence because she always talked about male models and reposted videos of them that I don't even come close to looking like. But I don't think this is a good place to write all this here but as I mentioned I have no one to talk to about this without feeling humiliated. I feel like I'm burning alive and everywhere I go I feel like everyone is disgusted by me
«I wish I was never born»