Itnax
Subhuman
- Joined
- Jul 31, 2024
- Posts
- 32
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Ive been lurking around the org everyday ever since i joined. And it changed me, every time i see people i try to analyze their face. I don't see people the same anymore. Jealousy is eating me alive. Every day, I see people who have what I desperately want looks, confidence, effortless charm and it’s killing me inside. The jealousy gnaws at me, a constant reminder of my inadequacies and the unfairness of it all. It's like a poison coursing through my veins, clouding my thoughts and turning every moment into a bitter comparison. I can't escape it, it's there when I wake up, when I see happy couples, when I look in the mirror and see all the ways I fall short. The anger and frustration bubble up, making it hard to breathe, hard to think clearly. I hate feeling this way, but the envy is relentless, a dark shadow that taints everything. It’s destroying me from the inside out, leaving me consumed by bitterness and resentment, unable to find any peace or happiness. I can't stop looking in the mirror every minute, hoping to see something I like, but I never do. Each glance shows me the same flaws, and if I don't see anything positive, my entire day is ruined. No matter how hard I try, I don’t see any change or progress. My mood plummets, and I’m overwhelmed with disappointment and self-loathing. This endless cycle of checking and being crushed by what I see is driving me mad, making it impossible to find any peace or satisfaction.
