It's so brutal to look at old pictures before my surgeries

[StraightHeadJames]

I ascended from my surgeries but I descended collagen wise somewhat for some reason.

It's so brutal looking at the old photos and videos of myself, it's like it's not even me. You could see the sadness in my eyes, my eyes looked so different and the gaze I had.

Can't believe that's me, I don't even remember that time I just lived in my head constantly imagining a better life and feeling sorry for myself. I always hated my looks so much I still do.

I don't know sometimes I regret changing myself so much, it's not who I really am supposed to be I guess.

 

[Deleted member 51465]

What surgeries?

 

[StraightHeadJames]

What surgeries?

Rhino, genio and hair transplant

 

[nocopemaxxing]

Rhino, genio and hair transplant

Do not regret everything. You are an ascensioncel and that is good

 

[Matheus]

Rhino, genio and hair transplant

HT doesn't really change you, only gives you your hair back
But I agree bro, rhino, genio, anything that alters your bone structure you will always feel weird. Our brains are wired to link our inner identities with our faces.

Personally I would always feel like a fraud unless the surgery was needed for medical reasons (broken nose, etc).

 

[CFW432]

I don't get these people who ascend with surgeries but then have some mental break because "MUH I CAN'T EVEN RECOGNIZE MYSELF IN THE MIRROR ANYMORE!!!!".

One theory I have is that deep down inside these people were always OK with how they looked, but caved in due to societal pressure. And now feel some regret due to their actions.

But I have NEVER been OK with the way I looked, even when i was a little kid. I always wanted to have straight or wavy fine hair so I could always participate in whatever new hairstyle trend was out, whether it was the Bieber hairstyle, or the nazi fuckboy sides shaved long on top hairstyle, or even now prettyboy curtains. But I never could due to my disgusting terrible coarse curly/ wavy hair.

I've always wanted to be lightskin cause every curry child is aware since they are like fucking 5 that lightskin is considered more desirable over brown or darkskin, and so I never liked my brown skin cause I knew it made me look more undesirable.

I've never liked what I saw in the mirror ever since I was a little kid lmao, and every day I would wake up hoping that my skin looked a little bit more lighter that day, or my hair would be a bit more "straighter" and cooperate with whatever hairstyle I was trying to wear that day.

I can't wait till I get all my cosmetic surgeries lol, I never want to see my face ever again lol.

 

[Clown Show]

How old are you?

 

[StraightHeadJames]

HT doesn't really change you, only gives you your hair back
But I agree bro, rhino, genio, anything that alters your bone structure you will always feel weird. Our brains are wired to link our inner identities with our faces.

Personally I would always feel like a fraud unless the surgery was needed for medical reasons (broken nose, etc).

I wasn't balding it's just that my hairline was fucked up ever since I was little and the HT gave me a straight hairline

I don't get these people who ascend with surgeries but then have some mental break because "MUH I CAN'T EVEN RECOGNIZE MYSELF IN THE MIRROR ANYMORE!!!!".

One theory I have is that deep down inside these people were always OK with how they looked, but caved in due to societal pressure. And now feel some regret due to their actions.

But I have NEVER been OK with the way I looked, even when i was a little kid. I always wanted to have straight or wavy fine hair so I could always participate in whatever new hairstyle trend was out, whether it was the Bieber hairstyle, or the nazi fuckboy sides shaved long on top hairstyle, or even now prettyboy curtains. But I never could due to my disgusting terrible coarse curly/ wavy hair.

I've always wanted to be lightskin cause every curry child is aware since they are like fucking 5 that lightskin is considered more desirable over brown or darkskin, and so I never liked my brown skin cause I knew it made me look more undesirable.

I've never liked what I saw in the mirror ever since I was a little kid lmao, and every day I would wake up hoping that my skin looked a little bit more lighter that day, or my hair would be a bit more "straighter" and cooperate with whatever hairstyle I was trying to wear that day.

I can't wait till I get all my cosmetic surgeries lol, I never want to see my face ever again lol.

I used to cry about how I looked at 12 years old to my mother.
I don't constantly feel like this it's just sometimes, of course I prefer the way people treat me now, I wish I never had to change in the first place because it doesn't feel real not to my eyes or to the touch.

How old are you?

I am 19 the surgeries were paid for by my parents I am very grateful we aren't even rich btw but they would do anything for me

 

[Clown Show]

I am 19 the surgeries were paid for by my parents I am very grateful we aren't even rich btw but they would do anything for me

Wow you are really lucky that you were able to afford surgeries at a such a young age. Most of us poorcels can only afford it in mid to late 20s after we farm money.

What is your experience after surgeries? Did you start slaying?

 

[StraightHeadJames]

Wow you are really lucky that you were able to afford surgeries at a such a young age. Most of us poorcels can only afford it in mid to late 20s after we farm money.

What is your experience after surgeries? Did you start slaying?

I didn't start slaying but a girl approached me when I was with my incel friend and now I am in LTR with her for 2 months
but I am not slay material

 

[CFW432]

I wasn't balding it's just that my hairline was fucked up ever since I was little and the HT gave me a straight hairline


I used to cry about how I looked at 12 years old to my mother.
I don't constantly feel like this it's just sometimes, of course I prefer the way people treat me now, I wish I never had to change in the first place because it doesn't feel real not to my eyes or to the touch.

I am 19 the surgeries were paid for by my parents I am very grateful we aren't even rich btw but they would do anything for me

I wish I never had to change in the first place because it doesn't feel real not to my eyes or to the touch.

Lmao obviously nibba everyone wishes that they could be accepted for the way they were born, but obviously reality is unfortunately different, no matter how much bluepillers try to delude themselves

I wished for the first 18 years of my life throughout public schooling that people could just accept me and would want to be my friend and girls would want to be with me even though I was a brown curry, but unfortunately it was all just a bluepilled lie and delusion that I told myself and that the rest of the world kept gaslighting me about the whole time.

I actually became blackpilled at 19 as well too lol, first found out about the blackpill and inceldom through the braincels subreddit.

but I am not slay material

The only slayers are chads that are 8/10 and maybe sometimes chadlites that are 7/10. Most people won't be slayers even after surgeries cause they don't have a good original base and the effect of surgeries heavily relies on the base looks you start out with.

Surgeries only at most give you a +2 to your original looks, so for most normies that are average Joe schmoes AKA 5/10s, they can only hope to become chadlite tier after getting all their surgeries. And if you were below average like me, then you can probably only become a high tier normie at most.

 

[Matheus]

I wasn't balding it's just that my hairline was fucked up ever since I was little and the HT gave me a straight hairline


I used to cry about how I looked at 12 years old to my mother.
I don't constantly feel like this it's just sometimes, of course I prefer the way people treat me now, I wish I never had to change in the first place because it doesn't feel real not to my eyes or to the touch.

I am 19 the surgeries were paid for by my parents I am very grateful we aren't even rich btw but they would do anything for me

You were lucky that your parents paid it for you. I'm 24 and I'm barely starting to get money for my HT.
What I usually advice people is that unless you're really subhuman or maybe LTN because of one big failo, you shouldn't alter your face structure. Good softmaxxes can usually up you one tier (from MTN to HTN for example) and most normies don't have properly curated skincare, a nice physique, etc