BonesAndHarmony
Taking a break from the autism
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I've been away from this site for a week, I was coping that I was in the right direction, going for the self improvement route. But when you see yourself in a photo all copes just get thrown out of the window , it's all pointless, I will never stop coping, only legit reaction to facing reality would be suicide. That long ramus and visible jawline you thought you were blessed with disappears, that "technical" PCT you thought you were correctly assessing in front of the mirror suddenly turns into a disgusting tired looking, asymmetrical incel eye area, the recessed chin becomes apparent, the disgusting protruding mouth area suddenly looks ten times more bloated and chubbier than ever, the long midface looks miles longer. Everything becomes clear, why I never wanted others to take photos of me, it was all a coping mechanism from my subconscious mind. Reality slapped me in the face this time, now I understand why I never got female attention and why I never had a girlfriend.
I just lost motivation now, I don't want to go outside, I don't want to do anything.
I just lost motivation now, I don't want to go outside, I don't want to do anything.