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Introduction
Im going to talk about how lookism became my everything and how it will most likely be the end of me
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Chapter 1: Birth
I was born in the Netherlands. When i was born i couldnt have a vaginal birth so i was born through a C-section. While this happend i had a lack of oxygen flow to the brain which caused me heart failure resulting in CPR. As you might have concluded i survived it but rethinking about it maybe i shouldnt have. The reason im telling this is this most likely contributed to my retardness.
Chapter 2: School
As a young kid ive always been called attractive by old people. When i went to kindergarten i was always a loner ive been told. I always did my own thing and never had interest in other peoples activity. I was tested for autism but the result was negative. I also had done a iq test which came out at 126 (was undiagnosed but it could be a sign of aspergers).
After kindergarten primary school began. I have always had anger issues so i got into alot of fights (It didnt matter if you were a guy or girl id beat the fuck out of you). Later in primary school i got bullied and had really no friends because of these issues. I used to be the kid that left the class groupchat for attention. On valentines day my parents forced me to give all the girls a rose and my crush a ring (Brutually rejected ). That shit haunts me till this day. At the end of primary school i was known as the dirty kid no girl really liked and i didnt have any actual friends.
Now its time for middleschool/highschool. My 1st time my parents forced me to go with suit to introduction and needless to say i looked autistic as fuck. I talked to some people and that was it although i gave off the shy autistic vibe. I knew nobody in the school which was brutal for me cause i am already shy. I made friends in class by jestermaxxing and continued that at till my 2nd year (also i didnt get invited to hangout irl or anything so i was basically already a rotting truecel). When the 2nd year was over the classes had to split into 2 and my friendgroup did aswell. In the 3rd year a NT tall htn got in our class and everybody liked him even though he was a cunt (2nd subconsional introduction to blackpill 1st being the valentine). He hanged out with my friends but not with me as he found me a idiot because i was a jestermaxxed ltn. I continued being the class clown and everybody hated me including the teachers except for my 7 friends that i hanged out with outside of school maybe once every 3 months. I got alot of punishments from teachers and almost got suspended for 2 weeks for calling my teacher a dumb slut (based). I continued this till the 5th year and had a decent glowup going from ltn to mtn. I got treated more human and made some "closer" friends which were still restricted to highschool only. Basically i started having a little small talk with girls but nothing more than that. The most ive talked to a girl in my life was for 50 minutes and that was forced because we both had detention (she was a htb though and i managed to jestermaxx her into laughing with me but thats it). So basically that was all the action i got while some people were banging eachother and in one ocassion getting a partner pregnant i was rotting in my room gooning to degenerate fetishes that i wont go into (@ey88 not catching me today) . So basically i graduated and summer vacation came. I went to vacation with my school friends for 1 week and tbh it was the best week of my life. My 1st introduction to blackpill that wasnt subconcious was because i had rhinoplasty cause i had nose deformity (this happend in june of 2024). So no im not a tiktokcel nigger. Basically i ascended from mtn to htn and im growing better everyday. I noticed more IOI's from girls but never really bothered to do something with it and still dont. Im not used to it so i tend to ignore everyone plus im already fucked in the social aspect.
Chapter 3: College
this is where everything went downhill by a fucking shit ton. I kept into contact with only 1 friend from highschool which i maybe once every month go to the gym with. I have 0 other contacts besides that and this is my 1st real interaction the forum since ive only lurked because of rhinoplasty. This is when i officialy became a rotter. I spend most of my days lurking and sometimes post questions about simple stuff like diet, softmaxxing and hardmaxxing. Basically i had a good 1st impression off college and i was decently NT but once again i was ALL ALONE AND DIDNT KNOW ANYBODY AT ALL. I STARTED BEING INTROVERTED AGAIN AND PEOPLE STARTED TO HATE ON ME CAUSE THEYRE FAT FUCKING SUBHUMANS. LIKE THE LITTLE RATS THEY ARE THEY SWARMED ME AND INSULTED ME EVERYDAY TILL I HAD ENOUGH (shouldve gone ER tbh but i still have false hope for my future). Also there were only 3 girls in class and they all gave me good enough attention but after getting introverted i began to ignore them. Basically i quit college (i was 16 and they were all 20+, the world is cruel). After this i went to vacation for 2 months with my mother since she had to takecare of her mother cause she will get breast removal. These times were really calming for me since everyday i got alot of IOI's since i looked like one of them while also having stolen the dutch height genes + htn looks (Smv wise i was basically chadlite there since guys are ugly here and manlets while also having a lower% males to females% ratio). While this was happening i met a girl online. She is perfect for me: she is NT, Autistic humour like me (she makes rapes jokes ), a virgin, high mtb face with a stacylite body and overall literal wifey material cause she also cleans and cooks in her parents house. Basically we began e dating after we talked alot on/off camera. SHE wants to visit me in the summer which is a huge green flags cause it shows interest on her side. We also text couple stuff basically just cringe. All off this made me realise that i couldnt have achieved ANY if this if it wasnt for being blackpilled and ascending. How i look decides my day and my personality for the day (Its bpd but also not cause it isnt random but specifically when i look uglier than the day before).
Chapter 3: Currently
So im back to the Netherlands actively contrebuting nothing usefull on this forum rotting on off topic. The forum became my only form of social interaction along with blackpill servers like psl city except for the girl im talking to online (Og's like bgm are in there beefing 24/7). Basically im just working right now focused on a fucking brutal diet (Liver, cooked pig feet and some specific salads) and i also workout alot (since i was 14). overall my bodyfat% is 10 or below but i still have a chubby face jfl which i hope will go by as i age.
Basically i have achieved strong htn compared to the ltn i was in middle school (my base as a child was really good though). Nowadays the only thing i think about is ascending cause the only redeeming quality i have are my looks. I am planning my other hardmaxxes and hopefully ascend to chadlite facially by 20 (through agemaxxing and hardmaxxing. IM NOT touching drugs cause they are unpredictable). Im lazy and dont want to become a wage slave for the jews. So im just working, rotting, have my entire mental stability decides by how i look and by the girl im talking to which i am praying to meet in rl. So yeah im 17 and she is also 17. I will do a life update in the summer if i have the pleasure off meeting her (or it goes downhill again). I will probabely rope if i lose her or dont achieve cl cause im mentally fucked
TL;RD
I had cpr at birth making me slighty retarded probabely. I grew up as a fucking subhuman loser. I glew up after highschool cause of hardmaxxing at 16 and im now talking to a girl online (a gem for this generation) hoping to meet irl. Growing up like i did looks are everything to me and decides my daily mood and every though process that goes through my mind.
THREAD MEMES:
Rep farm:
@ey88 @moggerofhumanity @Thinking_CEL @2025cel @fashioncel @Methylphenidate @TiktokUser @HostSamurai @Monarchy @autistic_tendencies @JeanneDArcAlter
Im going to talk about how lookism became my everything and how it will most likely be the end of me
.Chapter 1: Birth
I was born in the Netherlands. When i was born i couldnt have a vaginal birth so i was born through a C-section
. While this happend i had a lack of oxygen flow to the brain which caused me heart failure resulting in CPR. As you might have concluded i survived it but rethinking about it maybe i shouldnt have. The reason im telling this is this most likely contributed to my retardness.Chapter 2: School
As a young kid ive always been called attractive by old people
. When i went to kindergarten i was always a loner ive been told. I always did my own thing and never had interest in other peoples activity. I was tested for autism but the result was negative. I also had done a iq test which came out at 126 (was undiagnosed but it could be a sign of aspergers).After kindergarten primary school began. I have always had anger issues so i got into alot of fights (It didnt matter if you were a guy or girl id beat the fuck out of you
). Later in primary school i got bullied and had really no friends because of these issues. I used to be the kid that left the class groupchat for attention. On valentines day my parents forced me to give all the girls a rose and my crush a ring (Brutually rejected ). That shit haunts me till this day. At the end of primary school i was known as the dirty kid no girl really liked and i didnt have any actual friends. Now its time for middleschool/highschool. My 1st time my parents forced me to go with suit to introduction and needless to say i looked autistic as fuck
. I talked to some people and that was it although i gave off the shy autistic vibe. I knew nobody in the school which was brutal for me cause i am already shy. I made friends in class by jestermaxxing and continued that at till my 2nd year (also i didnt get invited to hangout irl or anything so i was basically already a rotting truecel). When the 2nd year was over the classes had to split into 2 and my friendgroup did aswell. In the 3rd year a NT tall htn got in our class and everybody liked him even though he was a cunt (2nd subconsional introduction to blackpill 1st being the valentine). He hanged out with my friends but not with me as he found me a idiot because i was a jestermaxxed ltn. I continued being the class clown and everybody hated me including the teachers except for my 7 friends that i hanged out with outside of school maybe once every 3 months. I got alot of punishments from teachers and almost got suspended for 2 weeks for calling my teacher a dumb slut (based). I continued this till the 5th year and had a decent glowup going from ltn to mtn. I got treated more human and made some "closer" friends which were still restricted to highschool only. Basically i started having a little small talk with girls but nothing more than that. The most ive talked to a girl in my life was for 50 minutes and that was forced because we both had detention (she was a htb though and i managed to jestermaxx her into laughing with me but thats it). So basically that was all the action i got while some people were banging eachother and in one ocassion getting a partner pregnant i was rotting in my room gooning to degenerate fetishes that i wont go into (@ey88 not catching me today) . So basically i graduated and summer vacation came. I went to vacation with my school friends for 1 week and tbh it was the best week of my life. My 1st introduction to blackpill that wasnt subconcious was because i had rhinoplasty cause i had nose deformity (this happend in june of 2024). So no im not a tiktokcel nigger. Basically i ascended from mtn to htn and im growing better everyday. I noticed more IOI's from girls but never really bothered to do something with it and still dont. Im not used to it so i tend to ignore everyone plus im already fucked in the social aspect.Chapter 3: College
this is where everything went downhill by a fucking shit ton
. I kept into contact with only 1 friend from highschool which i maybe once every month go to the gym with. I have 0 other contacts besides that and this is my 1st real interaction the forum since ive only lurked because of rhinoplasty. This is when i officialy became a rotter. I spend most of my days lurking and sometimes post questions about simple stuff like diet, softmaxxing and hardmaxxing. Basically i had a good 1st impression off college and i was decently NT but once again i was ALL ALONE AND DIDNT KNOW ANYBODY AT ALL. I STARTED BEING INTROVERTED AGAIN AND PEOPLE STARTED TO HATE ON ME CAUSE THEYRE FAT FUCKING SUBHUMANS. LIKE THE LITTLE RATS THEY ARE THEY SWARMED ME AND INSULTED ME EVERYDAY TILL I HAD ENOUGH (shouldve gone ER tbh but i still have false hope for my future). Also there were only 3 girls in class and they all gave me good enough attention but after getting introverted i began to ignore them. Basically i quit college (i was 16 and they were all 20+, the world is cruel). After this i went to vacation for 2 months with my mother since she had to takecare of her mother cause she will get breast removal. These times were really calming for me since everyday i got alot of IOI's since i looked like one of them while also having stolen the dutch height genes + htn looks (Smv wise i was basically chadlite there since guys are ugly here and manlets while also having a lower% males to females% ratio). While this was happening i met a girl online. She is perfect for me: she is NT, Autistic humour like me (she makes rapes jokes ), a virgin, high mtb face with a stacylite body and overall literal wifey material cause she also cleans and cooks in her parents house. Basically we began e dating after we talked alot on/off camera. SHE wants to visit me in the summer which is a huge green flags cause it shows interest on her side. We also text couple stuff basically just cringe. All off this made me realise that i couldnt have achieved ANY if this if it wasnt for being blackpilled and ascending. How i look decides my day and my personality for the day (Its bpd but also not cause it isnt random but specifically when i look uglier than the day before).Chapter 3: Currently
So im back to the Netherlands actively contrebuting nothing usefull on this forum rotting on off topic
. The forum became my only form of social interaction along with blackpill servers like psl city except for the girl im talking to online (Og's like bgm are in there beefing 24/7). Basically im just working right now focused on a fucking brutal diet (Liver, cooked pig feet and some specific salads) and i also workout alot (since i was 14). overall my bodyfat% is 10 or below but i still have a chubby face jfl which i hope will go by as i age.
Basically i have achieved strong htn compared to the ltn i was in middle school (my base as a child was really good though). Nowadays the only thing i think about is ascending cause the only redeeming quality i have are my looks
. I am planning my other hardmaxxes and hopefully ascend to chadlite facially by 20 (through agemaxxing and hardmaxxing. IM NOT touching drugs cause they are unpredictable). Im lazy and dont want to become a wage slave for the jews. So im just working, rotting, have my entire mental stability decides by how i look and by the girl im talking to which i am praying to meet in rl. So yeah im 17 and she is also 17. I will do a life update in the summer if i have the pleasure off meeting her (or it goes downhill again). I will probabely rope if i lose her or dont achieve cl cause im mentally fuckedTL;RD
I had cpr at birth making me slighty retarded probabely. I grew up as a fucking subhuman loser. I glew up after highschool cause of hardmaxxing at 16 and im now talking to a girl online (a gem for this generation) hoping to meet irl. Growing up like i did looks are everything to me and decides my daily mood and every though process that goes through my mind.
THREAD MEMES:
Rep farm
:@ey88 @moggerofhumanity @Thinking_CEL @2025cel @fashioncel @Methylphenidate @TiktokUser @HostSamurai @Monarchy @autistic_tendencies @JeanneDArcAlter
