Living scares the shit out of me

[iblamemandible7]

I've been thinking a lot lately about surgery and how it scares the shit out of me. It's my only chance at a better life, my only chance at being treated as a human being, I want it more than anything, and at the same time the thought of going through it scares me like nothing else. Then I realized I'm just scared of everything. I'm scared of life. I'm scared of doing the things that will make my experience better. Feels like I'm stuck now in the middle of what I want for myself.

I know what I need to do for myself but I can't bring myself to take the leap of faith and go through with my surgeries. Just like everything else in my life tbh

 

[LTNUser]

If you're unable to get past MTN then go for surgery