blimp
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A rant that make no sense dnr water whatever 
I used to imagine about turning into some chad overnight seeing howe different my life will be, how I will have my life rolled out like a red carpet for me as I smile walking over it thinking how I won at life but no that obviously stupid. What even changes? People will treat you like a king? girls will be all jaw dropped when they see you? you feel better then everyone? sure your life probably will be better if you go from hideous to good looking but after a bit what different does it get? if you are just a shit person then you are just a shit person or the way you act or think etc. it like money cant buy happiness(maybe), you might be beautiful but you are still the same person inside and you cant change yourself inside. you can improve/change a bit but won't change much. just stopped having the need to care about such thing I'm not jealous or mad at the world for this way because if my old wishes did become true I would just return to the same spot I am. as I'm writing this I have no clear goal of what I'm writing about. the spot I am is that we are so small compared to everything that most thing become pointless I'm not a nihilist*. humans are just weak we just have no power over anything. we don't have control over anything, there is so much unpredictability and I don't like it. life is precious it the only special thing that matters and we cant control life so we have no control over anything. we cant save life or know what happens. some think there's a heaven or hell, some you reincarnate into another life or you just stop existing but this life is special and you can't change or do anything to make up for one that's gone or if your gone.
There just far greater thing important then looks, getting fucked by your oneitis bla blas I dont care anymore those thing have become negligible in my problems. my problem is not knowing and can't doing anything when I know and it fucking sucks. temporary dopamine and distraction will only work for so long. nothing will fill the hole no matter how much hyper fixations, hobbies, socialising whatever I put in it
I used to imagine about turning into some chad overnight seeing howe different my life will be, how I will have my life rolled out like a red carpet for me as I smile walking over it thinking how I won at life but no that obviously stupid. What even changes? People will treat you like a king? girls will be all jaw dropped when they see you? you feel better then everyone? sure your life probably will be better if you go from hideous to good looking but after a bit what different does it get? if you are just a shit person then you are just a shit person or the way you act or think etc. it like money cant buy happiness(maybe), you might be beautiful but you are still the same person inside and you cant change yourself inside. you can improve/change a bit but won't change much. just stopped having the need to care about such thing I'm not jealous or mad at the world for this way because if my old wishes did become true I would just return to the same spot I am. as I'm writing this I have no clear goal of what I'm writing about. the spot I am is that we are so small compared to everything that most thing become pointless I'm not a nihilist*. humans are just weak we just have no power over anything. we don't have control over anything, there is so much unpredictability and I don't like it. life is precious it the only special thing that matters and we cant control life so we have no control over anything. we cant save life or know what happens. some think there's a heaven or hell, some you reincarnate into another life or you just stop existing but this life is special and you can't change or do anything to make up for one that's gone or if your gone.
There just far greater thing important then looks, getting fucked by your oneitis bla blas I dont care anymore those thing have become negligible in my problems. my problem is not knowing and can't doing anything when I know and it fucking sucks. temporary dopamine and distraction will only work for so long. nothing will fill the hole no matter how much hyper fixations, hobbies, socialising whatever I put in it
