Life has subconsciously conditioned me to give up on trying

[Prøphet]

Because my face was never up to par

Putting any effort into anything felt pointless because it was, I failed at most things I tried at because of my face and so I learned to just ignore the things I want instead of making a fool of myself going out and pursuing them

The irony is this inaction and depression makes me an even bigger fool

 

[Prøphet]

my family, “friends”, and most of all, my self showed me so much of what I couldn’t rather than what I could, because in reality there was very little I could do

 

[Prøphet]

So basically life has taught me to be a loser, because I am one, it’s a cycle that has me chained up and the only way for me to truly live is to escape it

 

[thepathsdontremembe]

Because my face was never up to par

Putting any effort into anything felt pointless because it was, I failed at most things I tried at because of my face and so I learned to just ignore the things I want instead of making a fool of myself going out and pursuing them

The irony is this inaction and depression makes me an even bigger fool

get surgery

 

[registerfasterusing]

Because my face was never up to par

Putting any effort into anything felt pointless because it was, I failed at most things I tried at because of my face and so I learned to just ignore the things I want instead of making a fool of myself going out and pursuing them

The irony is this inaction and depression makes me an even bigger fool

Consequences of gay race communism

 

[Prøphet]

This isolation and repetitive grief of giving up cannot be called life, I’m waiting for something to happen but it’s me who has to make things happen

 

[202]

based

 

[Prøphet]

get surgery

Easier said than done, but my first surgery to fix my lazy eye is happening soon, I have the consult for it soon; I’m preparing myself to not pussy out of something that scares me for once. If I pussy out of this it’s over, I must do and not think, lest I be sentenced to a subpar stone cold sub4 life

 

[Prøphet]

Seriously, if my conviction wavers and I can’t even go through with this first surgery, how will I be able to handle double jaw surgery? I need to be strong

 

[thepathsdontremembe]

Easier said than done, but my first surgery to fix my lazy eye is happening soon, I have the consult for it soon; I’m preparing myself to not pussy out of something that scares me for once. If I pussy out of this it’s over, I must do and not think, lest I be sentenced to a subpar stone cold sub4 life

lazy surgery success rate is high so good

 

[Prøphet]

lazy surgery success rate is high so good

Mine is 60% success rate which isn’t so great. Decent chance I might need another surgery or 2 afterwards just to fix the strabismus. Or if there’s too much scar tissue they won’t be able to reoperate and it’ll be truly over. Fuck man it scares the shit out of me, surgeons going in my eye sockets, but the alternative scares me even more: Continuing to live like this

 

[thepathsdontremembe]

Mine is 60% success rate which isn’t so great. Decent chance I might need another surgery or 2 afterwards just to fix the strabismus. Or if there’s too much scar tissue they won’t be able to reoperate and it’ll be truly over. Fuck man it scares the shit out of me, surgeons going in my eye sockets, but the alternative scares me even more: Continuing to live like this

if you get it
what rating category would you be?

 

[TopTierIncel42]

Mine is 60% success rate which isn’t so great. Decent chance I might need another surgery or 2 afterwards just to fix the strabismus. Or if there’s too much scar tissue they won’t be able to reoperate and it’ll be truly over. Fuck man it scares the shit out of me, surgeons going in my eye sockets, but the alternative scares me even more: Continuing to live like this

its better to live like a chad

 

[Prøphet]

if you get it
what rating category would you be?

The lazy eye surgery would probably take me from 3/10 to 4/10

If I get through that I plan fat grafting + trimax for 6.5/10+

And possibly periorbital implants

 

[TopTierIncel42]

nigga how much money you got

 

[Prøphet]

its better to live like a chad

Exactly, I think it’s time to finally give something my all and commit to ascending at all costs no matter what, I fucking hate my subhuman life this shit is ass

 

[Prøphet]

nigga how much money you got

My family is paying for my lazy eye surgery, after that I’m spending all my money on a car and start wage slaving for a year or 2, then off to turkey. Of course this is all if I don’t pussy out

 

[Idec]

Sometimes in life you just got to bitch out

 

[Prøphet]

Sometimes in life you just got to bitch out

Fuck that, I think I need to take a risk on myself because it can’t be that much worse

 

[TopTierIncel42]

you dont have insurance

 

[Prøphet]

you dont have insurance

No

It would help for the lazy eye surgery but if I got bimax under insurance it probably wouldn’t be that good, I need lots of movement for a good aesthetic not just a couple millimeters

 

[Idec]

Fuck that, I think I need to take a risk on myself because it can’t be that much worse

then do that

 

[thepathsdontremembe]

The lazy eye surgery would probably take me from 3/10 to 4/10

If I get through that I plan fat grafting + trimax for 6.5/10+

And possibly periorbital implants

go for it
im also gonna save for my rihno from now on
my nose cucks me bad