Living life on 1hp at 23 years old… don’t know how much longer I can do this

[carti19]

23 y/o. At my peak in uni I was CL — in a fraternity, social, felt like I had a future. Now I wake up every day on 1hp. Years of health decline: eyelids collapsing, cataract in one eye, vision fucked, facial tissue degrading. Constant fatigue, discomfort, and pain just existing. Can’t chew properly because of all those tmj strain. My jaw cracks so loud you can hear it across the room. Takes me hours in the morning just to get stable enough to sit in a chair.

This Friday I’ve got an OMFS consult at Mount Sinai. It feels like my last shot at surgery and some path forward before I’m permanently stuck LDAR.

I just want to feel light and energised just for one fucking day. Moral of the story don’t take your health for granted. If you’re able to looksmax or go to the gym you’re lucky. Even just being able to go out and get rejected is something. If you don’t hear from me after Friday it’s because once again doctors couldn’t help me. And if that happens im just going to give up. Rope > living in constant discomfort.

 

[BeanCelll]

Accident?

 

[crazyguy]

23 y/o. At my peak in uni I was CL — in a fraternity, social, felt like I had a future. Now I wake up every day on 1hp. Years of health decline: eyelids collapsing, cataract in one eye, vision fucked, facial tissue degrading. Constant fatigue, discomfort, and pain just existing. Can’t chew properly because of all those tmj strain. My jaw cracks so loud you can hear it across the room. Takes me hours in the morning just to get stable enough to sit in a chair.

This Friday I’ve got an OMFS consult at Mount Sinai. It feels like my last shot at surgery and some path forward before I’m permanently stuck LDAR.

I just want to feel light and energised just for one fucking day. Moral of the story don’t take your health for granted. If you’re able to looksmax or go to the gym you’re lucky. Even just being able to go out and get rejected is something. If you don’t hear from me after Friday it’s because once again doctors couldn’t help me. And if that happens im just going to give up. Rope > living in constant discomfort.

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[carti19]

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Accident?

No i have lived a life of constant stress, not saying my life is bad or anything but just my environment plus my natural disposition stuff slowly started to decline I thought it was my skin at first so I shaved my head and shit and that didn’t help I’m waiting on a sleep study cuz when I wake up my eyes are like sealed shut I also sleep with my eyes open they don’t close properly I don’t know it’s a lot to explain lmao

 

[crazyguy]

No i have lived a life of constant stress, not saying my life is bad or anything but just my environment plus my natural disposition stuff slowly started to decline I thought it was my skin at first so I shaved my head and shit and that didn’t help I’m waiting on a sleep study cuz when I wake up my eyes are like sealed shut I also sleep with my eyes open they don’t close properly I don’t know it’s a lot to explain lmao

whats your diet?

 

[pope]

No i have lived a life of constant stress, not saying my life is bad or anything but just my environment plus my natural disposition stuff slowly started to decline I thought it was my skin at first so I shaved my head and shit and that didn’t help I’m waiting on a sleep study cuz when I wake up my eyes are like sealed shut I also sleep with my eyes open they don’t close properly I don’t know it’s a lot to explain lmao

Same, this year alone fucking destroyed me

 

[carti19]

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I promise I have good hygiene there’s nothing I can do it’s floppy lid syndrome

 

[carti19]

whats your diet?

I’m a picky eater just chicken and beef and cheese and vegetables and fruit basically don’t really eat snacks. Brother I’ve seen every specialist there is I don’t think the issue is internal but structural

 

[Soter]

I promise I have good hygiene there’s nothing I can do it’s floppy lid syndrome

wtf bro why your eye looks like pussy

 

[crazyguy]

I’m a picky eater just chicken and beef and cheese and vegetables and fruit basically don’t really eat snacks. Brother I’ve seen every specialist there is I don’t think the issue is internal but structural

get on the natural diet.

 

[carti19]

wtf bro why your eye looks like pussy

Because it’s fucked up lol I’m waiting to get my airway fixed to fix my sleep apnea which is causing the eyes to be all fucked up (FES) and then I can get a canthoplasty and lid tightening and finally once that’s healed I can get my cataract fixed and see again

 

[carti19]

get on the natural diet.

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[Bryce]

You're a bit older than me and you're using an avi which looks like it would be used by a 9th grader. Using those emotes as well. Grow up.

 

[Soter]

Because it’s fucked up lol I’m waiting to get my airway fixed to fix my sleep apnea which is causing the eyes to be all fucked up (FES) and then I can get a canthoplasty and lid tightening and finally once that’s healed I can get my cataract fixed and see again

wish you luck and good health brudda

 

[crazyguy]

Name checks out

youre fatigued, youve got low energy.
the natural diet will fix this and make you feel light and energised.

 

[Slayfer]

My looks went downhill after my sophomore year(sort-of) due to mental stuff, I'm climbing back up though.

 

[carti19]

You're a bit older than me and you're using an avi which looks like it would be used by a 9th grader. Using those emotes as well. Grow up.

I promise it’s not that deep it’s almost ironic you say that because if you were actually mature you wouldn’t be so quick to judge other people lmao

 

[TenZi]

Multiply cases of clutching at 1HP

 

[Bryce]

I promise it’s not that deep it’s almost ironic you say that because if you were actually mature you wouldn’t be so quick to judge other people lmao

How is better judgement a sign of immaturity? If anything it's the opposite.

 

[carti19]

How is better judgement a sign of immaturity? If anything it's the opposite.

When did I say judgement in itself was a sign of immaturity? My point was judging someone’s character based off of a pfp and emojis seems a bit preemptive don’t you think?

 

[carti19]

wish you luck and good health brudda

Thank you, likewise

 

[Bryce]

When did I say judgement in itself was a sign of immaturity? My point was judging someone’s character based off of a pfp and emojis seems a bit preemptive don’t you think?

Not at all. That's like saying judging someone's character of their looks is wrong. How you look determines your personality because of how you've been shaped by the treatment of others. Your online persona will reflect your personality/give a rough outline of who you are, and 9/10 it's 100% accurate.

 

[Gonthar]

 

[carti19]

Not at all. That's like saying judging someone's character of their looks is wrong. How you look determines your personality because of how you've been shaped by the treatment of others. Your online persona will reflect your personality/give a rough outline of who you are, and 9/10 it's 100% accurate.

That’s a false equivalence buddy. Judging someone’s face when you meet them is unavoidable — it’s real life input. Judging someone’s pfp choice and emojis like it’s the an objective definition of their character is just you reaching. Online presentation is filtered, ironic, half-performance. 9/10 accuracy? Come on bruv, that’s deadass just more preemptive assumptions dressed up as “insight.”

 

[Bryce]

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I'm not gonna argue with someone who uses ChatGPT to generate their comebacks for them.

 

[5'7" 3/4s]

Not at all. That's like saying judging someone's character of their looks is wrong. How you look determines your personality because of how you've been shaped by the treatment of others. Your online persona will reflect your personality/give a rough outline of who you are, and 9/10 it's 100% accurate.

just let him be bro

youre saying hes acting childish, i guarantee u once ur his age some yn is gonna say the same shit about u and the things ur interested in

 

[Bryce]

just let him be bro

youre saying hes acting childish, i guarantee u once ur his age some yn is gonna say the same shit about u and the things ur interested in

I disagree, I'm younger than him and act more mature. How could I mentally regress and start liking childish things? Lol.

 

[carti19]

I'm not gonna argue with someone who uses ChatGPT to generate their comebacks for them.

was never an argument. You came out of left field insulting me for no reason in an attempt to make yourself feel superior. I’m simply pointing out how retarded you are. Also an em dash is very useful in writing I’m sure you understood just fine what I was saying because I used ai to make it more concise. Also to save me some time from having to formulate a rebuttal to your idiotic take(s). This one’s not AI and also slap dick buddy you’re weird as fuck. If you’re so smart how come you never learned any humility lol. I promise you putting others down for no reason is not going to get you far in life

 

[Bryce]

was never an argument. You came out of left field insulting me for no reason in an attempt to make yourself feel superior. I’m simply pointing out how retarded you are. Also an em dash is very useful in writing I’m sure you understood just fine what I was saying because I used ai to make it more concise. Also to save me some time from having to formulate a rebuttal to your idiotic take(s). This one’s not AI and also slap dick buddy you’re weird as fuck. If you’re so smart how come you never learned any humility lol. I promise you putting others down for no reason is not going to get you far in life

Yeah yeah yeah sure you just wanted to "refine" it with AI, definitely not because it carried your ass.

What the fuck are you talking about? Getting far in life? Welcome to the internet dickbrain, anything goes.

 

[5'7" 3/4s]

I disagree, I'm younger than him and act more mature. How could I mentally regress and start liking childish things? Lol.

brodie its not mental regression just because youre into memes and playboi carti jfl

its mental regression if these things completely consume your life(because only a child has time for that)

 

[carti19]

Yeah yeah yeah sure you just wanted to "refine" it with AI, definitely not because it carried your ass.

What the fuck are you talking about? Getting far in life? Welcome to the internet dickbrain, anything goes.

I thought your online persona was 9/10 accurate reflection of someone’s character? Using your own logic, irl you’re insufferable. The only reason you tried to put me down in the first place was to make yourself feel superior. I promise you other people can see that and will not want to be around you or work with you. Hence not going far in life. If you’re going to be a narcissistic pos at least be more subtle

 

[carti19]

brodie its not mental regression just because youre into memes and playboi carti jfl

its mental regression if these things completely consume your life(because only a child has time for that)

My name is carter and my nickname is carti lol

 

[Tachyon]

was never an argument. You came out of left field insulting me for no reason in an attempt to make yourself feel superior. I’m simply pointing out how retarded you are. Also an em dash is very useful in writing I’m sure you understood just fine what I was saying because I used ai to make it more concise. Also to save me some time from having to formulate a rebuttal to your idiotic take(s). This one’s not AI and also slap dick buddy you’re weird as fuck. If you’re so smart how come you never learned any humility lol. I promise you putting others down for no reason is not going to get you far in life

You're a manchild

 

[Bryce]

I thought your online persona was 9/10 accurate reflection of someone’s character? Using your own logic, irl you’re insufferable.

I think there is a misunderstanding in what I said. I was saying someone's online persona like their writing style, display picture, username, etc. is reflective of their full character online. 99% of us are completely different in real life.

 

[carti19]

I think there is a misunderstanding in what I said. I was saying someone's online persona like their writing style, display picture, username, etc. is reflective of their full character online. 99% of us are completely different in real life.

you quite literally just conceded your original argument with that statement

 

[5'7" 3/4s]

I don't understand why you're getting so much hate when you're going through such a shitty situation in regards to your health.

I hope you feel better man seriously, and I hope that consultation goes well. You're in my prayers.

 

[Iblamehades]

I promise I have good hygiene there’s nothing I can do it’s floppy lid syndrome

ur eye looks like a vagina

 

[carti19]

I don't understand why you're getting so much hate when you're going through such a shitty situation in regards to your health.

I hope you feel better man seriously, and I hope that consultation goes well. You're in my prayers.

Thanks dude you seem like a great guy I hope good things happen to you

 

[Bryce]

I don't understand why you're getting so much hate when you're going through such a shitty situation in regards to your health.

I hope you feel better man seriously, and I hope that consultation goes well. You're in my prayers.

Because it's attention seeking internet behavior and his online persona is contradictory to the severity of what he claims are his circumstances. People are the verge of actually roping don't mope about it online, they're too depressed to even call their mom back.

 

[5'7" 3/4s]

Because it's attention seeking internet behavior and his online persona is contradictory to the severity of what he claims are his circumstances. People are the verge of actually roping don't mope about it online, they're too depressed to even call their mom back.

idk man to me it just seems as if youre trying to psychoanalyze him through information that is hardly representative as to who he probably is as a person

ik im being extremely ironic rn, because my avi + user + bio+ literally describe me irl, but honestly even these things are only small pieces of who i am, and dont reflect me in totality as an individual.

shit people make venting threads here all the time, i dont ever consider roping, but it seems natural that someone with no support system would come to a place like this instead, if thats his circumstance.

 

[carti19]

Because it's attention seeking internet behavior and his online persona is contradictory to the severity of what he claims are his circumstances. People are the verge of actually roping don't mope about it online, they're too depressed to even call their mom back.

I don’t think you understand my situation. I don’t have the luxury to dwell on my emotions, I’m in constant discomfort. Vision loss, terrible sleep a ton of other symptoms I’m not going to mention atm. You think depression is the only reason people commit suicide? That’s naive. My point was I’ve seen countless doctors and am still in a health decline. Ive had a psychiatrist and therapist. Ive dealt with depression not so bad I’ve wanted to take my life but at least I was somewhat healthy during those bouts. I’m not looking for pity that wasn’t the point of the post either

 

[StraightHeadJames]

Try Law of Assumption i fixed my health issues with that I fixed my scoliosis with that too