soapbubble
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I'm currently in the process of trying to secure a job as a lifeguard. I already have the credentials, given that I took the course and passed the test around a month ago.
This Wednesday is my last day of school. Afterwards, I'm going to start working ASAP and secure money to looksmax and buy better clothes for when school comes. I'm desperate enough atp that I'm just sending the packages straight to the house and trying to intercept them before my parents get there. It worked for oral minoxidil, which I smuggled into my house for the second time despite my parents finding the package the first and throwing a fit. I'm planning to buy PDO threads and possibly mt2, though I might not need the latter seeing as I'll likely be working a job outside.
I've just been sleeping and rotting on social media for the past few months. Mostly, I've just been watching TikTok thirst edits of both men and women, though my relationship with these edits is closer to envy and obsession than any actual excitement or arousal, which is weird. They've made me obsessed with facial aesthetics to the point that it's all I think about. Thinking about faces has been my baseline state even during the month-long self-ban I did in May. I'm not particularly happy about my face right now, but being depressed about it is actually somewhat comforting in a way that I can't really explain. Back in January and February, the depression was enough that I became a disgusting troll--I stopped showering and changing clothes for days on end, started brushing teeth in the morning at school during classes rather than at home, and my grades dropped. It's manageable now--the month-long self-ban helped a lot, seeing as I'm actually maintaining a regular standard for hygiene, but my head still feels extremely cloudy and I live in a state where I'm constantly disgusted by myself and wishing I was someone better. I genuinely haven't masturbated in a month because of this, I can't bring myself to get hard and cum to any porn videos.
I say this with full effort in avoiding being biased or delusional, but my base isn't terrible. My smile has buccal corridors and I have an overbite that's currently being corrected but my teeth/smile area is fine overall. My facial harmony could be better fs but is solid and will get improve with the PDO threads (I'll be primarily targeting my mouth width but will also try using it to tighten the skin around the face a little, though idk what kind of results to expect). I'm expecting oral minoxidil gains as well, but that'll obviously take a while. I'm also looking into DIYing botox for my nose so it doesn't flare out when I smile, but it's not really a huge issue, especially in motion, and I'll likely seek out a clinic once I'm 18 instead of risking botching myself. If I don't look noticeably better by the end of summer I'll genuinely be disappointed af.
This Wednesday is my last day of school. Afterwards, I'm going to start working ASAP and secure money to looksmax and buy better clothes for when school comes. I'm desperate enough atp that I'm just sending the packages straight to the house and trying to intercept them before my parents get there. It worked for oral minoxidil, which I smuggled into my house for the second time despite my parents finding the package the first and throwing a fit. I'm planning to buy PDO threads and possibly mt2, though I might not need the latter seeing as I'll likely be working a job outside.
I've just been sleeping and rotting on social media for the past few months. Mostly, I've just been watching TikTok thirst edits of both men and women, though my relationship with these edits is closer to envy and obsession than any actual excitement or arousal, which is weird. They've made me obsessed with facial aesthetics to the point that it's all I think about. Thinking about faces has been my baseline state even during the month-long self-ban I did in May. I'm not particularly happy about my face right now, but being depressed about it is actually somewhat comforting in a way that I can't really explain. Back in January and February, the depression was enough that I became a disgusting troll--I stopped showering and changing clothes for days on end, started brushing teeth in the morning at school during classes rather than at home, and my grades dropped. It's manageable now--the month-long self-ban helped a lot, seeing as I'm actually maintaining a regular standard for hygiene, but my head still feels extremely cloudy and I live in a state where I'm constantly disgusted by myself and wishing I was someone better. I genuinely haven't masturbated in a month because of this, I can't bring myself to get hard and cum to any porn videos.
I say this with full effort in avoiding being biased or delusional, but my base isn't terrible. My smile has buccal corridors and I have an overbite that's currently being corrected but my teeth/smile area is fine overall. My facial harmony could be better fs but is solid and will get improve with the PDO threads (I'll be primarily targeting my mouth width but will also try using it to tighten the skin around the face a little, though idk what kind of results to expect). I'm expecting oral minoxidil gains as well, but that'll obviously take a while. I'm also looking into DIYing botox for my nose so it doesn't flare out when I smile, but it's not really a huge issue, especially in motion, and I'll likely seek out a clinic once I'm 18 instead of risking botching myself. If I don't look noticeably better by the end of summer I'll genuinely be disappointed af.
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