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punch yourself 10000 times, remember wolf's law
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I used to do it in middle school, and it was very brutal looking at it back, I was fat, with glasses and acne, it was essentially a defense mechanism
I developed in late elementary school because I was bullied and I did it also to cope with the fact that my father used to beat the shit out
of me in that time and gaslight me into thinking he wasn't (after beating me he would go and watch TV and ask why are you crying and deny what he did), jestering elevated my mood and I forgot what happened a day before
looking at it back, I feel so ashamed for even doing that, and the fact I believed I was being finally accepted jfl
the only pro from this time is that I actually developed a funny personality, and it somehow built my confidence, even if its
built on lies, I can be easily NT today and can be charismatic because of the way I look now since I lost a massive part of my weight
and started to go with contacts
this is why places like 4chan and groups of extremists have such good memes, they are usually ugly or were ugly and were all jesters at one point which developed
this part in them, I have been looking in both looksmax and incels.is and many users did that at one point or another, which is also full of jesters, especially looksmax which we can see with the shitposters here
I developed in late elementary school because I was bullied and I did it also to cope with the fact that my father used to beat the shit out
of me in that time and gaslight me into thinking he wasn't (after beating me he would go and watch TV and ask why are you crying and deny what he did), jestering elevated my mood and I forgot what happened a day before
looking at it back, I feel so ashamed for even doing that, and the fact I believed I was being finally accepted jfl
the only pro from this time is that I actually developed a funny personality, and it somehow built my confidence, even if its
built on lies, I can be easily NT today and can be charismatic because of the way I look now since I lost a massive part of my weight
and started to go with contacts
this is why places like 4chan and groups of extremists have such good memes, they are usually ugly or were ugly and were all jesters at one point which developed
this part in them, I have been looking in both looksmax and incels.is and many users did that at one point or another, which is also full of jesters, especially looksmax which we can see with the shitposters here
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