Life fuel for Christcels

[futureltbslayer]

I’m a Christian. Really bad one. I don’t read my Bible. I swear. All of that.
I know there’s not really a good or bad Christian because we are all sinners as well

[Just wanted to mention all that]

I am 19 turning 20
I have no interest in life
I wake up every morning begging God to end my life
I go to sleep begging not to wake up
I beg while doing anything for it to go wrong
Ex. On the road, for me to be in a car accident and die

I hate being alive so much
Idc about the cope of “It’ll get better” or whatever

I genuinely wish I could just rope
I know obv my family would be in a lot of pain
My friends would miss me
Whatever
I’m only staying because God does not want suicide for us
For us to end our own lives when he is the one to do that

I want to ascend so I can actually feel attractive
So I can be as attractive as I possibly can (Understanding the limitations of my genetics)
And since i feel as if I’ve got nothing to lose
Dedicating these next months to ascending as much as possible
Starving as hard as possible
Gymceling as hard as possible
I wish I could just use GLPs but my parents are super strict

Whether I die or not (I hope I do)
I don’t think any amount of anything will give a spark in my life again
Man
I just wish I was never born

Christian’s in this forums
What do I even do
I hate thinking to myself that God is cruel
That he has favourites

I don’t even come from a broke family
I’m not low iq
And I don’t have atrocious genetics

Just things from my childhood + being a ropelet from 12 who fantasised about suicide everyday for years and years

I want to be happy again (or at least at peace)
I fucking hate myself so much
Fuck I wish I could rope

Not attention seeking so don’t even bump the post with your retarded messages

IDC if you DNR
Just a vent for other christcels who’d wanna

 

[irrumator praetor]

cope ur going to hell nigga dnr

 

[HaileyWelshMogs]

shit read, christ is for fags and you sound protestant which is worse

 

[futureltbslayer]

shit read, christ is for fags and you sound protestant which is worse

Jfl not a read I literally said DNR if not Christian

 

[futureltbslayer]

cope ur going to hell nigga dnr

Already in it

 

[try2beme]

Already in it

Tuff

 

[futureltbslayer]

Tuff

Yea bro. Having a negative rep is brutal

 

[iamnotaracist]

We're all going to hell nigga

 

[Philalethes]

I’m a Christian. Really bad one. I don’t read my Bible. I swear. All of that.
I know there’s not really a good or bad Christian because we are all sinners as well

[Just wanted to mention all that]

I am 19 turning 20
I have no interest in life
I wake up every morning begging God to end my life
I go to sleep begging not to wake up
I beg while doing anything for it to go wrong
Ex. On the road, for me to be in a car accident and die

I hate being alive so much
Idc about the cope of “It’ll get better” or whatever

I genuinely wish I could just rope
I know obv my family would be in a lot of pain
My friends would miss me
Whatever
I’m only staying because God does not want suicide for us
For us to end our own lives when he is the one to do that

I want to ascend so I can actually feel attractive
So I can be as attractive as I possibly can (Understanding the limitations of my genetics)
And since i feel as if I’ve got nothing to lose
Dedicating these next months to ascending as much as possible
Starving as hard as possible
Gymceling as hard as possible
I wish I could just use GLPs but my parents are super strict

Whether I die or not (I hope I do)
I don’t think any amount of anything will give a spark in my life again
Man
I just wish I was never born

Christian’s in this forums
What do I even do
I hate thinking to myself that God is cruel
That he has favourites

I don’t even come from a broke family
I’m not low iq
And I don’t have atrocious genetics

Just things from my childhood + being a ropelet from 12 who fantasised about suicide everyday for years and years

I want to be happy again (or at least at peace)
I fucking hate myself so much
Fuck I wish I could rope

Not attention seeking so don’t even bump the post with your retarded messages

IDC if you DNR
Just a vent for other christcels who’d wanna

If God did exist why would he made you ugly in the first place?

 

[futureltbslayer]

If God did exist why would he made you ugly in the first place?

Then why would he come into human form and experience one of the most brutal deaths of all time.
I understand where you’re coming from too tho.
But it still doesn’t make God untrue because of that. And anyway. I’m fat and got bad skin. I can fix both

 

[futureltbslayer]

We're all going to hell nigga

Not me tho. I accept Jesus sacrifice on the cross for my sins