Losing all hope is freedom

[Lonenely sigma]

Yeah, its a quote from Fight Club but still, I think its relevant.


I accepted that without surgery I won't be happy ever. I accept that every interaction I get into will suck. I accept that people hate me for nothing.


This made me very suicidal and depressed for a while, but now that I see how brutal and pointless it is, it kind of lost its meaning and thus stopped hurting.



I have one shot at fixing my life - that is surgery. If it fails, well, at least I tried. I am also aware that surgeries won't make me a chad by any margine, but still, it at least gives me some hope of a better tomorrow - a goal which makes me get up tomorrow

 

[apocalypse]

I've accepted I won't be happy no matter what
No surgery for childhood trauma

 

[Deleted member 2832]

Exactly what I'm going through now

 

[Lonenely sigma]

I've accepted I won't be happy no matter what
No surgery for childhood trauma

Whats your looks level though?

 

[apocalypse]

Whats your looks level though?

MTN

 

[apocalypse]

I realised I am not entitled to having a bearable life

 

[Lonenely sigma]

MTN

You mog me, I am a LTN

I realised I am not entitled to having a bearable life

May I ask what happened in your childhood?

 

[apocalypse]

You mog me, I am a LTN


May I ask what happened in your childhood?

Not one big thing but a lot of my childhood was being abused at school then coming back home and being abused by parents
I never had anyone in my corner
Always alone

 

[Lonenely sigma]

Not one big thing but a lot of my childhood was being abused at school then coming back home and being abused by parents
I never had anyone in my corner
Always alone

Sad to hear that man.


My parents always loved me and as a result gaslighted me how I am beautiful - which no doubt prevented me from pubertymaxxing. When I was 11 I was quite gl, but due to their gaslighting I never cared about my appearance and descended quite hard due to wearing braces and mouthbreathing.



But leaving looks behind, I am grateful to them and am glad I had it the way I did. It must be hard not having your parents on your side

 

[Deleted member 22124]

Sounds like you still have some hope then. Not really sure what to make of this. What would it take for you to give up? Is it a certain age? Or would you just continue on hoping indefinitely and perpetuate this alleged state of self-improvement?

 

[Fynasids dk]

Yeah, its a quote from Fight Club but still, I think its relevant.


I accepted that without surgery I won't be happy ever. I accept that every interaction I get into will suck. I accept that people hate me for nothing.


This made me very suicidal and depressed for a while, but now that I see how brutal and pointless it is, it kind of lost its meaning and thus stopped hurting.



I have one shot at fixing my life - that is surgery. If it fails, well, at least I tried. I am also aware that surgeries won't make me a chad by any margine, but still, it at least gives me some hope of a better tomorrow - a goal which makes me get up tomorrow

I will keep moving forward

 

[Lonenely sigma]

Sounds like you still have some hope then. Not really sure what to make of this. What would it take for you to give up? Is it a certain age? Or would you just continue on hoping indefinitely and perpetuate this alleged state of self-improvement?

What do you mean by giving up? Because if I lose all hope I will most certainly rope; I can't imagine myself LDARing.



By the level of looks I have currently I have no hope of ever having a life that I want, but the possibility of ascending, in combination with the fact I am only 18, is enough to give me the reason to at least try.




I lost all hope in the cards that I have, but because there's a chance that I will change them, I will continue playing the game.

 

[Deleted member 22124]

What do you mean by giving up? Because if I lose all hope I will most certainly rope; I can't imagine myself LDARing.



By the level of looks I have currently I have no hope of ever having a life that I want, but the possibility of ascending, in combination with the fact I am only 18, is enough to give me the reason to at least try.




I lost all hope in the cards that I have, but because there's a chance that I will change them, I will continue playing the game.

You won't. You'll still have that little bit of hope left even if you fail at everything.

Of course I can't know that for sure, but it's a fair assumption.

 

[Lonenely sigma]

You won't. You'll still have that little bit of hope left even if you fail at everything.

Of course I can't know that for sure, but it's a fair assumption.

Well, if I get quite obviously botched and broke I doubt I will find a reason to continue.


If I just create 0 change and waste my money who knows, maybe I decide to try again.