Sasukecel
18yo sub5 nonNT 5'7 blackcel
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The 2 biggest problems I have is 1, being ugly, and 2, being a global humiliation.
The title of the video is "Here's why being an incel is ruining your life." and the thumbnail is an arrow with "Never had sex." pointed towards a candid shot of my face. In the video I'm the "moron incel beta male" getting laughed in front of millions of people. It's textbook public humiliation.
Going on the call in July was the worst decision of my life and it still affects me now because the video is widely spread across the internet. It's on Tiktok, Youtube, Twitter, Instagram, Youtube Shorts, it's on every social media platform.
Because I'm a nonNT dumbfuck, I was making a lot of thinking posts on the FitXFearless situation on .is before I left .is. "Should I try to become famous to share my side of the story? Should I hide from the public for the rest of my life?" After 4 months of thinking, I think this is the most rational conclusion, because I thought of it from every angle, because it fucked up all aspects of my life. Everyone I previously knew saw the video, my University Campus, my old classmates, my brother's school, etc. It gave me depression and suicidal thoughts. I was 2 strands away from roping, I was laying down in bed for hours and planned to rope in September. It made me fall behind in University, I don't have a "support system." It fucked up my entire life so obviously I've thought about it deeply from all angles.
2 things I commonly hear are "just forget about the video bro, and don't think about it." That's living in delusion. If you accidently killed your brother with a gun, you would be careful around guns and think about it.
And "go undercover fully. Change your legal name, delete everything and live a private life in Monaco."
I'm still the humilation, I'm just not seen. There would still be people laughing about the video, and my name and face would be associated only by the Fitxfearless video even if I was fully undercover in a different Country. That's getting humiliated by millions then fading into obscurity.
The plan is to fix my long term reputation, whilst burying my old reputation. So I'm still going to looksmax, go to the gym, try to get a job, but the reason why that wouldn't work even if I went all in on self improvement is the FitxFearless video is still viral. I can't change my reputation because the FitxFearless video got too much views and it places me in too much of a bad light. Anything I say or do is negated because of that video, so my life will always be ruined if the videos are accessible on the internet. If I try to go to the gym, be confident, masculine, then the same people will put me in my place "Shut up faggot, you got embarassed on the FitxFearless video. This is the guy talking about X or Y?"
So the videos have to be buried, taken down by choice or force. If the videos are taken down just on YouTube or just on Instagram, then that will aid me a lot, but I would want the videos to be taken down on all platforms. The video removed from FitxFearless's Tiktok, Youtube, Instagram, and YouTube short. It would be extra useful if the entire livestream was removed or if it my part was edited out, because if all of the official clips are removed, it's already buried. But if the reposts also get deleted, then my life would practically be nearly fixed. The currrent damage would still affect me but if all of the videos got hypothetically removed from the internet, the problem would hypothetically be gone.
What if FitxFearless says no? "Fuck you nigga, I'm not deleting the videos." Then I have to take legal action because the more viral the video is, the more likely people in the future will see it. If the videos don't get deleted, and magic happened, I got into a relationship. She would find the video of me getting humiliated and her pussy would dry up. Imagine I magically became a father somehow because I'm ugly, my kid would see the video and view me as a faggot. The videos have to get buried, they have to go if I want to rebuild my life. Even if it's just a shadowban, it's helpful. Even if only the Youtube Short gets deleted, it's helpful but I would want to bury it as much as possible.
If FitxFearless refuses to get the videos deleted, then I'll take legal action. I don't know anything about the law, but if I was 17, a minor when the video came out, coerced to go on the video by people on discord who told me to go on the call to specifically told to lie about my age and ask about plastic surgery (I'm aware it's my fault for being gullible), non consensual, had life altering consequences, public defamation, public humiliation, actively destroys the life of the participant, the law would probably take my side.
I think it's worth more then the surgery itself to get the videos deleted. In value, getting all of the videos wiped from the internet is worth around 100k. Because the videos being widely accessible on the internet will make it so my life can never be rebuilt. The video needs to be removed from tiktok, Instagram, youtube, youtube shorts if I want to not kill myself and rebuild my life.
If Fitxfearless wants men's life improvement, he would improve my life by taking down the videos in which I'm publicly humiliated. If he doesn't want to take it down, then I need to take some form of legal action to enform the official videos get deleted, and I would pay the reposters thousands to delete the video.
That's the only rational way my life can be fixed/rebuild my life. Get the videos deleted even if it requires court or legal action, as to bury the videos then rebuild my reputation based off trying to succeed, making money, trying to be more attractive and ascending as an ugly male so when people see my name and face, they associate me with how I want to be associated and not a viral humiliation. I'm still going undercover to avoid the drama in public for now, avoid the people I previously knew, then I can see them in a decade when the videos are buried and my reputation is changed.
TLDR: I didn't give up on the goals I had. I foolishly put myself in a hyper shitty situation 4 months ago. Remove the bad, show the good. I try to bury the FitxFearless videos by continuely taking legal action until they get deleted because the more the videos are out there, I can't rebuild my life. The videos have to be gone if I want my life to change because they're that much of a detriment to my life, and I rebuild a reputation by trying to achieve the goals I previously had.
The title of the video is "Here's why being an incel is ruining your life." and the thumbnail is an arrow with "Never had sex." pointed towards a candid shot of my face. In the video I'm the "moron incel beta male" getting laughed in front of millions of people. It's textbook public humiliation.
Going on the call in July was the worst decision of my life and it still affects me now because the video is widely spread across the internet. It's on Tiktok, Youtube, Twitter, Instagram, Youtube Shorts, it's on every social media platform.
Because I'm a nonNT dumbfuck, I was making a lot of thinking posts on the FitXFearless situation on .is before I left .is. "Should I try to become famous to share my side of the story? Should I hide from the public for the rest of my life?" After 4 months of thinking, I think this is the most rational conclusion, because I thought of it from every angle, because it fucked up all aspects of my life. Everyone I previously knew saw the video, my University Campus, my old classmates, my brother's school, etc. It gave me depression and suicidal thoughts. I was 2 strands away from roping, I was laying down in bed for hours and planned to rope in September. It made me fall behind in University, I don't have a "support system." It fucked up my entire life so obviously I've thought about it deeply from all angles.
2 things I commonly hear are "just forget about the video bro, and don't think about it." That's living in delusion. If you accidently killed your brother with a gun, you would be careful around guns and think about it.
And "go undercover fully. Change your legal name, delete everything and live a private life in Monaco."
I'm still the humilation, I'm just not seen. There would still be people laughing about the video, and my name and face would be associated only by the Fitxfearless video even if I was fully undercover in a different Country. That's getting humiliated by millions then fading into obscurity.
The plan is to fix my long term reputation, whilst burying my old reputation. So I'm still going to looksmax, go to the gym, try to get a job, but the reason why that wouldn't work even if I went all in on self improvement is the FitxFearless video is still viral. I can't change my reputation because the FitxFearless video got too much views and it places me in too much of a bad light. Anything I say or do is negated because of that video, so my life will always be ruined if the videos are accessible on the internet. If I try to go to the gym, be confident, masculine, then the same people will put me in my place "Shut up faggot, you got embarassed on the FitxFearless video. This is the guy talking about X or Y?"
So the videos have to be buried, taken down by choice or force. If the videos are taken down just on YouTube or just on Instagram, then that will aid me a lot, but I would want the videos to be taken down on all platforms. The video removed from FitxFearless's Tiktok, Youtube, Instagram, and YouTube short. It would be extra useful if the entire livestream was removed or if it my part was edited out, because if all of the official clips are removed, it's already buried. But if the reposts also get deleted, then my life would practically be nearly fixed. The currrent damage would still affect me but if all of the videos got hypothetically removed from the internet, the problem would hypothetically be gone.
What if FitxFearless says no? "Fuck you nigga, I'm not deleting the videos." Then I have to take legal action because the more viral the video is, the more likely people in the future will see it. If the videos don't get deleted, and magic happened, I got into a relationship. She would find the video of me getting humiliated and her pussy would dry up. Imagine I magically became a father somehow because I'm ugly, my kid would see the video and view me as a faggot. The videos have to get buried, they have to go if I want to rebuild my life. Even if it's just a shadowban, it's helpful. Even if only the Youtube Short gets deleted, it's helpful but I would want to bury it as much as possible.
If FitxFearless refuses to get the videos deleted, then I'll take legal action. I don't know anything about the law, but if I was 17, a minor when the video came out, coerced to go on the video by people on discord who told me to go on the call to specifically told to lie about my age and ask about plastic surgery (I'm aware it's my fault for being gullible), non consensual, had life altering consequences, public defamation, public humiliation, actively destroys the life of the participant, the law would probably take my side.
I think it's worth more then the surgery itself to get the videos deleted. In value, getting all of the videos wiped from the internet is worth around 100k. Because the videos being widely accessible on the internet will make it so my life can never be rebuilt. The video needs to be removed from tiktok, Instagram, youtube, youtube shorts if I want to not kill myself and rebuild my life.
If Fitxfearless wants men's life improvement, he would improve my life by taking down the videos in which I'm publicly humiliated. If he doesn't want to take it down, then I need to take some form of legal action to enform the official videos get deleted, and I would pay the reposters thousands to delete the video.
That's the only rational way my life can be fixed/rebuild my life. Get the videos deleted even if it requires court or legal action, as to bury the videos then rebuild my reputation based off trying to succeed, making money, trying to be more attractive and ascending as an ugly male so when people see my name and face, they associate me with how I want to be associated and not a viral humiliation. I'm still going undercover to avoid the drama in public for now, avoid the people I previously knew, then I can see them in a decade when the videos are buried and my reputation is changed.
TLDR: I didn't give up on the goals I had. I foolishly put myself in a hyper shitty situation 4 months ago. Remove the bad, show the good. I try to bury the FitxFearless videos by continuely taking legal action until they get deleted because the more the videos are out there, I can't rebuild my life. The videos have to be gone if I want my life to change because they're that much of a detriment to my life, and I rebuild a reputation by trying to achieve the goals I previously had.
