Deleted member 39
The Inferior
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I'm depressed atm. Life just starts to suck. I gave up on my dreams and goals (becoming successful and good looking) because it's simply not possible. We are 8 billion people, at least half of them have better genes than me. I for sure won't be a snowflake in the system. I realize this every day. I'm too dumb/low IQ to do an almost fully automated factory job right.
Some people in school made me feel smart by telling me about how they see me in the future. There's no future for me. My only purpose in life is to be a slave, and even the slave owners don't want me because I'm too useless.
When I wasn't an adult I really thought I was special. I always noticed my family really wasn't smart (still love them). So how the fuck did I come to the conclusion that I would be smart? Naive me.
I'm pretty depressed atm. I try to learn stuff but I see no point in it anymore. My brain feels dead. My body feels dead. I'm losing my first tooth at age 20. I don't see a point anymore, man.
When I first got to stay around adult people for long hours I just realized how fucking stupid I am. I'm 20. I don't know how cars work, I couldn't name their components. I know nothing about technical stuff, bought books to learn it but I'm too depressed to read books. I am dumb, I know nothing. I struggle adding simple numbers together.
I just watched a documentary about the corona virus and how families deal with it. The kids who were interviewed were so eloquent, could speak flawlessly and fluently, meanwhile I can't create sentences that sound eloquent. I can't even speak up, I always mumble, sometimes I stutter. No intonation. I'm a zombie who's just existing with his dead rotten brain.
right now I feel like I start to like getting older. I start to like the feeling that I'll be a dead rotting wageslave NPC who'll see teenagers LIVE and I won't even be jealous. It's the only thing I deserve. A subhuman like me doesn't deserve anything. I must die without leaving a mark on this earth. If I ever get kids, I'm an immoral evil asshole.
I dated a girl, it went well. She likes me. But I can't deal with being liked. It feels wrong. I will never understand how an ugly, dumb, useless subhuman could be liked.
I wish I could cry but I can't. I'm just fucking dead in my brain.
Some people in school made me feel smart by telling me about how they see me in the future. There's no future for me. My only purpose in life is to be a slave, and even the slave owners don't want me because I'm too useless.
When I wasn't an adult I really thought I was special. I always noticed my family really wasn't smart (still love them). So how the fuck did I come to the conclusion that I would be smart? Naive me.
I'm pretty depressed atm. I try to learn stuff but I see no point in it anymore. My brain feels dead. My body feels dead. I'm losing my first tooth at age 20. I don't see a point anymore, man.
When I first got to stay around adult people for long hours I just realized how fucking stupid I am. I'm 20. I don't know how cars work, I couldn't name their components. I know nothing about technical stuff, bought books to learn it but I'm too depressed to read books. I am dumb, I know nothing. I struggle adding simple numbers together.
I just watched a documentary about the corona virus and how families deal with it. The kids who were interviewed were so eloquent, could speak flawlessly and fluently, meanwhile I can't create sentences that sound eloquent. I can't even speak up, I always mumble, sometimes I stutter. No intonation. I'm a zombie who's just existing with his dead rotten brain.
right now I feel like I start to like getting older. I start to like the feeling that I'll be a dead rotting wageslave NPC who'll see teenagers LIVE and I won't even be jealous. It's the only thing I deserve. A subhuman like me doesn't deserve anything. I must die without leaving a mark on this earth. If I ever get kids, I'm an immoral evil asshole.
I dated a girl, it went well. She likes me. But I can't deal with being liked. It feels wrong. I will never understand how an ugly, dumb, useless subhuman could be liked.
I wish I could cry but I can't. I'm just fucking dead in my brain.
