Blackout.xl
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As u all know I’m just a persona. How act here isn’t how I act irl or even on discord. So this story shouldn’t come as a surprise.
I’m on discord chat and engage in a conversation. My paragraphs are too long because I elaborate too much. I use too many words. Side effect of vyvanse, I can’t help it.
Then this foid I know Through Pming on discord out of no where starts saying Dn rd lmfao not reading that. At this point I didn’t really care.
Then she says something about ED culture and I make a dumb mistake I shouldnt of made. Especially on vyvanse. I focused on the term ED instead of culture and asked what tf ED means, then she tells me. But adds an insult to my intelligence to it, along with another insult.
Another foid decides to jump in and double team ms. Call me stupid and say I don’t know shit and shouldn’t even speak on the subject. I naturally confront them and ask why they’re being so rude and spend the next 30 mins justifying it and roasting my intelligence.
to summarize it, they just call me dumb, retarded, etc. For the foid who saw my pics I said she’d get punched irl for asking this. Then she naturally says yeah ok u don’t look intimidating at all (she saw my pics and ignored me after, despite her being semi-invested in our conversation before the pics. obviously an implication that I look low t and soy, not attractive).
They say why must they respect me, that it’s the internet, if I’m “trying to make them a better person” combined with sarcastic emoji’s, saying I’m trying to justify my stupidity, highlight my mistake in the most extreme ways even after I admit I made a mistake, etc. Just rub it in. The foid who didn’t see my pics was much more rude and the foid who did see my pics showed appreciation for her joining in and roasting me in the form of “I luv u“ to the person who joined in. rest of chat watched and just agreed or stayed silent, probably laughing.
This, combined with my personal experiences where women bullied me, often in similar ways, me trying to be respectful but just being shit on completely and them talking to chads in a much nicer way just sealed the deal and made me not wanna speak. Got blackpilled and racepilled. Maybe I am just retarded, maybe vyvanse can’t save my negroid brain. Shed a few tears.
I tried to hold that shit back but the Past experiences and thoughts of absolute subhumanity came rushing in. I couldn’t stop it. My brain just went into ultra depression mode and looked in the mirror and saw my completely fucked up skin and disproportionate features.
Maybe I’m just a push over chump. I just can’t take it anymore. I was able to endure for 17 years but ever since finding the blackpill and tying everything together I have become much more prone to emotional outbursts where I get very sad as a reaction to things like these.
The foid who saw my pics just outright declared that she disliked me too. When I asked why she said I just do, don’t question it. Makes sense after she saw my pics. You can’t like an ugly black Person. They’re abominations. Dark and ugly. What you see in movies and urban legend. Boogey man? Dark and ugly. The devil? Dark and ugly. Ugly black man? Dark and ugly. Ugly is ugly but race just adds onto it.
They broke my spirit and I’ll likely never type in discord again, nor make any political threads or any shit like that. Probably my last big thread. I feel no motivation to type shit up. Because they just exposed vyvanse as something which makes me able to type up garbage in a More “sophisticated” way. A way that extends the sentence but doesn’t improve the meaning.
They mentioned this when they said I type paragraphs which have little meaning. Made sense.
This how the world is. I’ll never be intelligent, truly. Vyvanse is just paper over the cracks. But you can’t fraud IQ. You either have the talent and the intelligence, or you don’t and can just be a fraud who tries to be something he’s not. So I’m done. If they want some stage monkey who is retarded, then I’ll be one. Because that’s what I am as a low iq black person, a stage monkey. And ultimately, another statistic.
TL;DR = got bullied by discord foids and had it coming due to a mistake I shouldn’t of made.
I’m on discord chat and engage in a conversation. My paragraphs are too long because I elaborate too much. I use too many words. Side effect of vyvanse, I can’t help it.
Then this foid I know Through Pming on discord out of no where starts saying Dn rd lmfao not reading that. At this point I didn’t really care.
Then she says something about ED culture and I make a dumb mistake I shouldnt of made. Especially on vyvanse. I focused on the term ED instead of culture and asked what tf ED means, then she tells me. But adds an insult to my intelligence to it, along with another insult.
Another foid decides to jump in and double team ms. Call me stupid and say I don’t know shit and shouldn’t even speak on the subject. I naturally confront them and ask why they’re being so rude and spend the next 30 mins justifying it and roasting my intelligence.
to summarize it, they just call me dumb, retarded, etc. For the foid who saw my pics I said she’d get punched irl for asking this. Then she naturally says yeah ok u don’t look intimidating at all (she saw my pics and ignored me after, despite her being semi-invested in our conversation before the pics. obviously an implication that I look low t and soy, not attractive).
They say why must they respect me, that it’s the internet, if I’m “trying to make them a better person” combined with sarcastic emoji’s, saying I’m trying to justify my stupidity, highlight my mistake in the most extreme ways even after I admit I made a mistake, etc. Just rub it in. The foid who didn’t see my pics was much more rude and the foid who did see my pics showed appreciation for her joining in and roasting me in the form of “I luv u“ to the person who joined in. rest of chat watched and just agreed or stayed silent, probably laughing.
This, combined with my personal experiences where women bullied me, often in similar ways, me trying to be respectful but just being shit on completely and them talking to chads in a much nicer way just sealed the deal and made me not wanna speak. Got blackpilled and racepilled. Maybe I am just retarded, maybe vyvanse can’t save my negroid brain. Shed a few tears.
I tried to hold that shit back but the Past experiences and thoughts of absolute subhumanity came rushing in. I couldn’t stop it. My brain just went into ultra depression mode and looked in the mirror and saw my completely fucked up skin and disproportionate features.
Maybe I’m just a push over chump. I just can’t take it anymore. I was able to endure for 17 years but ever since finding the blackpill and tying everything together I have become much more prone to emotional outbursts where I get very sad as a reaction to things like these.
The foid who saw my pics just outright declared that she disliked me too. When I asked why she said I just do, don’t question it. Makes sense after she saw my pics. You can’t like an ugly black Person. They’re abominations. Dark and ugly. What you see in movies and urban legend. Boogey man? Dark and ugly. The devil? Dark and ugly. Ugly black man? Dark and ugly. Ugly is ugly but race just adds onto it.
They broke my spirit and I’ll likely never type in discord again, nor make any political threads or any shit like that. Probably my last big thread. I feel no motivation to type shit up. Because they just exposed vyvanse as something which makes me able to type up garbage in a More “sophisticated” way. A way that extends the sentence but doesn’t improve the meaning.
They mentioned this when they said I type paragraphs which have little meaning. Made sense.
This how the world is. I’ll never be intelligent, truly. Vyvanse is just paper over the cracks. But you can’t fraud IQ. You either have the talent and the intelligence, or you don’t and can just be a fraud who tries to be something he’s not. So I’m done. If they want some stage monkey who is retarded, then I’ll be one. Because that’s what I am as a low iq black person, a stage monkey. And ultimately, another statistic.
TL;DR = got bullied by discord foids and had it coming due to a mistake I shouldn’t of made.
