I've been stalking one foid for 5 years

[chudcell999]

I've been stalking one girl for 5 years come January 23rd and I don't even know how but yes I remember the exact date I remember the exact video it was a video of her and her friend they had their fursona dino mask on which I know might sound weird but mind you this was 5 years ago so they were 11 and I was 13 but of course at the time I didn't know their ages anyway I decided to leave a hate comment because who the hell doesn't want to troll a furry Long story short I felt bad after a couple months apologized and started to grow attachment through personal conversations and I had grown a small friendship with her but a larger friendship with her irl bsf to the point I would talk to bsf daily let's call her bsf TY and the girl I've been stalking lynn I still am a troll and one day when we were playing Roblox I went to far and called TY boobless and a black monkey (she's mixed) which clearly hurt her feelings a little too much but I'm just rage baiting anyways TY and Lynn proceed to go just as hard and said I look like a funhouse mirror and how I'm never ever going to find friends or love this hurt me deeply because little do they know it's true here I am at 18 The only thing I have is ambitions nothing to show for it and actually is the only reason I started my first Ascension is for her (pics below) anyways I somehow make up with them and show my ascension it lowk worked and she interacted with me more online but I'm still ND so I don't know how to be normal and the replys slow till one day she stops replying and I'm a stalker like I said so I do investigating and find out she has an IRL BF I DMed the bf to find out more information about him which to this day I still don't know much All I know is his name is Aiden anyway she finds out I DMed him and she flips the fuck out before blocking me it's been 1 year 2 months and 3 weeks since I last spoke to her. Not a day has gone by for the last 4 and 1/2 years that haven't thought about her at least once I've never felt this way before for a single person on planet Earth but it was doomed from the start she comes from ultra wealth I come from government assistance and temporarily homelessness she's naturally beautiful like hmtb I'm not I have to try a lot harder to be looks match she's 1200 mi away and most of all she just doesn't like me. I would have just kept this to myself but I'm increasingly getting more alarming thoughts I all my entire life have I fantasized so much about going ER like genuinely in my room vivid daydreams of me taking her life or me taking my life in front of her vivid Day dreams of me stalking IRL All I really want is help on how to get over her and move one with my lonely chud ife and none of this is LARP All of this is real if something doesn't shift my focus soon I'm probably going to go to Arizona I don't think I have the guts to actually harm her I just want to meet her but I wish I could just leave her alone because I genuinely do care for her I know this because I don't think of her lustfully every other crush I've ever had I thought of them naked I don't think of her this way it feels gross (I decided to add a pic of her so you guys can let me know if I'm being retarded I know it's a shitty pic but I got it off of a relatives Facebook)

 

[topology]

I loved the story. Could you perhaps write some more essays on similar topics? Make sure to tag me in them.

Not trying to be funny btw I found this entertaining.

 

[zygosmasher12]

 

[looksovernt]

 

[chudcell999]

I loved the story. Could you perhaps write some more essays on similar topics? Make sure to tag me in them.

Not trying to be funny btw I found this entertaining.

I'm glad you found it entertaining but I need advice really bad this isn't larp I often think about killing her even though I love her and I don't know what invokes this reaction in me

 

[topology]

I'm glad you found it entertaining but I need advice really bad this isn't larp I often think about killing her even though I love her and I don't know what invokes this reaction in me

There's no advice past what I consider common sense. Good luck in that.

 

[tunisianropemaxxer]

FOLK

 

[chudcell999]

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Summary: I found a furry girl on TikTok started trolling then gained a crush she broke off contact now I want to go ER and I need help to prevent myself

 

[tunisianropemaxxer]

I'm glad you found it entertaining but I need advice really bad this isn't larp I often think about killing her even though I love her and I don't know what invokes this reaction in me

nvm this aint funny no more

 

[tarkdriad33]

can you summarize it

 

[tunisianropemaxxer]

Summary: I found a furry girl on TikTok started trolling then gained a crush she broke off contact now I want to go ER and I need help to prevent myself

theres more to life than furry girls

 

[chudcell999]

can you summarize it

Summary: I found a furry girl on TikTok started trolling then gained a crush she broke off contact now I want to go ER and I need help to prevent myself

 

[Panchitosbroncs]

I've been stalking one girl for 5 years come January 23rd and I don't even know how but yes I remember the exact date I remember the exact video it was a video of her and her friend they had their fursona dino mask on which I know might sound weird but mind you this was 5 years ago so they were 11 and I was 13 but of course at the time I didn't know their ages anyway I decided to leave a hate comment because who the hell doesn't want to troll a furry Long story short I felt bad after a couple months apologized and started to grow attachment through personal conversations and I had grown a small friendship with her but a larger friendship with her irl bsf to the point I would talk to bsf daily let's call her bsf TY and the girl I've been stalking lynn I still am a troll and one day when we were playing Roblox I went to far and called TY boobless and a black monkey (she's mixed) which clearly hurt her feelings a little too much but I'm just rage baiting anyways TY and Lynn proceed to go just as hard and said I look like a funhouse mirror and how I'm never ever going to find friends or love this hurt me deeply because little do they know it's true here I am at 18 The only thing I have is ambitions nothing to show for it and actually is the only reason I started my first Ascension is for her (pics below) anyways I somehow make up with them and show my ascension it lowk worked and she interacted with me more online but I'm still ND so I don't know how to be normal and the replys slow till one day she stops replying and I'm a stalker like I said so I do investigating and find out she has an IRL BF I DMed the bf to find out more information about him which to this day I still don't know much All I know is his name is Aiden anyway she finds out I DMed him and she flips the fuck out before blocking me it's been 1 year 2 months and 3 weeks since I last spoke to her. Not a day has gone by for the last 4 and 1/2 years that haven't thought about her at least once I've never felt this way before for a single person on planet Earth but it was doomed from the start she comes from ultra wealth I come from government assistance and temporarily homelessness she's naturally beautiful like hmtb I'm not I have to try a lot harder to be looks match she's 1200 mi away and most of all she just doesn't like me. I would have just kept this to myself but I'm increasingly getting more alarming thoughts I all my entire life have I fantasized so much about going ER like genuinely in my room vivid daydreams of me taking her life or me taking my life in front of her vivid Day dreams of me stalking IRL All I really want is help on how to get over her and move one with my lonely chud ife and none of this is LARP All of this is real if something doesn't shift my focus soon I'm probably going to go to Arizona I don't think I have the guts to actually harm her I just want to meet her but I wish I could just leave her alone because I genuinely do care for her I know this because I don't think of her lustfully every other crush I've ever had I thought of them naked I don't think of her this way it feels gross (I decided to add a pic of her so you guys can let me know if I'm being retarded I know it's a shitty pic but I got it off of a relatives Facebook)

This is actually interesting, but sad

 

[looksovernt]

Summary: I found a furry girl on TikTok started trolling then gained a crush she broke off contact now I want to go ER and I need help to prevent myself

Don't worry about it you're probably too low T to do anything

 

[Stacy_Destroyer69]

dnr cuck

 

[tarkdriad33]

Summary: I found a furry girl on TikTok started trolling then gained a crush she broke off contact now I want to go ER and I need help to prevent myself

t

This is actually interesting, but sad

thats just ur average inkwell

 

[chudcell999]

theres more to life than furry girls

It's not that she's a furry it's that shes so effortlessly original and unbothered she's genuinely her she's not performative to anyone she's very pretty in my opinion and has lots of people who love her and I yearn for it

 

[tunisianropemaxxer]

It's not that she's a furry it's that shes so effortlessly original and unbothered she's genuinely her she's not performative to anyone she's very pretty in my opinion and has lots of people who love her and I yearn for it

Tbh i dnr'ed most of the story can u go a bit deeper on why you dont js talk to her?

 

[chudcell999]

Don't worry about it you're probably too low T to do anything

I know you're making jokes and people like you probably won't feel bad but don't be surprised if you see in a couple years this Make headlines

 

[chudcell999]

Tbh i dnr'ed most of the story can u go a bit deeper on why you dont js talk to her?

She has a boyfriend that's real I'm not real I'm internet stalker she also blocked me she's done it so many times it gets to a point I'm just hurting both of us coping with false hope

 

[looksovernt]

I know you're making jokes and people like you probably won't feel bad but don't be surprised if you see in a couple years this Make headlines

how old are you

 

[tunisianropemaxxer]

She has a boyfriend that's real I'm not real I'm internet stalker she also blocked me she's done it so many times it gets to a point I'm just hurting both of us coping with false hope

man theres plenty of girls that are original and beautiful
if you gon keep trying to get THIS one in particular you gon miss the other ones that are gonna pass by you in life

 

[Robloxfan25]

It's not that she's a furry it's that shes so effortlessly original and unbothered she's genuinely her she's not performative to anyone she's very pretty in my opinion and has lots of people who love her and I yearn for it

Classic foid mind tricks

 

[chudcell999]

man theres plenty of girls that are original and beautiful
if you gon keep trying to get THIS one in particular you gon miss the other ones that are gonna pass by you in life

I know this is right but there's something subconsciously that says there is no better that bothers me

 

[tunisianropemaxxer]

I know this is right but there's something subconsciously that says there is no better that bothers me

Ignore it until you find someone else

 

[chudcell999]

Classic foid mind tricks

It's rope fuel

 

[Siber777]

Summary: I found a furry girl on TikTok started trolling then gained a crush she broke off contact now I want to go ER and I need help to prevent myself

Go to a psychiatrist

 

[chudcell999]

Ignore it until you find someone else

Brother it's been a year plus and I still think about her everyday what the fuck else am I supposed to do? Hypothetically I start talking to a different girl The same shit's going to happen because I am nd this shit is so fucking painful and I know I'm the problem not her or any other girl

 

[tunisianropemaxxer]

Brother it's been a year plus and I still think about her everyday what the fuck else am I supposed to do? Hypothetically I start talking to a different girl The same shit's going to happen because I am nd this shit is so fucking painful and I know I'm the problem not her or any other girl

Are u ugly?

 

[chudcell999]

Go to a psychiatrist

This could potentially help but I've had bad experience with therapist it doesn't seem like I can actually say what I'm thinking I can only say it to people on the internet I don't feel comfortable enough to speak my mind to a real human face

 

[Hazarddd]

is this ragebait or are u just retarded

 

[chudcell999]

Are u ugly?

I think I'm not ugly but that's a course up to the girl to decide not to me

 

[chudcell999]

is this ragebait or are u just retarded

I wish I could wake up and the last 5 years was just a dream but it's not it's real and these thoughts are real and this girl is real

 

[luuk]

I've been stalking one girl for 5 years come January 23rd and I don't even know how but yes I remember the exact date I remember the exact video it was a video of her and her friend they had their fursona dino mask on which I know might sound weird but mind you this was 5 years ago so they were 11 and I was 13 but of course at the time I didn't know their ages anyway I decided to leave a hate comment because who the hell doesn't want to troll a furry Long story short I felt bad after a couple months apologized and started to grow attachment through personal conversations and I had grown a small friendship with her but a larger friendship with her irl bsf to the point I would talk to bsf daily let's call her bsf TY and the girl I've been stalking lynn I still am a troll and one day when we were playing Roblox I went to far and called TY boobless and a black monkey (she's mixed) which clearly hurt her feelings a little too much but I'm just rage baiting anyways TY and Lynn proceed to go just as hard and said I look like a funhouse mirror and how I'm never ever going to find friends or love this hurt me deeply because little do they know it's true here I am at 18 The only thing I have is ambitions nothing to show for it and actually is the only reason I started my first Ascension is for her (pics below) anyways I somehow make up with them and show my ascension it lowk worked and she interacted with me more online but I'm still ND so I don't know how to be normal and the replys slow till one day she stops replying and I'm a stalker like I said so I do investigating and find out she has an IRL BF I DMed the bf to find out more information about him which to this day I still don't know much All I know is his name is Aiden anyway she finds out I DMed him and she flips the fuck out before blocking me it's been 1 year 2 months and 3 weeks since I last spoke to her. Not a day has gone by for the last 4 and 1/2 years that haven't thought about her at least once I've never felt this way before for a single person on planet Earth but it was doomed from the start she comes from ultra wealth I come from government assistance and temporarily homelessness she's naturally beautiful like hmtb I'm not I have to try a lot harder to be looks match she's 1200 mi away and most of all she just doesn't like me. I would have just kept this to myself but I'm increasingly getting more alarming thoughts I all my entire life have I fantasized so much about going ER like genuinely in my room vivid daydreams of me taking her life or me taking my life in front of her vivid Day dreams of me stalking IRL All I really want is help on how to get over her and move one with my lonely chud ife and none of this is LARP All of this is real if something doesn't shift my focus soon I'm probably going to go to Arizona I don't think I have the guts to actually harm her I just want to meet her but I wish I could just leave her alone because I genuinely do care for her I know this because I don't think of her lustfully every other crush I've ever had I thought of them naked I don't think of her this way it feels gross (I decided to add a pic of her so you guys can let me know if I'm being retarded I know it's a shitty pic but I got it off of a relatives Facebook)

Read every molecule surprisingly because grey rants are always entertaining

But yeah it would be best for you to try to find someone in proximity to you that you have a chance with to replace your infatuation for her with because this is pretty unhealthy and dangerous

 

[tunisianropemaxxer]

View attachment 4489141View attachment 4489145 I think I'm not ugly but that's a course up to the girl to decide not to me

Groom ur face and change glasses

 

[Siber777]

This could potentially help but I've had bad experience with therapist it doesn't seem like I can actually say what I'm thinking I can only say it to people on the internet I don't feel comfortable enough to speak my mind to a real human face

Nah don’t say that they’re going to send u to an asylum except if u wanna go and try to maybe change yourself. I recommend just giving up and moving on, since anyone with eyes knows you’ll never truly matter to her.

 

[chudcell999]

Nah don’t say that they’re going to send u to an asylum except if u wanna go and try to maybe change yourself. I recommend just giving up and moving on, since anyone with eyes knows you’ll never truly matter to her.

I'm trying I know most people dnred which I don't blame but I haven't talked to her in over a year I'm trying my best but unfortunately no matter what I do not a day goes by where I don't think of her and it hurts because I know I'm worthless to her I'm as important is this shit her dog to today and it's crushing

 

[Siber777]

I'm trying I know most people dnred which I don't blame but I haven't talked to her in over a year I'm trying my best but unfortunately no matter what I do not a day goes by where I don't think of her and it hurts because I know I'm worthless to her I'm as important is this shit her dog to today and it's crushing

The reason u care abt her so much is because she’s the only girl u only truly talked to, maybe if u went out an explored. You’d perhaps get rid of that gut wrenching feeling u have

 

[6ft5geneticsaviour]

great post, dont kill her, retard

 

[chudcell999]

The reason u care abt her so much is because she’s the only girl u only truly talked to, maybe if u went out an explored. You’d perhaps get rid of that gut wrenching feeling u have

Perhaps but I doubt it considering the fact there is a period of time where I was talking to her friend more than her and I did not feel the same way about her friend and her friend was a lot nicer to me

 

[chudcell999]

great post, dont kill her, retard

I don't think I'll actually ever kill her I just think of it very often I do think I will meet her though I know exactly where she lives

 

[Siber777]

Perhaps but I doubt it considering the fact there is a period of time where I was talking to her friend more than her and I did not feel the same way about her friend and her friend was a lot nicer to me

Yea but who’s prettier?

 

[chudcell999]

Yea but who’s prettier?

I'll let you decide I'm not going to tell you which is which just tell me which one you like better sorry for picture quality these are off Facebook

 

[Siber777]

I'll let you decide I'm not going to tell you which is which just tell me which one you like better sorry for picture quality these are off Facebook


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Is there any better pictures for the first one?

 

[chudcell999]

Is there any better pictures for the first one?

This is all I got

 

[swaggers]

View attachment 4489141View attachment 4489145 I think I'm not ugly but that's a course up to the girl to decide not to me

Ur not even fucking ugly man you just dont groom yourself

You can legit hit mtn or hmtn

 

[Siber777]

This is all I got

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The Other one clears

 

[chudcell999]

The Other one clears

I thought it was closer but you're right The other one is a girl I'm obsessed with

 

[Siber777]

I thought it was closer but you're right The other one is a girl I'm obsessed with

Yea I get why’d u be that way she’s very attractive but tragically with the state u look currently you’ll never pull her, I suggest lose the little beard, the glasses and lose more face fat and maybe with some hope and prayers you can ascend just a lil, enough to be noticed by her

 

[ToDelirium]

This is retarded