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chasing vanity, most humans on earth are doing nothing but waiting for the next dopamine hit. i can't stand reality. sometimes i wish i was ugly – it would suck, and my life would be trash all the same, but then i could gaslight myself into believing it's because of my appearance. i numb myself trying to escape nihilism, but you simply can't unsee what life is really about. it's nothing. smart individuals created religions because they figured out how pathetic the conscious experience is by default.
"if i become a chad, world-famous multimillionaire, life will finally be good to live and i'll be happy!"
drug abuse and suicide.
"once i get attention and everyone sees me, i'll be happy. i'm lonely because i don't have [insert anything here]."
"this is because we are men, women live life on easy mode and therefore they are happy!"
was used by the media as a sex symbol, ended up extremely rich, became the most famous woman of her time, abused drugs for more than a decade, and ended her own life during her mid-30s.
growing up in a healthy environment, while being a slightly above-average kid (in looks and academics), creating good lifelong friendships, and not skipping steps in my development – hitting all social milestones at normal ages – made my experience in this life more agonizing, because i simply have nothing to put the blame on. i wish i could actually believe that fucking more random whores or driving a lambo will magically fix the way i perceive life.
"if i become a chad, world-famous multimillionaire, life will finally be good to live and i'll be happy!"
drug abuse and suicide.
"once i get attention and everyone sees me, i'll be happy. i'm lonely because i don't have [insert anything here]."
"this is because we are men, women live life on easy mode and therefore they are happy!"
was used by the media as a sex symbol, ended up extremely rich, became the most famous woman of her time, abused drugs for more than a decade, and ended her own life during her mid-30s.
growing up in a healthy environment, while being a slightly above-average kid (in looks and academics), creating good lifelong friendships, and not skipping steps in my development – hitting all social milestones at normal ages – made my experience in this life more agonizing, because i simply have nothing to put the blame on. i wish i could actually believe that fucking more random whores or driving a lambo will magically fix the way i perceive life.
