Cook3d
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Im such a fool..
im in a new class this year and theres like many pretty girls. And ofc, because they look good, they all got bf's. Exept one.
Shes really cute, with braces, sometimes glasses, looks great and is very nice and helpful. Smart as well, omd its like shes perfect in everything she does (prolly cuz of looks). shes got basically perfect grades, everyone likes her and she has so many hobbies.
She often looked at me, with what i wish to believe, genuine smiles, laughs and so on. For the past few days we've been texting a LOT, so i thought she wanted us to get closer. My friends also told me that she prolly likes me and that its most likely cuz of my looks (even tho im like sub 3).
Well turns out, im just a failiure and its all in my head, its not like i asked her or got told that she doesnt like me, however, whenever i look at her, it feels like a blank stare of pure disgust and hatred returns. (WHEN she even looks at me, which rarely happens).
i wouldnt say i did anything to piss her off or make her not like me, i like to believe she just realized, that i look how i look and that she (around htb ) defenitely doesnt
want anything to do with a subhuman like creature.
ill fail everyone i know, my mom was right, im useless and serve no purpose, my bloodline ends with me...
For the past few months, its been going downhill and me and my friend started ordering needles, peptides and cope materials (whatever keeps the rope away ig) and its genuinely gotten to a point, where i dont wanna look at anyone, in fear that if they look back theyll just laugh and be disgusted...
its over..
im in a new class this year and theres like many pretty girls. And ofc, because they look good, they all got bf's. Exept one.
Shes really cute, with braces, sometimes glasses, looks great and is very nice and helpful. Smart as well, omd its like shes perfect in everything she does (prolly cuz of looks). shes got basically perfect grades, everyone likes her and she has so many hobbies.
She often looked at me, with what i wish to believe, genuine smiles, laughs and so on. For the past few days we've been texting a LOT, so i thought she wanted us to get closer. My friends also told me that she prolly likes me and that its most likely cuz of my looks (even tho im like sub 3).
Well turns out, im just a failiure and its all in my head, its not like i asked her or got told that she doesnt like me, however, whenever i look at her, it feels like a blank stare of pure disgust and hatred returns. (WHEN she even looks at me, which rarely happens).
i wouldnt say i did anything to piss her off or make her not like me, i like to believe she just realized, that i look how i look and that she (around htb ) defenitely doesnt
want anything to do with a subhuman like creature.
ill fail everyone i know, my mom was right, im useless and serve no purpose, my bloodline ends with me...
For the past few months, its been going downhill and me and my friend started ordering needles, peptides and cope materials (whatever keeps the rope away ig) and its genuinely gotten to a point, where i dont wanna look at anyone, in fear that if they look back theyll just laugh and be disgusted...
its over..
