Itsnotover77
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Where it all unconsciously started (7. grade)
As far as I remember back in the 7. grade, I wasn’t often liked in my class.
I wasn’t very good being social with people, but I was a bit more fat and not very attractive, so I was often excluded.
I didn’t know that looks would matter so much.
Slowly with time I lost weight, because I didn’t sports.
Where it began(8.grade)
Finally I was thin in the 8. grade.
They saw me as a thin person.
I got more attractive.
With time people were nicer to me and I was socially better.
A girl said in front of the class, that I was beautiful.
And she would say that in middle of the class.
Girls were nicer to me and I could joke and have fun with them.
A girl was slowly getting a Bf, but I really believe, that she was a bit interested in me.
I was often jogging in that time and I would always jog in front of her house.
She even asked me, if I would wanna take her out.
I was very dumb and inmature.
I was thin, beautiful and had clear skin.
So many things went good while that time.
Sometimes I still think about this time.
This was in the 8. grade
.
Almost everyone from my class was now nice to me and I looked finally good.
I just thought, that being thin is what matters and I didn’t know that looks would matter so much.
Where it already has ended (9.grade)
When I got to the 9. grade, my grades went downhill, had short hair and didn’t make it to the gymnasium.
Also I got socially worse and wasn’t liked by the most oft them.
I gained a bit more weight, because of my dirty bulk and had a bit more muscles.
Some people liked me more.
But I got more and more unclean skin.
After 9. grade, I worked on construction with 15, because I didn’t find something better.
Got depressed and had very strong acne.
Got fatter.
Girls wouldn’t talk to me.
Hadn‘t many friends.
I really hated my apprenticeship at the construction.
And all that, because I didn’t go to the gymnasium and was socially bad.
If I would have been NT and good looking then, maybe things would’ve been different.
Being with friends at 11. grade and hanging out with them.
Maybe I wouldn’t even had this strong acne likely because of stress and mental problems.
I was a fat boy with acne.
I changed the apprentice ship.
I even look a lil better now with better grades.
People like me a bit more.
But I just can’t escape this Looksmax philosophy.
It feels like an curse.
Just after I got into looksmaxxing, I recognized all this patterns and my life was the best at the point, where I was attractive and just a bit socially good.
Trying to looksmax to maybe reach this feeling again in the future.
……
Thoughts?
As far as I remember back in the 7. grade, I wasn’t often liked in my class.
I wasn’t very good being social with people, but I was a bit more fat and not very attractive, so I was often excluded.
I didn’t know that looks would matter so much.
Slowly with time I lost weight, because I didn’t sports.
Where it began(8.grade)
Finally I was thin in the 8. grade.
They saw me as a thin person.
I got more attractive.
With time people were nicer to me and I was socially better.
A girl said in front of the class, that I was beautiful.
And she would say that in middle of the class.
Girls were nicer to me and I could joke and have fun with them.
A girl was slowly getting a Bf, but I really believe, that she was a bit interested in me.
I was often jogging in that time and I would always jog in front of her house.
She even asked me, if I would wanna take her out.
I was very dumb and inmature.
I was thin, beautiful and had clear skin.
So many things went good while that time.
Sometimes I still think about this time.
This was in the 8. grade
.Almost everyone from my class was now nice to me and I looked finally good.
I just thought, that being thin is what matters and I didn’t know that looks would matter so much.
Where it already has ended (9.grade)
When I got to the 9. grade, my grades went downhill, had short hair and didn’t make it to the gymnasium.
Also I got socially worse and wasn’t liked by the most oft them.
I gained a bit more weight, because of my dirty bulk and had a bit more muscles.
Some people liked me more.
But I got more and more unclean skin.
After 9. grade, I worked on construction with 15, because I didn’t find something better.
Got depressed and had very strong acne.
Got fatter.
Girls wouldn’t talk to me.
Hadn‘t many friends.
I really hated my apprenticeship at the construction.
And all that, because I didn’t go to the gymnasium and was socially bad.
If I would have been NT and good looking then, maybe things would’ve been different.
Being with friends at 11. grade and hanging out with them.
Maybe I wouldn’t even had this strong acne likely because of stress and mental problems.
I was a fat boy with acne.
I changed the apprentice ship.
I even look a lil better now with better grades.
People like me a bit more.
But I just can’t escape this Looksmax philosophy.
It feels like an curse.
Just after I got into looksmaxxing, I recognized all this patterns and my life was the best at the point, where I was attractive and just a bit socially good.
Trying to looksmax to maybe reach this feeling again in the future.
……
Thoughts?
