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Just got back from the gym for the first time. I got excruciating shin splints on my short walk there from the bus stop so I couldn't work out, I just had a look around. I felt so fucking stupid in there, surrounded by fit, attractive, normal people, the kind of people who bullied me at school and the kind of person I will never be
No matter what I do or how hard I try, I will always be a loser and I will always be at the bottom of the pile with nothing in my life, no joy, no achievements, no connections with other human beings, no nothing. I had to sit outside for 20 minutes in agony before I could walk back to the bus stop. Now I am back at home and still in a lot of pain as well as feeling completely humiliated. Today it dawned on me just how fucking over it is, sometimes I feel happy and at ease with myself but I won't make that mistake again. I won't go back to a gym in my life again
Life is hell. I should have been shot at birth instead of dragged through 22 years of loneliness, failure and constant suffering. At least now I am old enough to take matters into my own hands and put myself out of my misery. I am going to delete my account here because looksmaxing is pointless for ugly PSL 3 rodents like me and there is too much suifuel here with people talking about sex and stuff. I will try to isolate myself as much as possible and go through the motions until I either get enough courage to rope, or things get better and I can live a normal life. For some reason I can't bring myself to give up which is the worst part of it all, it just draws it out
Thanks to everyone for being kind to me and keeping me company during my shit life. Peace to you all and I hope you ascend, there is hope for most of you, just not for me
Tagging the bros (sorry if I missed you there are more) @TubOfLard @Pietrosiek @larsanova69 @turkproducer @Nutbuster420 @thinwhiteduke @Proex @ArvidGustavsson @BrettyBoy @john2 @kjsbdfiusdf @PYT @PenileFacialSurgery @Goblin @weissbier
No matter what I do or how hard I try, I will always be a loser and I will always be at the bottom of the pile with nothing in my life, no joy, no achievements, no connections with other human beings, no nothing. I had to sit outside for 20 minutes in agony before I could walk back to the bus stop. Now I am back at home and still in a lot of pain as well as feeling completely humiliated. Today it dawned on me just how fucking over it is, sometimes I feel happy and at ease with myself but I won't make that mistake again. I won't go back to a gym in my life again
Life is hell. I should have been shot at birth instead of dragged through 22 years of loneliness, failure and constant suffering. At least now I am old enough to take matters into my own hands and put myself out of my misery. I am going to delete my account here because looksmaxing is pointless for ugly PSL 3 rodents like me and there is too much suifuel here with people talking about sex and stuff. I will try to isolate myself as much as possible and go through the motions until I either get enough courage to rope, or things get better and I can live a normal life. For some reason I can't bring myself to give up which is the worst part of it all, it just draws it out
Thanks to everyone for being kind to me and keeping me company during my shit life. Peace to you all and I hope you ascend, there is hope for most of you, just not for me
Tagging the bros (sorry if I missed you there are more) @TubOfLard @Pietrosiek @larsanova69 @turkproducer @Nutbuster420 @thinwhiteduke @Proex @ArvidGustavsson @BrettyBoy @john2 @kjsbdfiusdf @PYT @PenileFacialSurgery @Goblin @weissbier
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