
ascensionneeeded
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i stare at myself every day in the mirror and always get a wave of sadness and frustration pass over me. my sub-human eye area and lack of bone-mass makes me genuinely upset and angry.
there is a part of me that wants me to believe im somewhat attractive. I, incorrectly, have the opinion that im better looking than quite a few people at my school. i want to think i’m somewhat attractive and it’s reflected in the way i think and act but i am 100% not. im one of the people that i think im superior to.
i eat good and spend all my last money on supplements and softmax shit in the hopes that it will make me more attractive. i don’t even drink alcohol at 16. my friends go out and drink and pull girls while i stay at home and don’t drink thinking that it will somehow make me more attractive. i do everything i can and nothing works - minoxidil, primal diet, supplements, good sleep, thumbpulling, countless hours of research and reading up on theory.
it’s done nothing but make me hate myself more and live a far worse life. i don’t like looking people in the eyes because i fucking hate my eyes, i spend my whole days squinting which hurts my eyes and results in my family getting me prescribed eye drops. i lean on my face in school to cover my side profile. i cant take any compliments. i don’t like my photo being taken any more. when i walk past a mirror i don’t even look at my face.
girls call me ugly as a ‘joke’. i used to be called popeyes in school because of my eyes. a girl once told me my eyelids ‘were too big.’ i cried at like seven years old when i was trying to sleep because i ‘hated the way i looked’.
looksmax / blackpill does absolutely nothing. the advice just won’t work for a lot of people. the cringy people that say hardmax is the only way are right. my genetics are shit as much as i don’t want them to be.
i’ll never be attractive and i will always have a part of me that wants to think i am. another part of me will always know that im wrong. i guess i am just ugly as much as i don’t want to accept it.
there is a part of me that wants me to believe im somewhat attractive. I, incorrectly, have the opinion that im better looking than quite a few people at my school. i want to think i’m somewhat attractive and it’s reflected in the way i think and act but i am 100% not. im one of the people that i think im superior to.
i eat good and spend all my last money on supplements and softmax shit in the hopes that it will make me more attractive. i don’t even drink alcohol at 16. my friends go out and drink and pull girls while i stay at home and don’t drink thinking that it will somehow make me more attractive. i do everything i can and nothing works - minoxidil, primal diet, supplements, good sleep, thumbpulling, countless hours of research and reading up on theory.
it’s done nothing but make me hate myself more and live a far worse life. i don’t like looking people in the eyes because i fucking hate my eyes, i spend my whole days squinting which hurts my eyes and results in my family getting me prescribed eye drops. i lean on my face in school to cover my side profile. i cant take any compliments. i don’t like my photo being taken any more. when i walk past a mirror i don’t even look at my face.
girls call me ugly as a ‘joke’. i used to be called popeyes in school because of my eyes. a girl once told me my eyelids ‘were too big.’ i cried at like seven years old when i was trying to sleep because i ‘hated the way i looked’.
looksmax / blackpill does absolutely nothing. the advice just won’t work for a lot of people. the cringy people that say hardmax is the only way are right. my genetics are shit as much as i don’t want them to be.
i’ll never be attractive and i will always have a part of me that wants to think i am. another part of me will always know that im wrong. i guess i am just ugly as much as i don’t want to accept it.
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