life feels worthless

[iblameice]

no drugs help.

i’m smart, but getting 100s leaves me feeling empty. i long for someone to understand me, and sympathize with my concern that my work is trivial.

i wish i could get away from this academic hell and pursue looksmaxxing. i wish i could drop out of high school but i don’t trust myself enough; and i sure as hell won’t let the last 5 years of suffering be for nothing.

i don’t often feel emotion like this, but when i do it hits hard. it’s starting to become more frequent as the time passes though.

i wish things were different. i wish God could have given me beauty, strength, and ignorance instead of this crippling hideousness, intelligence, and awareness of the horrid world around me.

i long to return to the lie that the world once was. and i’m thankful for the things that i do not know today, the knowledge of which i may have to endure bearing in the future.

i really don’t know what to do with my life. i like pretty girls and, whenever i play things slow and right, they like me too — but every LTR leaves me with this depressed, drained feeling being even worse.

also this mtb at my school is SO HOT and she smells amazing (i could never date again tho; too busy + too insecure)

i only really feel okay when i’m putting others down in order to make myself feel better because i’m so fucking miserable and i can only fix that through a lobotomy and losing the very essence of myself.

i think more medication may be in order. if anyone has any experience with antidepressants please let me know.

i’ll likely end up spazzing and maybe giving something of value back to this community within the next coming days (whenever this dogshit educational system decides it’s done having its way with me).

TLDR; wondering if anyone has antidepressant experience or has any recommendations for emotional blunting

 

[Mizi44]

Play video games compete with your friends at everything

 

[thetrue_rater]

no drugs help.

i’m smart, but getting 100s leaves me feeling empty. i long for someone to understand me, and sympathize with my concern that my work is trivial.

i wish i could get away from this academic hell and pursue looksmaxxing. i wish i could drop out of high school but i don’t trust myself enough; and i sure as hell won’t let the last 5 years of suffering be for nothing.

i don’t often feel emotion like this, but when i do it hits hard. it’s starting to become more frequent as the time passes though.

i wish things were different. i wish God could have given me beauty, strength, and ignorance instead of this crippling hideousness, intelligence, and awareness of the horrid world around me.

i long to return to the lie that the world once was. and i’m thankful for the things that i do not know today, the knowledge of which i may have to endure bearing in the future.

i really don’t know what to do with my life. i like pretty girls and, whenever i play things slow and right, they like me too — but every LTR leaves me with this depressed, drained feeling being even worse.

also this mtb at my school is SO HOT and she smells amazing (i could never date again tho; too busy + too insecure)

i only really feel okay when i’m putting others down in order to make myself feel better because i’m so fucking miserable and i can only fix that through a lobotomy and losing the very essence of myself.

i think more medication may be in order. if anyone has any experience with antidepressants please let me know.

i’ll likely end up spazzing and maybe giving something of value back to this community within the next coming days (whenever this dogshit educational system decides it’s done having its way with me).

TLDR; wondering if anyone has antidepressant experience or has any recommendations for emotional blunting

Depression probably. Get on medications therapy and good habits

 

[iblameice]

Play video games compete with your friends at everything

no time for video games and my irls are mid as fuck

 

[Mizi44]

no time for video games and my irls are mid as fuck

No time why?

 

[iblameice]

Depression probably. Get on medications therapy and good habits

thank you, on one of my other rants i’ve been given similar advice. i think it’s finally time i speak to my psychiatrist about antidepressants before i REALLY can’t this anymore

 

[iblameice]

No time why?

academic slave because my parents didn’t make me aware of my various declines in cognitive function EVER until i had to sift through my own analysis files and demand a prescription from my psychiatrist.

now i am taking the hardest classes possible in high school and starting my freshman year of college at the same time - which, regardless of intelligence, is VERY fucking time consuming and i LOATHE every SECOND i spend slaving away at a stupid screen learning some bs

 

[Mizi44]

academic slave because my parents didn’t make me aware of my various declines in cognitive function EVER until i had to sift through my own analysis files and demand a prescription from my psychiatrist.

now i am taking the hardest classes possible in high school and starting my freshman year of college at the same time - which, regardless of intelligence, is VERY fucking time consuming and i LOATHE every SECOND i spend slaving away at a stupid screen learning some bs

I see well you siad you getting 100s since you smart why not just skip alot of that I pretty much was in similar situation had too notch grade realised I don't need top notch grades for my future so I started skipping obv got slightly worse grades but going from 100 to 95 isn't bad so I just skipped since while still getting top grades

 

[iblameice]

I see well you siad you getting 100s since you smart why not just skip alot of that I pretty much was in similar situation had too notch grade realised I don't need top notch grades for my future so I started skipping obv got slightly worse grades but going from 100 to 95 isn't bad so I just skipped since while still getting top grades

not a horrible idea, but my ap bio class is really content specific and both my ap bio & my ap chem classes pop up with random labs from time to time

even if i could get away with missing the content and labs somehow, i have too many classes — so it feels like there’s a unit test or a quiz every other day

i just feel raped.

 

[Mizi44]

not a horrible idea, but my ap bio class is really content specific and both my ap bio & my ap chem classes pop up with random labs from time to time

even if i could get away with missing the content and labs somehow, i have too many classes — so it feels like there’s a unit test or a quiz every other day

i just feel raped.

sucks I guess then sadly you could just maybe ask your friend to send you the papers or just summarise what was done that's it

 

[alurmo]

no drugs help.

i’m smart, but getting 100s leaves me feeling empty. i long for someone to understand me, and sympathize with my concern that my work is trivial.

i wish i could get away from this academic hell and pursue looksmaxxing. i wish i could drop out of high school but i don’t trust myself enough; and i sure as hell won’t let the last 5 years of suffering be for nothing.

i don’t often feel emotion like this, but when i do it hits hard. it’s starting to become more frequent as the time passes though.

i wish things were different. i wish God could have given me beauty, strength, and ignorance instead of this crippling hideousness, intelligence, and awareness of the horrid world around me.

i long to return to the lie that the world once was. and i’m thankful for the things that i do not know today, the knowledge of which i may have to endure bearing in the future.

i really don’t know what to do with my life. i like pretty girls and, whenever i play things slow and right, they like me too — but every LTR leaves me with this depressed, drained feeling being even worse.

also this mtb at my school is SO HOT and she smells amazing (i could never date again tho; too busy + too insecure)

i only really feel okay when i’m putting others down in order to make myself feel better because i’m so fucking miserable and i can only fix that through a lobotomy and losing the very essence of myself.

i think more medication may be in order. if anyone has any experience with antidepressants please let me know.

i’ll likely end up spazzing and maybe giving something of value back to this community within the next coming days (whenever this dogshit educational system decides it’s done having its way with me).

TLDR; wondering if anyone has antidepressant experience or has any recommendations for emotional blunting

 

[iblameice]

sucks I guess then sadly you could just maybe ask your friend to send you the papers or just summarise what was done that's it

if only it were that simple

 

[DeborahAnnWollFARTS]