Life genuinely consumed by BP

[IMMO]

So i turned 18 yesterday and its made me oddly reflective not in a particularly positive or moral sense but about what ive been doing the past years of my life and its truly all come down to looks reputation and social position. Now sure this is relatively natural for humans but i feel like people around me have lived much different lives and have had much different experiences purely because they never discovered this shit, sure i may be grey here but ive been lurking for ages and its truly rotted my brain and i care about it too much, like way too much way way too much

Don't get me wrong, i may sound very retarded with what im gonna say in this post but i don't share any of this irl nobody i know can know nor will they ever find out how much i care about this stuff

initially i started worrying about my looks due to social issues i had at the age of 13 (bullying being outcasted etc) now can i blame the people for bullying me? absolutely not in fact id do the same i was fat ugly and weird, tho i cant say id want to go through it again its what made me want to change, what really changed my view on life and ultimately made me arrive at the BP is the difference in treatment that i received from girls when i started looking half decent now again i dont blame them at all people who think girls should pay for shunning those who are bad looking and different are fucking retards thats how its always been and thats how i am too its how theyre genetically coded i would say, everyone started to talk to me more i got a girlfriend that i eventually got bored of and broke up with and my social life as a whole completely turned around which was refreshing at the time. However, i feel like ive moved way past the purpose of many of the people on this forum who may genuinely want to live a better life or get girls to sleep with them, as i stand right now, even though its taken effort to get to where i am from where i started i have no problems interacting with people/girls irl and i look plenty good enough to fuck whenever i want (perhaps not whoever i want but i have standards and thats just how it goes). That being said i no longer care about improving for that purpose getting girls is overrated and sure its fun as fuck but it gets boring theres only so much you can do.

So far ive only made 1 post here specific to my surgery and procedure plans that ive put together and the response i got as a whole was that while i can change this and that i shouldnt worry as much as i am and that im good looking enough to move on with my life and heres where my main point of my vent comes to. i dont want to just live life i dont want to just look good enough to meet people and socialise i want to turn heads, more than that i want people to envy me for how i look and i want to make people feel bad about themselves just looking at me. Dont get me wrong again im not like those autists who will put people down directly or hurt people, not because i think im trying to be morally right or make up for my immorality in another sense i simply dont want the negative attention it brings i want to be admired the way people are online or irl simply for their looks.

i dont think i envy anyone as much as those who look good, not millionaires not philanthropists simply those who got a little lucky at birth i envy them for the attention they get.

All that being said im not a retard, i know my MTN (maybe HMTN at best) base only has so many changes that can be done to it to ascend me ultimately genetics are brutal and theres nothing any of us can do about it i dont expect to ascend to the levels of chads but i can and will do everything to reach my peak i will hit that point of getting everyones attention simply strolling down the street one way or another, il inject anything, il have anything remodelled. it will happen.


Read this or dont i had to get it out somewhere as nobody irl is finding out about it, i thank anyone who viewed

 

[Copercel]

So i turned 18 yesterday and its made me oddly reflective not in a particularly positive or moral sense but about what ive been doing the past years of my life and its truly all come down to looks reputation and social position. Now sure this is relatively natural for humans but i feel like people around me have lived much different lives and have had much different experiences purely because they never discovered this shit, sure i may be grey here but ive been lurking for ages and its truly rotted my brain and i care about it too much, like way too much way way too much

Don't get me wrong, i may sound very retarded with what im gonna say in this post but i don't share any of this irl nobody i know can know nor will they ever find out how much i care about this stuff

initially i started worrying about my looks due to social issues i had at the age of 13 (bullying being outcasted etc) now can i blame the people for bullying me? absolutely not in fact id do the same i was fat ugly and weird, tho i cant say id want to go through it again its what made me want to change, what really changed my view on life and ultimately made me arrive at the BP is the difference in treatment that i received from girls when i started looking half decent now again i dont blame them at all people who think girls should pay for shunning those who are bad looking and different are fucking retards thats how its always been and thats how i am too its how theyre genetically coded i would say, everyone started to talk to me more i got a girlfriend that i eventually got bored of and broke up with and my social life as a whole completely turned around which was refreshing at the time. However, i feel like ive moved way past the purpose of many of the people on this forum who may genuinely want to live a better life or get girls to sleep with them, as i stand right now, even though its taken effort to get to where i am from where i started i have no problems interacting with people/girls irl and i look plenty good enough to fuck whenever i want (perhaps not whoever i want but i have standards and thats just how it goes). That being said i no longer care about improving for that purpose getting girls is overrated and sure its fun as fuck but it gets boring theres only so much you can do.

So far ive only made 1 post here specific to my surgery and procedure plans that ive put together and the response i got as a whole was that while i can change this and that i shouldnt worry as much as i am and that im good looking enough to move on with my life and heres where my main point of my vent comes to. i dont want to just live life i dont want to just look good enough to meet people and socialise i want to turn heads, more than that i want people to envy me for how i look and i want to make people feel bad about themselves just looking at me. Dont get me wrong again im not like those autists who will put people down directly or hurt people, not because i think im trying to be morally right or make up for my immorality in another sense i simply dont want the negative attention it brings i want to be admired the way people are online or irl simply for their looks.

i dont think i envy anyone as much as those who look good, not millionaires not philanthropists simply those who got a little lucky at birth i envy them for the attention they get.

All that being said im not a retard, i know my MTN (maybe HMTN at best) base only has so many changes that can be done to it to ascend me ultimately genetics are brutal and theres nothing any of us can do about it i dont expect to ascend to the levels of chads but i can and will do everything to reach my peak i will hit that point of getting everyones attention simply strolling down the street one way or another, il inject anything, il have anything remodelled. it will happen.


Read this or dont i had to get it out somewhere as nobody irl is finding out about it, i thank anyone who viewed

Ok

 

[BigBallsLarry]

read

hardmaxx and become chad stop crying about "muh life is shit" when you say you can fuck and socialize normally

i have no problems interacting with people/girls irl and i look plenty good enough to fuck whenever i want (perhaps not whoever i want but i have standards and thats just how it goes). That being said i no longer care about improving for that purpose getting girls is overrated and sure its fun as fuck but it gets boring theres only so much you can do.

actually low iq essay, this forum isn't for you

 

[phangi]

same bro. watch my last thread

 

[amp]

So i turned 18 yesterday and its made me oddly reflective not in a particularly positive or moral sense but about what ive been doing the past years of my life and its truly all come down to looks reputation and social position. Now sure this is relatively natural for humans but i feel like people around me have lived much different lives and have had much different experiences purely because they never discovered this shit, sure i may be grey here but ive been lurking for ages and its truly rotted my brain and i care about it too much, like way too much way way too much

Don't get me wrong, i may sound very retarded with what im gonna say in this post but i don't share any of this irl nobody i know can know nor will they ever find out how much i care about this stuff

initially i started worrying about my looks due to social issues i had at the age of 13 (bullying being outcasted etc) now can i blame the people for bullying me? absolutely not in fact id do the same i was fat ugly and weird, tho i cant say id want to go through it again its what made me want to change, what really changed my view on life and ultimately made me arrive at the BP is the difference in treatment that i received from girls when i started looking half decent now again i dont blame them at all people who think girls should pay for shunning those who are bad looking and different are fucking retards thats how its always been and thats how i am too its how theyre genetically coded i would say, everyone started to talk to me more i got a girlfriend that i eventually got bored of and broke up with and my social life as a whole completely turned around which was refreshing at the time. However, i feel like ive moved way past the purpose of many of the people on this forum who may genuinely want to live a better life or get girls to sleep with them, as i stand right now, even though its taken effort to get to where i am from where i started i have no problems interacting with people/girls irl and i look plenty good enough to fuck whenever i want (perhaps not whoever i want but i have standards and thats just how it goes). That being said i no longer care about improving for that purpose getting girls is overrated and sure its fun as fuck but it gets boring theres only so much you can do.

So far ive only made 1 post here specific to my surgery and procedure plans that ive put together and the response i got as a whole was that while i can change this and that i shouldnt worry as much as i am and that im good looking enough to move on with my life and heres where my main point of my vent comes to. i dont want to just live life i dont want to just look good enough to meet people and socialise i want to turn heads, more than that i want people to envy me for how i look and i want to make people feel bad about themselves just looking at me. Dont get me wrong again im not like those autists who will put people down directly or hurt people, not because i think im trying to be morally right or make up for my immorality in another sense i simply dont want the negative attention it brings i want to be admired the way people are online or irl simply for their looks.

i dont think i envy anyone as much as those who look good, not millionaires not philanthropists simply those who got a little lucky at birth i envy them for the attention they get.

All that being said im not a retard, i know my MTN (maybe HMTN at best) base only has so many changes that can be done to it to ascend me ultimately genetics are brutal and theres nothing any of us can do about it i dont expect to ascend to the levels of chads but i can and will do everything to reach my peak i will hit that point of getting everyones attention simply strolling down the street one way or another, il inject anything, il have anything remodelled. it will happen.


Read this or dont i had to get it out somewhere as nobody irl is finding out about it, i thank anyone who viewed

go outside

 

[amp]

so much shit you can do

 

[IMMO]

read

hardmaxx and become chad stop crying about "muh life is shit" when you say you can fuck and socialize normally

actually low iq essay, this forum isn't for you

Not once did i say muh life is shit nor did i imply that lol

 

[Restitutor Orbis]

DNR. Just accept BP as knowledge that will help you ascend. BP is a prophecy and looksmaxxing is a real life cheat code.

 

[IMMO]

go outside

like i said i go outside plenty i socialise plenty im just mentally not there

 

[phangi]

DNR. Just accept BP as knowledge that will help you ascend. BP is a prophecy and looksmaxxing is a real life cheat code.

bp is mental health ruiner if you don’t have basic near-good (high ltn - mtn) looks

 

[phangi]

like i said i go outside plenty i socialise plenty im just mentally not there

find friends

 

[IMMO]

i think people kinda misunderstood my social standing, i have plenty of good friends, and a couple extremely close friends as well as plenty of girls bro thats not my issue nor is going outside or socialising gonna change my current view and opinion this is just something i desire and cant get out of my mind as its the only thing i truly haven't experienced

 

[Restitutor Orbis]

i think people kinda misunderstood my social standing, i have plenty of good friends, and a couple extremely close friends as well as plenty of girls bro thats not my issue nor is going outside or socialising gonna change my current view and opinion this is just something i desire and cant get out of my mind as its the only thing i truly haven't experienced

The world is unjust. Sometimes, you get insulted, stolen from, betrayed or wrongly accused and absolutely nobody cares or will give you any pity for it (except if you are a women). That just also applies to looks. Gotta say, I feel for all the sub5 niggas out there who get laughed at and rejected for not looking good. I try to not be so vain, but you sometimes just can't help it

 

[IMMO]

The world is unjust. Sometimes, you get insulted, stolen from, betrayed or wrongly accused and absolutely nobody cares or will give you any pity for it (except if you are a women). That just also applies to looks. Gotta say, I feel for all the sub5 niggas out there who get laughed at and rejected for not looking good. I try to not be so vain, but you sometimes just can't help it

you genuinely cant help it and thats why you cant blame people for it. sure there are some good people who try their best not to judge but its in our nature, bp is genuinely law

 

[efidescontinuado]

So i turned 18 yesterday and its made me oddly reflective not in a particularly positive or moral sense but about what ive been doing the past years of my life and its truly all come down to looks reputation and social position. Now sure this is relatively natural for humans but i feel like people around me have lived much different lives and have had much different experiences purely because they never discovered this shit, sure i may be grey here but ive been lurking for ages and its truly rotted my brain and i care about it too much, like way too much way way too much

Don't get me wrong, i may sound very retarded with what im gonna say in this post but i don't share any of this irl nobody i know can know nor will they ever find out how much i care about this stuff

initially i started worrying about my looks due to social issues i had at the age of 13 (bullying being outcasted etc) now can i blame the people for bullying me? absolutely not in fact id do the same i was fat ugly and weird, tho i cant say id want to go through it again its what made me want to change, what really changed my view on life and ultimately made me arrive at the BP is the difference in treatment that i received from girls when i started looking half decent now again i dont blame them at all people who think girls should pay for shunning those who are bad looking and different are fucking retards thats how its always been and thats how i am too its how theyre genetically coded i would say, everyone started to talk to me more i got a girlfriend that i eventually got bored of and broke up with and my social life as a whole completely turned around which was refreshing at the time. However, i feel like ive moved way past the purpose of many of the people on this forum who may genuinely want to live a better life or get girls to sleep with them, as i stand right now, even though its taken effort to get to where i am from where i started i have no problems interacting with people/girls irl and i look plenty good enough to fuck whenever i want (perhaps not whoever i want but i have standards and thats just how it goes). That being said i no longer care about improving for that purpose getting girls is overrated and sure its fun as fuck but it gets boring theres only so much you can do.

So far ive only made 1 post here specific to my surgery and procedure plans that ive put together and the response i got as a whole was that while i can change this and that i shouldnt worry as much as i am and that im good looking enough to move on with my life and heres where my main point of my vent comes to. i dont want to just live life i dont want to just look good enough to meet people and socialise i want to turn heads, more than that i want people to envy me for how i look and i want to make people feel bad about themselves just looking at me. Dont get me wrong again im not like those autists who will put people down directly or hurt people, not because i think im trying to be morally right or make up for my immorality in another sense i simply dont want the negative attention it brings i want to be admired the way people are online or irl simply for their looks.

i dont think i envy anyone as much as those who look good, not millionaires not philanthropists simply those who got a little lucky at birth i envy them for the attention they get.

All that being said im not a retard, i know my MTN (maybe HMTN at best) base only has so many changes that can be done to it to ascend me ultimately genetics are brutal and theres nothing any of us can do about it i dont expect to ascend to the levels of chads but i can and will do everything to reach my peak i will hit that point of getting everyones attention simply strolling down the street one way or another, il inject anything, il have anything remodelled. it will happen.


Read this or dont i had to get it out somewhere as nobody irl is finding out about it, i thank anyone who viewed

Keep writing essays stupid greycel

 

[elNoire]

DNR

 

[ilovefent]

So i turned 18 yesterday and its made me oddly reflective not in a particularly positive or moral sense but about what ive been doing the past years of my life and its truly all come down to looks reputation and social position. Now sure this is relatively natural for humans but i feel like people around me have lived much different lives and have had much different experiences purely because they never discovered this shit, sure i may be grey here but ive been lurking for ages and its truly rotted my brain and i care about it too much, like way too much way way too much

Don't get me wrong, i may sound very retarded with what im gonna say in this post but i don't share any of this irl nobody i know can know nor will they ever find out how much i care about this stuff

initially i started worrying about my looks due to social issues i had at the age of 13 (bullying being outcasted etc) now can i blame the people for bullying me? absolutely not in fact id do the same i was fat ugly and weird, tho i cant say id want to go through it again its what made me want to change, what really changed my view on life and ultimately made me arrive at the BP is the difference in treatment that i received from girls when i started looking half decent now again i dont blame them at all people who think girls should pay for shunning those who are bad looking and different are fucking retards thats how its always been and thats how i am too its how theyre genetically coded i would say, everyone started to talk to me more i got a girlfriend that i eventually got bored of and broke up with and my social life as a whole completely turned around which was refreshing at the time. However, i feel like ive moved way past the purpose of many of the people on this forum who may genuinely want to live a better life or get girls to sleep with them, as i stand right now, even though its taken effort to get to where i am from where i started i have no problems interacting with people/girls irl and i look plenty good enough to fuck whenever i want (perhaps not whoever i want but i have standards and thats just how it goes). That being said i no longer care about improving for that purpose getting girls is overrated and sure its fun as fuck but it gets boring theres only so much you can do.

So far ive only made 1 post here specific to my surgery and procedure plans that ive put together and the response i got as a whole was that while i can change this and that i shouldnt worry as much as i am and that im good looking enough to move on with my life and heres where my main point of my vent comes to. i dont want to just live life i dont want to just look good enough to meet people and socialise i want to turn heads, more than that i want people to envy me for how i look and i want to make people feel bad about themselves just looking at me. Dont get me wrong again im not like those autists who will put people down directly or hurt people, not because i think im trying to be morally right or make up for my immorality in another sense i simply dont want the negative attention it brings i want to be admired the way people are online or irl simply for their looks.

i dont think i envy anyone as much as those who look good, not millionaires not philanthropists simply those who got a little lucky at birth i envy them for the attention they get.

All that being said im not a retard, i know my MTN (maybe HMTN at best) base only has so many changes that can be done to it to ascend me ultimately genetics are brutal and theres nothing any of us can do about it i dont expect to ascend to the levels of chads but i can and will do everything to reach my peak i will hit that point of getting everyones attention simply strolling down the street one way or another, il inject anything, il have anything remodelled. it will happen.


Read this or dont i had to get it out somewhere as nobody irl is finding out about it, i thank anyone who viewed

Happy birthday

 

[IMMO]

Keep writing essays stupid greycel

hehe my 1 and only